ALONE IN A CROWD
Friday, 26. December 2008, 23:37:09
Because I am content, usually, to be alone and like my own company doesn’t mean I don’t wish I had a partner in life.
Sometimes I get so tired of facing everything by myself and being strong…Lord I am SO tired of having to be strong.
The problem is that I always make such bad choices in men (which has been discussed in another of my blogs).
I have God of course but I’m talking about something different here.
I’m talking about having to deal with the dripping wash machine and the damaged roof by myself and with no funds to hire someone, nobody to even discuss it with.
I’m talking about stimulating conversation on a daily basis or just quiet words while reading or watching TV.
I’m talking about stretching out, just as I’m ready to fall asleep, and resting my foot or leg against the warmth of my partner’s.
I’m talking about someone’s arms around me and mine around him, just for strength or comfort or just because.
I’m talking about being able to lean against someone both literally and figuratively sometimes just because I can.
I’m talking about sharing.
I’m talking about having someone to take care of that also takes care of me. I’m really tired of taking care of me and I’m not doing the greatest job at it lately either.
I’m tired of making all the decisions about my life and my home by myself.
I’m tired of feeling alone in a crowd of friends.
But I better get over it and damn fast too!















AllThatGlitters # 26. December 2008, 23:48
minette061554 # 27. December 2008, 02:04
I just have moments....
I will keep you in my prayers also!
AllThatGlitters # 27. December 2008, 04:19
Huong Lan # 27. December 2008, 14:19
Have a nice weekend!
Lan
minette061554 # 27. December 2008, 16:19
I know how fortunate I am in my life though, I know that all the time.
You also have a nice weekend and a Happy New Year!!!
superkola112 # 27. December 2008, 20:24
superkola112 # 27. December 2008, 20:49
AllThatGlitters # 27. December 2008, 23:08
minette061554 # 28. December 2008, 02:48
Sometimes I have lonely moments but mostly I'm upbeat, happy and content with my life just the way it is.
Usually LOL.
Thank you Kevin
superkola112 # 28. December 2008, 06:24
minette061554 # 28. December 2008, 14:51
superkola112 # 28. December 2008, 15:02
minette061554 # 29. December 2008, 04:23
minette061554 # 31. December 2008, 04:51
I don't down anybody unless they give me a reason and deleting this is not downing you nor your beliefs it's just respecting my own blog.
If you feel strongly about this post it on your blog page, that's where it belongs and not on mine where I post my beliefs, thoughts, stories, poems and songs.
I read it and looked at every picture before deleting it.
flutteringby # 3. January 2009, 21:54
Oh, like every "decent" godly man has made all good choices all his life. Minette, "decent" godly people do not judge others for the places from where they have come - they leave that to God. Fair enough ig they judge whether present interaction with another person will bring positive or negative things into their life based on the present day choices and actions of that person.... that is the responsibility of all of us. But for the place from which you came and through which you learned in your travels along the way? Nope. I think not, Missy. And anyone who does is a holier than thou fool who has a whole lot more to answer for than you do and a whole lot more learning to do along the way, too. And that is a person who You should decide wakes with things that are active in his life which would bring negativity to you and from whom you should run far and fast. Wicked fast.
Accept you have learning experiences. As for people who live unhealthy lives - well if you choose to keep them there and open the door to them then you choose to accept what they bring and to keep that active in your life - which means it may touch the lives of others who try to get close to you and that might not be such a good thing if you are thinking something may lead to a meaningful partnership at some point. It does not mean that if someone does not accept your friends that they are bad for you.... it may mean that contact with unhealthy elements is unhealthy for them and they are less willing to accept that.
Just a few pieces to wonder about from the chocolate box of life.
minette061554 # 3. January 2009, 22:07
I know what you're saying.
But the Bible says something very clear about divorced women...
I do think, however, that in modern society we must make allowances for what that society has brought to us that isn't in synch with the Bible.
I hope anyway.
flutteringby # 4. January 2009, 17:50
You say above that "in modern society we must make allowances for what that society has brought to us that isn't in synch with the Bible.
I hope anyway. "
And you read and interpret the bible within the context of the modern interpretation of language which in some instances may be accurate and in others completely off base.
I say that we must also keep in mind that the meanings of words have changed with time and continue to change and that to truly understand the meaning of an older text one must take the time to understand the context of the verbiage in the time in which the text was written and not read it as though the writer was using the language with the context in which it is applied in modern common usage. We can see this looking back at language as current as the early and mid 20th century. You are talking about a text written long before then and if you are reading it and applying modern, common linguistic context to the interpretation of your readings then there are some things that you may be missing.
I humbly suggest you add include this into your thought processes:
http://christianity.about.com/gi/dynamic/offsite.htm?zi=1/XJ&sdn=christianity&cdn=religion&tm=152&f=20&tt=2&bt=1&bts=1&zu=http%3A//www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2007/october/20.26.html
minette061554 # 5. January 2009, 02:31
Thank you!
minette061554 # 5. January 2009, 02:42
Thank you