Dedication, perseverance and passion-2010

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Can I breath now?

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I was on pm shift on Friday. It was such a hectic day that I didn’t even have a break. Patient after patient coming out from theatre.
Some patients had general anaesthesia , whereas others have local or just sedation. It really depended upon the operations they needed. The time I could knock off was approaching, only 4o mins away, and one patient arrived to recovery. As usual, patient had laryngeal airway tube and he was excubated without complications. He was still quite drowsy, but rousable. Since he was stable, I started to write the notes and after about 7 mins, the question he asked me really cracked me up. It was “ Can I breath now??” ha ha ha ha ha

Persuasion- Jane AUSTEN

I am big fan of Jane Austen because of her most famous novel, Pride and Prejudice. It was the first Austen novel I read. I love both Mr. Darcy and Miss Elizabeth. Their first impressions are not great and those are corrected later down the track by both of them. Elizabeth’s prejudice against Darcy is altered after series of misunderstanding and Darcy’s love transformed him to be humble and a true amiable and gentle man as society expect from him. I watched BBC series two times, and 2004 movie many times and read the novel for three times. I am totally drawn into Austen’s use of irony and Elizabeth’s wit. She is witty and funny and is a very likeable character. It is my favorite novel until I was introduced to Persuasion by my friend.

She borrowed me the 2007 version of Persuasion in which Sally Hawkins and Rupert Penry-Jones are starred as leads. I watched it and am totally fallen in love with the plot. I bought the book the day after I watched the novel. As always, book is better than movie. (Here is the summary. Persuasion is the story about Anne Elliot and Frederick Wentworth. They were engaged 8 years ago and Anne was persuaded by her friend, Lady Russell, to refuse him because of his rank, and penniless situation. But Anne met with him again 8 years after. But this time he was transformed into an amiable man with large fortune. He ignored Anne and could not forgive her for what she has done to him. He thought he could forget her by choosing one of the girls who admired him. But finally they both realized that their love for each other were not faded away and their love was still as strong as 8 years ago. They confessed their love to each other and it results in happy reunion.)
This is the more details plot.
Sir Elliot is materialistic and always looking for acquaintance of higher rank. His wife passed away 15 years ago and left him with three daughters, Elizabeth, Anne and Mary. While his wife was alive, there was a restriction in monthly budget and had never faced any finance problems. Once his wife passed way, Sir Elliot lived a life of extravaganza which leaded him to let his current place, Kellynch Hall, since he could not afford to maintain his current lifestyle and could not pay servants. He is not happy with the plan, but he has no choice but to move to a smaller town named Bath. He had a friend called Lady Russell who was a very good friend of his late wife. Lady Russell has a great influence on Anne.
Finally, Kellynch Hall is set up to let to Admiral Croft and his wife. Anne is shocked to know this news because she was engaged to Mrs. Croft’s brother, Frederick Wentworth, when she was 19. At that time, her engagement was disapproved by her father and Lady Russell. Lady Russell persuaded Anne to cancel the engagement because of Frederick’s occupation as a sailor and his rank. He was nobody with little fortune at that time and Anne followed Lady Russell’s advice and regretted the act she has done to Frederick. Now he and his sister, Mrs. Croft and her husband were coming to live at Anne’s place as tenants. She could not bear the thought of meeting with Frederick.
As planned, Sir Elliot moved to Bath and Anne went to see her younger sister, Mary at Uppercross where she met with Captain Wentworth again. Now Frederick was a changed man, and he had made his fortune and was admired by many girls. Anne and Frederick met several times while they were at Uppercross. After staying at Uppercross, Anne finally went to Bath where her father settled. The twist of the drama came long at this point. Anne had been openly courted by her cousin, Mr. Elliot. Anne highly thought of Mr. Elliot, but in her heart, there was only one man, Captain Frederick. Frederick finally came to Bath to meet with Anne because he realized that Anne was the only woman he deeply loved. When he arrived to Bath, he encountered with Mr. Elliot who was actively pursuing Anne. His jealous could not be concealed in front of Anne and he finally wrote a letter to Anne and offered his heart which was broken once 8 years ago by Anne. Anne was so delighted with his offer and she accepted it with much happiness. This time, their match was not against either by Sir Elliot or Lady Russell. Lady Russell was delighted to see Anne being happily married with her first true love, Frederick.


I have watched 2007 movie and BBC version. I like the version starred by Sally Hawkins and Rupert Penry-Jones. Their facial expressions are superb and portrayed the emotions so well. I will give 9/10 for this movie.
The scenes I love most from this movie are
-The first time meeting with Anne and Frederick at Uppercross
-While they are walking to visit Charles, Mary’s husband, relatives, Anne got very tired. Frederick knew about it since he is watching her from far every now and then and he asked her to follow with his sister in the carriage
-Anne playing Moonlight sonata and Frederick was watching her secretly
-When Frederick mentioned at the dinner that the type of women he wanted was a woman with determined mind who could not be easily persuaded
-When Louisa fell near the sea and both of them are trying to stop the bleeding, and they exchanged the look
-When captain Wentworth came to Bath, he met with Anne at Ball
-Anne run after Frederick after reading his confession letter which mentioned his offer of love
-The last scene when Frederick took Anne to Kellyunch hall with eyes folding and told her that it was his present for wedding.

2009 Summary

I choose this cover page from Economist. Obama as a black first president is a major historic moment in 2009. 2009 has a tumutulous year ( Global financial crisis (GFC) and other major events happened and the world has been changing ever since. What the world has learnt from these experienes?
In my personal life,it has been quite an interesting year for me. What a year for 2009! I couldn’t believe that 2009 is nearly coming to its end. Before starting to think for New Year’s resolutions and planning ahead, I would like to wind up the 2009.

It has been quite an interesting year for me. I have moved interstate and had a single life experience. But soon after five months, I decided to move back for family and personal reasons. All these experiences teach me and open my eyes in many different ways. I have also learnt that all the relationships need time, and effort from both parties.

I would like to start the 2010 in more positive way by positive thinking, taking time for myself to assess and reassess the situations, trying to give 100% for my personal goals, spending more time with family and friends, maintaining healthy life style, learning new skills (piano and sign language) and doing more of meditation and laughing whole heartedly.I wish everyone have a peace and calm , happy,sunny,brighter and successful new year.

A day with my son- part-2


He and his son started to talk slowly. They started to feel comfortable with each other. And then they went to sunna. They were in the water and his son saw tiger tattoo on his dad’s back and said, “Dad, it is cool.” “You must not get it , it is dangerous, and it hurts a lot.” was his reply. And then he told his story, “When I left you, I was only 25. At 25, family was burden for me. On that day, I was frustrated by your demands. I cry my eyes out every night in the prison worrying about you. I slapped you a lot on that day and I was afraid you might become limped. I am really sorry. Alcohol fuels the mind and I don’t even know whom I kill and why I did that.” When his finished his story, he son went under water and then he followed. His son had this inner dialogue, “This is my father, not a murderer or prisoner, with a cool tiger tattoo in his back.” He smiled at his dad and they stayed in the water for a while. After that, he took his dad to his girlfriend’s house. The house was magnificent and beautiful. His girlfriend came out with sleepwear and was rubbing her eyes. He introduced his dad to his girlfriend and told her that his dad was going back to America tomorrow. They said goodbye to his girlfriend and went back home.
The following day opens with the scene with his dad preparing to go back to prison. He suggested his son to go to the place where he used to took him since he was little. They walked slowly and he was talking to his son how he was like as a baby. His son was touched and grabbed Mr.A’s hand for the first time. After his son hold Mr.A’s hand, the memory was flashing back for Mr.A and he started to cry inconsolably. And his son said, “I am really sorry Uncle.” The officer watching behind them started to wonder what he had missed. (This is the climax moment of this story and the story unfolds in this way.)
His real son passed away days before he arrived. He had a bunch of good friends. His son told his best friend, B, that he had a father who was murderer and was in prison for that. He got sick and he went to the prison to meet with his dad, but he couldn’t make it, he passed away on the way to the prison. Since then his friends took turn to look after their late friend’s grandma and clean the house. His best friend, B, found out that his late best friend’s dad would come and visit him for the first and last time from the prison and then he decided to pretend as though he was a real son. Mr.A said, “ no matter you are my real son or not, I have spent a day with my son.” and B looked up at him with teary eyes.
The story ends up with the scene, B visiting Mr.A in the prison and here is their conversation.
Mr.A: Son, how are you? How is your school? Have you practiced maths enough? How is Mum?
B: Dad, let me ask you these questions. I am the one who is visiting you. I should ask you all of these.
Mr.A: Did you just call me, dad?
B: Of course, I am your son; you are my dad (with beaming smile).
This is one of the Korean movies I like most. The characters are believable and both of the actors are really good. I watched this movie is English subtitles. Even though the subtitles are not excellent, I still get the meaning and the way the story tells is subtlety and I can feel the warmness feelings the father and son developed for each other along the track. I have never watched any movies of both of the actors and the first impressions I have from this movie is excellent. I can feel the uncomfortable guild stricken father and innocent teenager who is trying to help his late friend out by pretending as a son. Heart warming film! If you are a fan of Korean movies, you should definitely not miss this one.

A day with my son - Part-1

This is one of the Korean movies I like most. I have never written the movie review before. This is my first one. I am not familiar with the Korean names, so I used Mr. A for his dad and B for his son. Please critique my review and leave a comment so that I can improve on my next one. Many thanks.


The story starts with the prisoner. The officers were assessing the prisoners for leaves. Their leaves depended on seriousness of the crimes they committed, the duration they have spent in the prison, good behavior they conducted in prison, etc. Now the turn was for the main character, let’s call him Mr.A. He was telling his story to the officers. He murdered two people and he had a son. When he committed the crime, his son was only three years old. He hasn’t seen his son since then, so it was almost 15 years now. He couldn’t remember his son’s appearance. One of the officers assessing was woman and she was moved by his genuine tear and feelings. While he was re-telling his story, he cried as well. Finally, the officers decided that he deserves to get one day leave from prison because of his good behavior. He was finally allowed to leave the prison for one day with one officer who was going to follow him in civilian dress. (I don’t know much about Korean’s Laws, apparently in Korea, for prisoner who had a leave for a day or so, must be accompanied by the officer from the prison.)
He left the prison early in the morning, he was looking at the prison from the car and gave the comment, “Wow, the prison looks like this from outside, I have never seen this before.” with teary eye. The night before he left, he was chatting with the officer who was coming along with him. The officer gave him a paper which had the lists of teenager’s slangs. He was practicing all those lines with the officer so that when he met his son for the first time in 15 years, he would be able to communicate with his son in slangs. He was still memorizing those slangs in his cells. All the light went out around 10:00 and he used the torch to read the paper which the officer gave him. He seemed nervous, anxious and happy.

He took the train to get to his son’s place with the officer. He fall asleep at first and then he woke up in the middle of the ride. He shook his head in disbelief that he felt asleep. He blamed himself for falling asleep instead of enjoying the scenery which he hadn’t seen for 15 years and this would be his only first and last chance. He cried again and blamed himself for not using time effectively and efficiently. The worries he had was his son’s impression on him when they meet. He couldn’t even recall his son birthday and his son’s appearance at all.
Finally, he arrived to his son’s place. The place was fairly messy. He knocked the door first and no one came and opened the door. The door wasn’t locked. He first went into to the living room and then he heard the voices from television in next door room. So he went into that room and he found his found. His mother apparently had dementia and couldn’t remember him. She was telling the funny story to her and was kept going about that story. After spending some time with his room, he looked around the apartment and finally he got into his son room. It was like a typical teenager room. He found the photo on his son’s study desk. It was a group photo and he couldn’t tell which one was his son. He looked at the officer who followed him and said, “I couldn’t even tell you who my son is in this photo.” with sad eye. He suggested the officer that instead of waiting his son to return home after school, they should go and wait in front of his school. The officer agreed with him and so they went to his son’s school.

The next scene showed his son at school playing piano. Let’s call him B. B seemed nervous and played a different song which he was supposed to and the whole classmates were looking at him with eyes wide. At the end of his song, they gave him applause. When Mr.A arrived to his son’s school, he got out of the car and was looking at the school and thinking his son must have grown up now. The officer with him reminded him that he should think of the way to get the recognition from his son. They haven’t seen each other since he ended up in prison 15 years old and his son would not recognize him either. So Mr.A came up with the idea of carrying a cardboard on which he wrote, “It is Dad.”
The school finished in the evening and students after students passed, no one came up to him and said, “It is me, I am your son.” At that time, his son was still inside the school and was wandering how he should go out. He wrapped his face with scarf and finally came out of the school compound and save a man wearing a big apparently cheap coat with a sign saying, “It is Dad.” He was slowly walking to his dad and took a scarf off. It was a first awkward moment the father and son met. The officer drove the car back to his son’s apartment. On the way back, they were silent and little conversation was made.
Finally, they arrived home and his son changed the clothes. After that the first thing he did was going to room where his grandma was watching TV. He lifted up the blankets and felt with his hands whether they were wet or not and he said, “Grandma, you are good today. You don’t pee on the sheets.” His dad and the officer were watching this and his dad’s eyes swollen up with tears again. The house was silent again and there was no conversation started yet between son and father. The officer suggested that he would cook dinner for them. He went out and bought stuff and cooked. They prepared the dinner and had the dinner together. His father was having this inner thought, “the officer’s cooking was worse than prison’s meals, thus why he always had meals at prisons.” His son was not eating much at all. He said this dialogue in his mind, “I don’t think the meal cooked by the officer is the reason for my son poor appetite. “ The officer asked this question to his son, “when is your birthday?” His son looked at his dad and his dad couldn’t answer the question. His son said, “My birthday was 2 days after my dad’s birthday.” This was the first time ever being called dad for Mr.A. He was really pleased and he asked his son again, “Did you just call me dad?” His son said, “No, I just said, my birthday is 2 days after my dad’s birthday, I didn’t call you dad.” (This is one of the best scenes in this movie; both he and his son were anxious and didn’t know where to start the conversation. Although he did a lot of practice on teenager’s trendy slangs the night before his leave, he forgot all of those. He was talking in his mind thousand times, but to speak out those inner thoughts, he had a struggle, so did for his son. )
After dinner, they cleaned up and his son started to wash plates. He came in and asked his son to leave them to him and said, “You know, in prison, the prisoners who had good behavior are only allowed to wash plates.” His son said, “OK, I will leave them to you then and walk away from him.” When the night falls, his son prepared the bed for his son and himself. Both of them couldn’t fall asleep. His dad suggested that they should turn the light off and his son said no. This is his son’s inner thought, “if I turn the light off, I couldn’t be able to see you. Don’t you know that I want to see your face?” They were both tossing and turning around in the bed and his dad finally suggested him that they should go out for a walk. His son was delighted with this idea and he changed the clothes swiftly and ran out of the house. The prisoner was not supposed to go out on their leave, they were meant to be with the officer all the time. The officer who was sleeping in the living room gave him gestures to go out. He could see the officer’s thumb up in the dark and so he went.

His son and he was running all the way along until they got to near river bank. They could see the full moon and Mr.A could see his son’s beaming smile. He said to himself, “With this killer smile, my son would be very popular with girls at school.” The rained started to fall and they both ran into the phone boot to get the shade. To be continued

Rime of the ancient Mariner


I was doing this English literature course for a while. At the beginning, it was a disaster to start with. I had no idea what theiambic pentameter was on the first week while the teacher was discussing about Shakespeare’s sonnets and Petrarch’s renaissance lyrics. It was not an easy course at all especially for non English speaking background people. But the teacher is very good at explaining and this course grows on me slowly. After third week, I had to start the first assessment. I chose “Rime of the Ancient Mariner” by Coleridge. It was one of the hardest assignments I have ever done. I had no idea where to start. In the essay, I have to discuss about poetic techniques, images, themes and how they are related to each other. I was not expected to get even a pass grade after I submitted the killer essay. I was received this assignment back last week and I got the pass grade!! Yahoo!
The next assignment will be either pride and prejudice or Wuthering Heights. I am still deciding between these two. One is romance genre and the other is Gothic. I am a huge fan of Jane Austen and had read P&P for a couple of times, watched the movie (four times) and BBC series. So I was determined to do P& P until I saw the question of Wuthering Heights. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee which one should I choose. Let’s see my next essay result. Finger crossed.

Shining Inheritance

I was watching this Korean drama not long ago and am deeply fallen in love with these characters.

I am not really good at writing synopsis, so I copy this following synopsis from Wikipedia.
Link-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brilliant_Legacy_(Shining_Inheritance)
Go Eun Sung (Han Hyo Joo) was studying overseas in New York and she returned to Korea during her vacation to bring her autistic brother, Eun Woo, to the United States to study music. Sun-Woo Hwan (Lee Seung Gi), who was also studying in New York, was ordered to return to Korea by his grandmother, Jang Sook Ja, to learn how to manage her food company. Eun Sung and Hwan, who were on the same flight back home, accidentally had their luggage bags exchanged, which led to several misunderstandings between the two of them.
Go Pyung Joong, Eun Sung's father, struggled to save his company from going bankrupt. One day, his wallet and valuables were stolen by a thief who subsequently died in a gas explosion accident. The police, upon finding Go’s belongings on the thief, mistakenly identified the thief as Go and a death certificate for Go was promptly issued. Go decided to lie low and not tell his family that he was alive so that his family could claim his life insurance money and use it to clear the debts. However his second wife, Baek Sung Hee, kicked her stepchildren, Eun Sung and Eun Woo, out of the house after collecting the insurance money and moved into a new home with her daughter, Yoo Seung Mi.
Eun Sung asked for help from several of her friends, including her senior, Hyung Jin, who avoided her because she was no longer rich. She managed to find a job at a nightclub with the help from her friend, Hye Ri. At the nightclub, Eun Sung met Hyung Jin's senior, Park Joon Se, who was shocked to see her working there. She also met Hwan, who caused her to lose contact with Eun Woo. Realising that Eun Woo was missing, Eun Sung was devastated and tried searching for her brother but to no avail. With the help from Hye Ri and Joon Se, Eun Sung rented a small room and started a small dumplings stall while continuing her search for Eun Woo.
Meanwhile, Jang became deeply disappointed in Hwan as Hwan had no direction in life and did not know how to cherish her company and her employees. While pondering over what to do about her grandson, Jang visited a neighborhood that she used to live in when she was poor and encountered Eun Sung who was selling dumplings. Jang met with an accident and received help from Eun Sung. Jang, seeing that Eun Sung tried her best to take care of her even when she could not afford her own daily expenses, was touched by Eun Sung's compassion. Jang brought Eun Sung home and announced to her family that she was going to appoint Eun Sung as the heir of her food company...
Why I like this drama
1)The actors, actresses, and rest of the cast portray so well in this drama and bring the drama alive.
2)The female is a very positive character and keeps the positive attitude even though she was facing the darkest times in her life at some points of drama.
3) The actor who portrays as Joo Se has unequivocal love towards Go Eun Sung. He has done so much for Eun Sung without expecting any return. His selfless love and acts outshines the main lead actor.
4) This drama shows about love, loyalty, friendship, family love, positive attitude and gives lessons to the viewers in many ways.
Personally, I think Bae Soo-Bin is the most outstanding actor from this drama. He deserves the credit for his mature acting skills. His character brings the brightness to the drama and dampens the sadness. It would be very nice ending if Go Eun Sung chooses him over Sun-Woo Hwan. Sun woo hwan brings a Byronic character to the drama, and as the drama goes on, his personality is gradually changed due to Eun Sung. Eun Sung has also done a fantastic job. Overall, it is a outstanding drama and you should not miss it if you are a fan of Korean drama. Apparently, the rating is higher than Hana yori dango ( Boys over flowers) Korean version.
This is a must watch Korean drama, what are you waiting for?

True Vs Fake friend


I think it is very important to be true to oneself. Insincerity brings fake face and it will not help to develop the true friendship. There is a saying, “family could not be chosen, but friends can be.” This saying is so true. We have the absolute choice to whom we would like to be friends with and we would like to stay close with. Fake, self centered and egocentric people will never be able to experience the taste of true friendship because of their selfishness. When we start to make friends, we tend to choose the people with same personalities. Same personalities bring the common topics to talk and activities to do together. Even though we have different of opinions, we try to look from different angels of those opinions and could stay in peace in spite of having disagreements. Once we get to know friends, we learn more about friends. By doing so, it could also bring disappointment because the friends we think sincere turn out to be fake and egocentric. We learn something truth facts about their personalities which are contrary to the beginning. In this case, we have to make a decision whether we should stay close like before. If the particular friend is egocentric, it is better to keep some distant so that we could save ourselves from draining in those fruitless friendship.
But on the other hand, if we ever come across with true friends, we should not let go of the opportunity. We should cherish the every moment we spend together with them. Only fair weather friend would stay next to others whom they think would be advantageous for them. In times of difficulties, they could not be found anywhere, whereas true friends will stay and share the sorrow and difficulties of their friends. True friend accept his or her friend for who they are and who they are not regardless of their status. True friend has a best interest for others and would not sway away in need.
Life would be meaningless without true friend. Life is a long journey and not easy one to go through by oneself. There will be always the time we need to share our sorrow, joy and happiness. Therefore, it is a blessing and a gift from God to possess a handful of true friends in one’s life.

Angel's Wedding


Congratulation to Gabriel and Angel
Friday 25th of September was very special day. My best friend, Angel, got married on that day. I was there to witness the very special moment. I have known her since 2005 February. From that time on until now, we have been through thick and thin. We were there for each other to share joy, sorrow, frustration and anger. I have to say that she is the one of the best things ever happened to me. Her name is angel and she is her name. Wherever she goes, she will bring joy, hope and caring attitude. Without her support and encouragement, I could not possibly go through the tough times. Even though she is younger than me, her maturity is beyond her age. I had mixed of feelings when I saw her in her beautiful wedding gown. Happy and sad. But I am sure our friendship will never change. I am very proud of her and very happy for her.
Her husband is the luckiest person in the world to have her. I joked to him that he better takes care of her, otherwise he will know about me. Ha ha ha this is my threat against him, I think it is not only me, but her little sister as well. I wish both of them to be very happy and possess a happy family in many years to come. Karyo Anju!

I give you bitter pills in sugar coating. The pills are harmless: the poison's in the sugar. Stanislaw Lec


Frank and explicit-that is the right line to take when you wish to conceal your own mind and confuse the minds of others. Benjamin Disraeii
“Honesty is the best policy” as the saying goes. What comes up in my mind is the question of the extent of the honesty we show to others. There is no doubt that the society would like the honest person rather than wicked and cunning. However the criteria we use in order to access the honesty of person is different from one another. Honesty could be expressed through one’s act, mostly importantly, words. But do we really like the honest, frank and explicit criticism from others? The answer will be depended on the different circumstances we face. From times to times, we need to discuss upon life issues with others and we would like to get he most sincere advice. In this case, it is very important for us to be able to analyze others opinions without bias.
To start of with, there are two major types of advices which are truth and frank and the latter is sugar coated, but inside is fruitless opinion. In terms of accepting others opinions, we have to overcome the denial phase of ugliness truth. Being frank and explicit, we express our own sincere feeling regardless of how ugliness it might be. The best example would be the medicine we take for illness. Even though it is bitter from inside, we take them willingly to get rid of sickness. Benjamin Disraeli made such a ironic statement regarding this matter. He said, “Frank and explicit-this is the best line to take when you wish to conceal your own mind and confuse the minds of others. Another good example would be from Jane Austen’s most beloved novel, pride and prejudice. At the beginning, Miss Elizabeth Bernard had a strong prejudice against Mr.Darcy because of his aloof behavior and comments on her own family. Even though comments were very true, it was hard for her to accept at first. She thought ill of him to be so outspoken.
On contrary to frank and explicit, sugar coated words are widely popular and accepted by people even though there might be little truth in it. Why people prefer to those words? The reason behind is those words are appealing for people’s heart. These words exclude the bitterness truth and make people feel better about themselves. In my personal experience, I learn a great deal of accepting the truth. I have grown up with two friends. We all went to the same high school. One of my friends always said the good thing about me no matter what, but the other told me her opinion very straightforward and blunt. So I thought the latter being not kind enough and I close my eyes to see the truth. When the times went by, I learnt that my friend who tells me her sincere opinion has a best interest in her heart for me, whereas the other one would make fun of me at my back. This is my high school experience and from this lesson, I have learnt to value the frank and truth opinion even though it contains true bitter facts.
Ugly truth is the bitter pills without sugar coating. Even it is bitter, it will do good for us. But on the other hand, words could be expressed in different ways to make it more comfortable for others to take and accept them. In real world, we have to deal with different kinds of people whom we are not close enough to tell the very frank and explicit opinion. In these circumstances, we could set up the boundary what we should say and how we should word to get the acceptable stage for others. By doing so, we add sugar coating in our words, and at the same time, we could say the truth facts. After all, we prefer to take a sugar coated tablet to get the inner bitter pill than plain bitter pill.

Miss Chopsticks by XINRAN


I happened to see the novel on the shelf with the Chinese character on the cover. I just bought it and once I started reading it, I could not put the book down until the end. In china, the parents prefer boys as they could support them and they will carry the family name with them, but for daughters, once they get married, they will change their family name. The Chinese would call the sons, roof ( giving support), but for daughters, they are called chopsticks, as they could not provide any support to the family, in addition to that, they are the burden. (This is very old conception) The story begins with the family with six daughters. The father gave his daughters according to their birth serial. The daughter, Three, were about to enter into arranged marriage, but she didn’t like her husband- to – be. So she decided to come to the city to work with the help of her uncle. After working in a city for a year, she came back to the village for a Spring Holiday. When she came back, her sisters, SIX and FIVE, would like to accompany her when she went back to city. There worked at the restaurant where she used her skills learnt at village, decorating with vegetables, whereas, FIVE worked at the Chinese traditional Clinic. SIX was the only girl who studied for 6 years at the village and she was very delighted to have a chance of working in the tea house where customers could read, write the comments and discuss the books they read. The stories of three sisters developed from there and the book detailed how they struggle to overcome the cultural shock, how to fit into the new environment and how they try hard to achieve their goals. This book uses a lot of Chinese proverbs and gives the readers insight into the Chinese language, culture at that time.

Embracing the new journey

I have been away from Opera for a little while since I have made a move back to the city, Sydney. Since I arrived, I have been so busy with work, re settling back into the city life. Going to another city opened my eyes in many different ways. There are always pros and cons. In terms of multicultural community, Sydney is way better than Adelaide. Very vibrant I have to say. Finally, I am back HOME. My flatmates are very nice and getting along well with the flatmates is one of the very important things since I am away from Family. My flatmate is a full time worker, and after she comes back from work, she plays the piano during the night time especially. Our music taste is quite similar. She loves Classical Music and she plays a bit of Beethoven, Chopin, etc. She introduced those music to me and my little sister. Since then, we started to like the classical music. I am lucky enough to listen her playing. It is so relaxing to listen her piano playing. I appreciate to have her as a flatmate and a good friend.
The other day, she cooked the Indonesian Chicken Soup called SOTO AYAM. It is a chicken based soup and it comes with vermicelli noodle, fried tofu, fried shallot, bean sprouts, lime and tomato. All are very fresh and healthy since no oil is needed to add into the soup. Normally, I do not like the soup with tumeric in it, but this Indonesian soup won over me. You can buy at any asian grocery shop for SOTO AYAM Soup base. Go for SOTO AYAM!!
soto ayam

I would like to share this thai Commercial. It is a touching and inspiring commercial.
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Ready to say “Good Bye” to Brighton and Adelaide

I have been in Adelaide for over 5 months and it has been amazing experience. I have to admit that people here are friendlier than Sydney. Last week, I have taken the bold step to submit my resignation letter. The response from my manager was so supportive. I could not ask for better. People would come and ask me when I am leaving, etc. By moving here and starting new job in Emergency Department is one of the most rewarding experiences I could ever get. There are always negative and positive about workplace and during my short stay in ED, I have experienced both. But the positive experiences outweigh the negative one and the overall experience has been great. Moreover I feel that those negative experiences made me stronger person and at the end, I learnt something from them and I would be able to handle better when I have to face with the same situation again.

Brighton beach would be the definitely on the top of the lists which I would be missed when I leave Adelaide. Brighton beach is such a nice small family beach and watching sunset from the beach is amazing. I went to the beach the other day and took some photos.

For memory, I took some photos of the orange tree from my backyard.

Nice to have this kind of experience.
I am gearing up for my settlement back in Sydney.yes

Friendship


When it comes to “friends” topic, things came up in my mind are “can be yourself”, supportive, positive criticism, and helping out each other. There are different types of friends. People who would like to make friend with someone else because of fame, status, and the benefits they could get out from that friend. But there are also people who make friends with others just for the simple reason- to keep company each other, share high and low of life.

We could not choose the family members, but we do have choices whom we would like to be friend with. In front of true friend, we can be ourselves and can do silly things. But some people started out to be simple and sincere, but the time goes by, we find out more about them and things turn out to be opposite ways.

Materialistic people would turn away if their friends become poor or have fallen to the ground from the high. They prefer titles such as Executive, Director, Doctor, Lawyer, Professor, etc…. In these friendships, true meaning of friend are invisible, but is covered by fake glamorous superficial materials.

True friendship comes with understanding to each other, forgiving, giving time, giving support (in everyway) and accepting for who we really are, but not our status, titles, or wealth. My friends can be anyone as long as they have an honest, sincere heart, but not materialistic, cocky and think highly of titles....................... So be wise in choosing friends and true blessing and joy could be experienced by true friendship.

Decisions

I think decisions are part of life and when it comes to making decisions, it is quite important to think twice before actually act on them. Sometimes I could be impulsive and make a hasty decision and it turns out into pear shaped. But I also believe that life lessons could be extracted from mistakes and they will help me when I encounter with the same situation and mistakes will not be repeated again. I am glad that I do give a good try for moving to another state, but it does not work out as I expect. Five months ago, my motto was, “Make a move, and make a move.” Now it has been changed to, “stay where your family and friends are.” I have made a yet another important decision again to move back.

My little sister’s exam

My little sister took the IELTS test on 11th of July and her result will be out in next two weeks. Fingers cross for her result.


Sink or Swin

Now I am doing post graduate philosophy course. I have enrolled into only one unit, but I feel like I am sinking in the middle of the ocean. I am overwhelmed by the amount of reading needed for the course. I underestimate the course load, and moreover philosophy readings are quite different from normal reading. They are hard to understand. I have no idea whatsoever who are the key thinkers and their theories. But now here I am doing this course. Well I say myself that I have already paid for this and I have to do it, and there is no choice left for me. The subject I am doing is European philosophy, and the key thinkers are Descartes, Locke, Kant, Hume and Rousseau. When I started to read “A discourse on method” by Descartes, I have managed to finish only part-2 and would like to give up because I have no idea what he said in those parts. I was freaking out myself for choosing postgraduate course. It is just so hard. Then I google a discourse on method and I have found the sparknotes website, http://www.sparknotes.com/. I feel like I have found the boat coming to the isolated island. It is such a great site for students. It has free online study guides written by Harvard students. So I copy and paste for the topics I needed to study. Those guides are shorter version and come with analysis. Even though it they are short, I could still get the general idea of the original work. After reading the study guide for “a discourse on method”, I feel better and have confidence to continue my reading for the rest of the Descartes work. “ A very short introduction” series for all key thinkers are also very good for beginner in philosophical studies according to my tutor. So I decided to buy them. These are my attack plan to nail this subject. Let’s see whether I will swim or sink for this unit.
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No moral system can rest solely on authority. Good laws have their origins in bad morals.


Please critique my essay.


Moral value is very special part of individual and they are the standards of good and evil. It defines who the person is and most importantly it effects the people interaction in the whole society. People with different backgrounds would have slightly different moral values. Even though there might be differences, but the core standards of good and evil in the society today are the same. Those values may derive from religions, society, government and oneself. From all those sources, moral values and laws develop to maintain the society in peace. Why would we need laws in the society to keep it functioning? By looking back some of the laws, they do develop after having tragic accidents in people’s lives or nation almost collapses without those laws or endanger threatens the world peace. Laws are implemented by the authority and if the authorities are corrupted, good laws would not come up to protect the people. It is like a cascade among good laws, bad morals and authority. Ultimately however I truly believe that some of the laws are originated from bad morals, but not all and if the authority is corrupted, moral values of the country will deteriorate.
To begin with, it is not undeniable fact that good laws come into action after bad morals. Evil deeds could range from family and relationship abuse, homicide, assassinations, terrorism attack to wars. Millions of people suffer from the impact of those evil deeds originated from bad morals. One of best examples is nuclear control program. Why the whole world is so sensitive when the North Korean launched the missile test recently? It caused head lines in the media and grave concern all over the world. It threatened the world peace and security of the neighbor nations. Hiroshima Day is a never forgettable day for Japanese people since they were the first people who experience the inhumane nuclear bomb. We have left centuries behind after that tragic accident happened, but people in those affected area are still suffering for many years to go on. Therefore, the United Nations implement the laws against nuclear program. The same thing goes to the September 11 attack by terrorists. Correspondingly, any act which could threaten the human’s life will have zero level tolerance. In those tragic accidents, we could learn moral lessons from them and good laws are developed in order to protect the innocent people and most importantly to prevent them from happening again.

In these circumstances, governments play a huge role for bringing good laws into effect. Governments have the power to implement the laws, educate people in a wide range of media, foresee any unwanted effects in coming generations and promote the good culture among societies. Everyone agree to the fact that underage drinking and drug abuse are bad and they could block the every possible successful step of the youth. Now in Australia, both state and federal governments are campaigning for staying healthy life styles, educating young adults regarding underage drinking and drug abuse because those problems hamper the prosperity of the future nation. Recently, our legendary king of POP died of heart attack and most likely due to overdose of pain killer prescriptions. Now the US government is looking into the laws for stricter pain killer prescriptions. Celebrities are public figure and they have influence in the world beyond geographic and cultural boundaries. If more young people would imitate instead of learning moral lesson, the lives of the young could not be imaginable.
But on the other hand, it is vital that governments have to be accountable for their actions and laws. If the governments are corrupted and cultivate the culture of it, it could derange the moral values of the society as well. Numerous examples could be seen around the world. If the government becomes immoral, it becomes the people’s enemy and finally results in chaos. The Burmese military regime and Zimbabwean political figure, Mugabe are few to name. In the wild land, it is almost impossible to grow the paddy. In the environment surrounded by immoral and corrupted authorities, it is hard for moral values to grow. Therefore, I truly believe that moral authority and good laws no matter how they are originated from will keep the society in peace.

I TUNE U on iTunes Store

I Tunes U for life long learners – With this purpose, iTunes U was started almost three years ago. ITunes brings leisure and opens my eyes in many ways.
You can download the iTunes software from this following links.
http://www.apple.com/itunes/download/

After you install it, it is ready to rock and roll. You can go to the iTunes store and search whatever you like. If you are in high school or college or university or even post graduate student, you would be able to find all most every discipline ranging from philosophy, arts till multimedia, law, medicine, biotechnology, engineering courses, etc and they come with audio, video and podcast from colleges and universities from America, and from all over the world. Most the lectures are fantastic and the quality is much better than YOUTUBE. It has anything and everything you need to learn without going anywhere and you can take any classes within your pace and more importantly it is FREE. It is amazing job done and contributed by the people from all the universities and colleges and Apple.
It is a great help for my studies. Five Stars for this excellent site!
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My GAMMY Study Buddy


I have been meeting up with one girl lately for next year exam. She had science degree and is now working as a sleep technologist and full time mum. She would usually bring her youngest son, 4 years old to the study place. She has three young kids and I am inspired by her energy and dedication. I am not so sure that I could do the same thing if I were her. Her whole family supports her to continue study to make her dream come true. She is such a hard worker and I truly believe that she would achieve her dream.

Today is PHOTO DAY
I had day off today and I was up late in the morning. In the afternoon, I was watching the I am sorry I love you, Korean tearjerker drama ( again procrastinating my study). The drama is superb, and I was moved by story. When I looked at the time, it was nearly five 0’clock. Here, the shopping center closes at 5:00pm on Sunday except some coles express shops. I had a plan in the morning to take photos of some flowers from the backyard (purple flowers are very beautiful) and orange tree. There is one orange tree at my backyard and I haven’t bought the oranges since last one month. How lucky I am, my house owner looks after the tree and I get to eat oranges.
Anyway I was late, so I had a bike ride to the coles express, bought the batter for my camera and then headed to the beach. It was quite dark when I get there so I missed the sunset and chance to take photos. There was no more shore at the beach as the sea swelled. But I still took some photos to make my riding worthwhile. I will be uploading some more beautiful scenery photos later this weeks or next weeks.

Another lesson

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Another lesson I learn is not all the grumpy and angry people are despicable. Not everyone is carefree and happy person at workplace. Different people at different stages of their lives and some people are facing enormous pressure from finances, family problems, partners, while others are enjoying best time of their lives. I have been working with one of my workmates, she is usually grumpy, and does not smile much. But when you ask things, she would explain with patience. Later I learnt that she was going through nasty separation with her husband and was under pressure for her trouble teenage children. Well this is about my workplace. Overall it is not that bad.
I am really looking forward to go back to Sydney, but I don’t know when it will happen. But I have started my countdown of my new rooster. I am half way through this rooster now. Yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!

Wedding,….dah dah dah dah ……..



One of my best friends is getting married at the end of next year. This is news for me, we have been together since I started my university in here and our friendship never stops even though we began to work in different hospitals after graduation. She is Japanese, has very sense of humor (I add very, because there is a reason behind it.) She loves practical jokes and is good at telling jokes. We (me and anju) called her ever princess 18 because she is tiny, and has baby face with long hair.
While I was in Sydney, I met up with both of them, we had a usual meet up at anju’s place.Our trademarks are chicken, lemon flavored chips and white chocolate cake.
We met up countless of times during uni days for assignments discussion, future, family and girly chit chat, family meeting with anju’s dad, her little sister’s liz, ai’s parents and my little sister, for birthdays, for no other reasons, we usually buy these three items for our numerous celebrations. And this time, we did the same thing. This is one of the best memories I cherish. Simple and full of meaning. I wish all the best for my friend,Ai.


Getting back to face the reality




Well, after spending fantastic time in Sydney, it was time for me to go back to my (temporary) place. The day before I came back, my sister cooked the traditional fish broth soup which was really nice especially when eating together. I came back to the battle field of Emergency Department. Now I have been here for over three months and people get to know me and there is more fun at workplace than before. It is hard to warm up people within a short time, but once they get to know the person, they start to open up. I think it is quite normal. I have more friends now who I could talk to more and share the joke. As the saying goes, “there is always one back sheep in the family”, and I think the same thing at workplace as well, mean people.
Politics and power struggle at work are huge part of the workplace. I get to know who I could approach when I need help and who I just have to ignore and pretend that I just concentrate on my work. There was one person bugging me. One day, we have the difference of opinions on one of the patients and he talked to me from upper hand. I have been putting up with him for couple of times and I just talked to myself that now is the time to stand up for myself. I discussed with him regarding the issue, and told him that I was not happy with the way he talked to me and he could have told me in a better way. He apologized me for being too abrupt. Since then I have no problems for working with him. If I haven’t spoken up for myself, he might have been treating me the same way. I felt that I earned self respect and respect from him.
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