Learn for yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow

The weather is very horrible!!!! It's very wet, hot and suffocating!!! It also rain all day!!! Particles of rain are sprinkled on everything. Scenes are become fuzzy and murky by the light rain... streets are very sticky, muddy and dirty. I hate wet. It's very boring... I feel sick awww

I don't know why I feel very uncomfortable. I'm tired, and I can't found any inspiration in anything :frown: I don't understand. I wish I could become happy soon...

Today, a friend asked me:

- Minh, have you had a boyfriend yet? And have you ever fallen in love with anyone?

- No, I haven't - I smiled and replied without any thinking

suddenly, I remembered him, and was surprised by my answer!!!

I think I'm loving him, I love him so much. But, that's apparently not true!!! Really? Maybe I still consider him as a brother... Maybe I love my freedom than him, I don't want to be bounded up with anyone...:frown: I'm sad, a sadness which don't have a name themselves wash into my soul. I'm selfish and odd, aren't I? maybe so...

He went to study abroad. He is very very far from me. He'll never return to Vietnam once again :frown: and I'll not see him again for a long time, maybe I'll never be able to see him... I miss him so much. I miss his messages, his care, the familiar voice of him... I'm not very familiar with leaving him. I wonder whether it's love... I don't think that it's love...

He is very perfect. I always to be in his care. He's gentle. He's always patient of my stubbornness. He always understood me...
when he said that he loves me so much, I was very glad. But I wasn't sure whether I was happy or not!!! I just thought he was joking. I never dream of he loves me. I can't think why he loves me? I realized that I never had a heart beats because of him... I don't want to continue to make him believe that we more than just friends :frown: How to tell him without making him hurt? I don't know awww I'm very stupid!!! :frown:

I need time to think about him, about me, and about all. I have to study well. I don't want to continue to make people upset any more. I desire to make my dreams come true... I don't believe in fate. I'll stand on my own two feet and use my own power... I think I should take a short rest. when this worse situation is over, everything will be fine... no matter how the present moment is, I always believe that the future can be even fulfilling and joyous. I just try my best...

Come on, cheery up and listen to music, please listen to the gentle, deep and really nice melodies...