this is my world

am i happy or am i sad? am i satisfied? am i serious? this are the questions that keeps on repeating like a broken cd or a tape recorder that keeps on rewinding.. i study nd get high grades because people expects me to excel academically with flying colors.. i want to meet their expectations.. i've been doing this since i was little, and maybe i got used to it..
as long as i dont have anything that would satisfy me, that would make me serious... i will keep on meeting their expections until i find it..