Shane's Babblings

It's Saturday and my body has decided to self program itself to not exclude Saturday from its routines. Sometimes I wish I could just hardcode my body's systematic timing mechanisms to exclude weekends.

I have not heard back from UI yet, and my pokes to know more have been met with Voice messaging, or auto-reply emails indicating that they are out of the office. My wife and I are quite at ends with being in limbo for so long. It's not that we really are seeking change from the wonderful valley that we are in now, rather stability in being able to choose between hopefully some good decisions. I am frustrated and t is beginning to manifest itself to others. I have been more stressed than normal not in the fact that I am not able to deal with the rigors of daily life, but because I am not being as tolerant of certain aspects of daily grind in the workplace, I'm going a bit batty. I have been a lot more direct in my affairs in the role I have at the university. I have been rather frustrated by the sense of complacency that has been plaguing those with whom I work.

I'm not discouraged by the workplace environment that I find myself in. I am surrounded by great people that generally have great talents. the problem lies int he fact that they just 'settle'. Maybe I am too quick to judge and am missing details of which i have not been made aware. We are embarking on a new era at the university. We have a core group of individuals trying to serve the university ideal beyond the institution for which we serve.

Other notes, my wife and I were comparing our little monster to other kids yesterday. He was standing next to a another 3 year old boy, and Dennis not yet two was still larger than this other lifeform. He is a big kid. He has a large frame. What he lacks in his verbal communication skills he makes up for in his dexterity as a pseudo-monkey at the local playgrounds. He loves being around his little tyke playmates and in general other children. he has just pushed through a clingy stage and hope that we can have more fun with him. It is my wife's bday tomorrow and I will be at a conference. Sucks. Well i think I am going to go and try to squeeze another hour of sleep in before the little monster stirs.

Cheers and a hearty almost happy bday to my wife...loves and happiness...cheers

Well this last week has been rather agonizing. I was invited to Moscow Idaho for an interview at the University of Idaho. IT was a positive experience and I really liked the environment and the people I met and visited with. The problem now is waiting. Oft time patience is procrastination misperceived and my wife and I are a little nervous about the whole thing. I'm not sure what I will do in this situation and what Liz will perceive as best either.

I love the work that I do and the people that I work with, although a majority of individuals at the University I am at currently are losing sight of their potential and the great vision that enticed me into the office I now work in. The excitement of conversion is gone and status quo is replacing anxiety and fear. Some have gone and gone, and many are just accepting the daily grind. Whether we decide to stay or go if that is an option that presents itself will challenge myself to push the envelope again.

We are patiently waiting on a home that we'd like to pursue here locally. the problem of course is that our decisions way on the outcome in part of UI and if it is positive or not. I wouldn't say that I am a good negotiator, rather I believe that my merits and actions over the last three years here have proved my worth at varied circles throughout the university. I know that many will not see the world as I do through my eyes, but i demand a lot of myself and my peers in he work place. I think it is exciting to see people achieve things beyond their personal expectations and see the joys as they accomplish great things. My wife has seen this in her own trials as being a mother to our son Dennis and choosing to be my wife. Her birthday is near and I'd like her to know beyond whatever silly quaint gifts I bring to her that she is that special someone. The mother of my great little monster and I see her efforts are not in vain rather she is hopefully molding him into our cash pot money making retirement plan in whatever field he chooses. Life is a cool, unique and wonderful gift often piddled away in trivial things. I hope that I never make her feel that way in any aspect of life although I do know at times I am very good in making her frustrated.

I get to attend another SETA event and hope it is more than just watching persons that are my colleagues party into the night and using it as an escape mechanism from their tasks at hand. Higher Education is a funny world filled with philosophies of academic freedom, pursuits of discoveries but losing sight of who is accountable and eligible to bring this knowledge to oneself. It's an environment much like parenthood, thoroughly rewarding and absolutely frustrating all in one breath. There are many i imagine having a sleepless night this evening due to the rampaging fires in Southern California and I hope those that are pure in heart find the refuge they seek and that the others are humbled and seek refuge themselves. I hope the good-hearted come to provide services that will bond a community that was once close-knit to be able to revive that spirit and not see it kindle away in the flames that will reveal the earth in that area of the world for mudslides in the coming weeks. My the good Lord provide them with the peace they seek, and the diligence to recover and rebirth much like the phoenix.

Yeah, I could have been a writer though I think the english language is quite trite and boring to write in. Developing plot lines in ones maternal tongue seems too easy and not enough of a challenge for myself to remain engaged in its pursuit.

Back to the original thought. The hiring and interview process is a rigorous and challenging one and it is never fun for myself to be on the candidate side. I find more and more that my hiring style is apart from others but not as unique as I'd like it to be and that provides comfort as I know many are troubled by the same decisions I try to succeed with while travailing through the process. Liz and I hope to be blessed and know more about it soon. She's hacking a lung and I need to go check on her.

Cheers and hope you enjoyed my scattered ramblings. Its what I do best.