Super Happy Tokyo Girl!!

i usually break up with bf within 6months.
so i used to call it as "my 6 months rule"

I’ve always changed myself to be what my bf likes.
just like I’m chameleon.
You know, like change the color to the things I’m with.

I just wanted to please them
by being their ideal girl or,
by doing what they like.
I know this sounds very hypocritical
but I thought their happiness was my happiness
so i treid to be what they like.

But you know, at some point time,
I notice that I’m tired of being or doing what they like.
And it makes me like,
“alright, I quit!!!”
because all of sudden, I notice that what I’ve been doing is just acting as their doll girl.
it starts choking me, and makes me wanna braek up
or I just run away.

That’s 6months usually.
Maybe I just can’t keep acting more than 6months that’s why 6 months

But now I’m with my super monkeylove.
I didn’t even notice when it passed 6months.

Though I wanna try be his perfect girlfriend,
I don’t know what to do or how to be
because I still have no idea what kind of girl he likes.
So, there’s no chance for me to be his chameleon girl unfortunately or fortunately.
Good for me though

If your bf/gf said,
"To be honest, i dont know what to think(or feel) about you"
What would you think or feel?

it's just a small question, so, never mind

by the way, my sweeeeeet Iku
Thank you so much for your Email
No question that i love you.
Just like you said lastnight, i'm glad that we could share everything we go through in our life.
i'm proud of having such a wonderful friend like you.
you always make me stronger than ever
make me believe in myself
when im with you,
i always feel like i could do everything
you always give me confidence

i never thought we could be so close to each other
but now i can't imagine my life without you

Iku, i'm always there for you, and i know you'll be there for me too.
i miss you so much
and of course i love you too!!

p.s.
i guess everyone read this blog may think you are man or we are gay hahahaha
As usual
oh i remember the day you came back to Japan last winter. ( or 2years ago?)
we met in front of Tsutaya in Shibuya
you jumped at me and kissed me dont you remember?!
i love ya again