Set Me a Blaze: Messages to the sky

So I sit here and I all can be right now is nothing but lonely.
Why do I feel this way?

Partly I am alone in this world.
Yes I have family, and some friends.
But they can not always be here.
My friends are so busy with school.
And I have no job to take up my time.

At the start of this year I was more happy.
The store didn't close.
And I had some income.
But now I have non.
So how will i pay for my school books, or bills.
I'm most worrid about missing a payment.
I don't want to mess up my credit.

If that is messed up then I can't get a loan for when I go away to university.
If I can't go then what will I do with my life.
So I'm just here on this earth.
Alone because I'm not really alive.
I'm just here. And that is that.