Thursday, May 24, 2012 10:01:05 PM
Stay or not to stay?
That is the question.
I have two ways to choose now:
First, to stay here, grab myself together and realize UK will never become Poland. My child will have to get deal with that too somehow.
She feels pretty much alienated recently. She told me she feels like she's been worse than other children. That they all know everything at Kindergarten. That the Kindergarten's lady has got good words only for others as she still can't have fluent conversation in English language as yet.
At Kindergarten children learn about the weather, how to name colors, animals, first numbers or even letters sometimes too.
My daughter has got to learn it in both languages.
It's not as easy as people may think.
What I've heard from people is, kids take an average of first two years of school to start speaking English fluently, being a foreigner.
My baby is affraid of kids now. Only of British kids. She doesn't want to feel stupid anymore.
She only wants Polish children around now and I can't give her that while living here.
Kids learn quick.
It's easy to say when it's not your kid going through this.
...on the other hand, here is our home now.
For the last few years England is all we know.
There are many after and against of staying here.
Second, is going back to Poland. Starting our life for new, from nothing again.
Being among people like us.
Having a bit less money obviously.
Missing the place we hate right now.
We always want forbidden fruits, miss places we are not into any longer...after we get what we wanted in the first place, there is a cold shower to face with.
No fruit, no place is heavenish.
Everything has got its afters and againsts really.
Encounting them won't help making the right decision me thinks.
What should I do then?
Will I receive a mail from heaven with some clue tonight?
I've sent one a minute ago actually, waiting for the reply.
I hope heaven won't be out of packet data now, cause I'm feeling pretty much helpless at the moment.