My OperaSanity
Sunday, May 28, 2006 11:34:31 PM
So my sanity is in question by the two men in my life who I wish would stop questioning me. On the one hand, one wants to be my friend because well hes never had a relationship and hes not sure if he 1: is ready for it and 2: would know how to be faithful. He knows that he cares about me but he doesn't know if he could take the constant repetitive questions on how much he cares or the fact that my self esteem is rather low as it is. I speak everyday of just sleeping to ease the pain I feel. I try my hardest to not think of what is or what may come but what already was. I dont really know how Im supposed to act. The second of the two men is an interesting one. He tells a friend of mine that he cares about me therefore wants to see if he can work another relationship with me, but when I ask him a simple yes or no question about me he takes forever. Let me just say I asked him friday and still haven't gotten an answer on it. I know I should just be patient but Im starting to just say forget it and move my happy butt on. I love being single right now even though Im sick and tired, no literally Im sick and tired. I have so much work to do right now just to get prepared for life ahead. I am still choosing between staying here or going to college. The prospect of staying here, and getting a car my license and a few other needed things among which are an apartment of my own and well a better paying job. These two jobs are killing me. I haven't slept well in weeks and well my legs are hurting ever so much more everyday. I guess its the price you pay for poorly paying jobs, sometimes free food and just about anything else you can think of.
Sincerely, One who is losing her cool.
Sincerely, One who is losing her cool.
