what kind of relationship you want from me

Saturday, 3. May 2008, 06:18:12

i just happened to rememeber one little thing
so let me write it down in here.
When i started dating mybf, monkey,
i asked him several times if he has any plan to leave Japan.
and
his plan in next 5 years.
i guess i was pretty annoying asked him so many times the same question

but i just wanted to know if he is really the one to have a long happy relationship.
i didnt wanna make the same mistake again
like,
if he never wanted to get married, why shold i start dating with him?
if he had a plan to leave Japan in a year or so, then what's the point to start relationship?
you know

one of my friends has been dating with Canadian guy for a few month,
she knows that he's just staying here a few months on his holiday
but it seems like she never really care.

or,
another friend, she's been dating an American business man who never gonna get married.
she is 30 now, sometimes told me she might wanna get married someday..

then, what the point to be with the guys for all the girls?
love is blind, yes, it is.
i was the same like those girls before.
but not anymore.
i wasted enough time on them.
i did learn from lessons.

and i've been asking myself what kind of relationship i want,
and
now, i tried to make sure what kind of relationship guys want from me,
before i fall in love
so,
here i am
with monkey

if,
if,
if i thought i would breakup someday,
i never had started

of course, i used to dated with guys just for fun, i flirt with guys,
but just to have a good time, to enjoy the moment
without thinking that much
you know
for nothing, just for fun

but
is that what i want with monkey?
is monkey just for fun?

NO
caz i could imagine that we'll have long long happy relationship

oh sorry it doesnt make sense at all..
no nothing im a bit comfused.
i mean, what am i writing here?
all i wanted to say is,
just,
monkey is the one i wanted to be with

p.s.
Dear Iku
relationship is something we build together
to make it better, stronger, and stiff by taking time and effort and love.
gotta get through bad time and good time together,
but, that's why we could be perfect to be together someday
right?
oh, am i talking about us? sounds like you and me huh?

ahaha
love ya

still the monkey　だけどまだまだ。。better together

Comments

There was a girl in Italy taht i liked very much, but since I had to leave for Japan soon, I dind't start a relationship.
I don't know why but I'm regretting it. If just for a few months it could have been the best experience of my life.
But I didn't want troubles, I already decieded to come to Japan, I thought it just was the right thing to do.
I'm happy to be here, but when I'm alone and there is noone to keep my mind off wondering, I end up thinking about her.

So if you really want the monkey, go for the monkey!

By dalu, # 3. May 2008, 08:07:38

By TheSoc, # 3. May 2008, 09:45:08

Anyway,I always support your decision.
" A great pleasure in life is doing what people say you cann't do "

By ltcong, # 3. May 2008, 11:01:44

life is what happens while you are busy making plans.

By lamarca, # 3. May 2008, 11:35:36

"Is it better to regret something you did, rather than regretting something you didn't do"

I think that's true (well, not murdering people or stuff like that!) You learn from everything you do.

By galadriel, # 3. May 2008, 13:45:30

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By anonymous user, # 3. May 2008, 18:03:33

i used to date an american girl back in my college days.we were always seen together but i never asked her was she going back to the states.when she was leaving i found myself holding on her hand without letting go.when she said goodbye i felt like someone ripped my heart from my body and stomped on it.i was confused,i had so many unanswered questions.but after that i told myself if i'm going to start dating again,i'm going to be serious about who i date.

nao, monkey and you are real couple destined for a very very long happy life together.

By kyosuke316, # 3. May 2008, 19:35:37

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this is my story,,,
i don t know what matter in the future, i care just only today....
luv you ^^

By gift2give, # 4. May 2008, 13:59:03

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By Banshee_Tran, # 4. May 2008, 14:20:40

Relationship between Male and Female is a very big problem for so long dear Nao

I answered to your POLL and choose "10 years"... but do not worry (asap seems to be the best for you)... I will tell you why later !!

Byebye Princess Pride