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Dear you
Friday, February 4, 2011 4:03:00 AM
My dear friend, happy new year, is it that long since the last time we talked?
Is it that hard for us to sit down and talk together, and it’s very difficult to call us all out, cause most of us did not have the proper name. We are all the same, just with difference priorities. And those priorities create conflict inside and outside.
The princess who always want to do something right, to have control over every matters. But you’re a righteus and strong person at heart. You have a very strong sense of what is right and wrong. Such an idealistic like you create trouble wherever you go, your strong pride and conscience torture everyone around you whether you want it or not, but we could not say that you’re hateful. So many things has happened and I know how insecure you feel, my dearest princess. Please feel the joy to torture us and arrange everything again.
Cherry, the only one of us who has a name. The name that you picked up for yourself. You love writing with all your heart. You’re a jerk that always want recognization. You could not do anything if receiving no acknowledgement. How silent you are during the year. You’re very sick, and we’re sick of you. But your love is true nonetheless, how you chase after your dream without any hope it would come back to you. If I did not see it as stupid, I would say that you’re brave. You’re gross in the sense you refuse to grow up. But as I say, if I did not see it as stupid, I would say that you’re brave.
And me? I don’t remember whether I exist first or you guys exist first. I remember the longest, but now I don’t have the full access for our memory any more. You create me to lighten your mood, or I create you in the process of growing up? I don’t remember anymore. I become the one who write this letter, because, Cherry, you suck at words, and princess, you refuse to take part in anything your regard as stupid.
I have a dream last night...I’m sure you guys see it too, right? It’s embarrassing, I know that I’m not young. But I want to feel the joy of it. Dressing up and feeling happy. Haha, please don’t sneeze at me, princess. When is the last time you do it just because it’s fun?
There’re just some thing happened that shock us to the core – shock me to the core this year. And I know I have to change.
What should we do? What should we do? We have different priorities, but i KNOW that, inside we’re the same. We have people we love and vision that we have to make it come true.
So what do you see, my friend, what do you see?
I want friends and love, princess want to be successful, and cherry wants to write, or having somebody read her writing.
What would we become? What vision do you have?
A secret that we only keep for ourselves. Close to me, I have something to say to you two?
Why are you keeping so silent like that?
Is it that hard for us to sit down and talk together, and it’s very difficult to call us all out, cause most of us did not have the proper name. We are all the same, just with difference priorities. And those priorities create conflict inside and outside.
The princess who always want to do something right, to have control over every matters. But you’re a righteus and strong person at heart. You have a very strong sense of what is right and wrong. Such an idealistic like you create trouble wherever you go, your strong pride and conscience torture everyone around you whether you want it or not, but we could not say that you’re hateful. So many things has happened and I know how insecure you feel, my dearest princess. Please feel the joy to torture us and arrange everything again.
Cherry, the only one of us who has a name. The name that you picked up for yourself. You love writing with all your heart. You’re a jerk that always want recognization. You could not do anything if receiving no acknowledgement. How silent you are during the year. You’re very sick, and we’re sick of you. But your love is true nonetheless, how you chase after your dream without any hope it would come back to you. If I did not see it as stupid, I would say that you’re brave. You’re gross in the sense you refuse to grow up. But as I say, if I did not see it as stupid, I would say that you’re brave.
And me? I don’t remember whether I exist first or you guys exist first. I remember the longest, but now I don’t have the full access for our memory any more. You create me to lighten your mood, or I create you in the process of growing up? I don’t remember anymore. I become the one who write this letter, because, Cherry, you suck at words, and princess, you refuse to take part in anything your regard as stupid.
I have a dream last night...I’m sure you guys see it too, right? It’s embarrassing, I know that I’m not young. But I want to feel the joy of it. Dressing up and feeling happy. Haha, please don’t sneeze at me, princess. When is the last time you do it just because it’s fun?
There’re just some thing happened that shock us to the core – shock me to the core this year. And I know I have to change.
What should we do? What should we do? We have different priorities, but i KNOW that, inside we’re the same. We have people we love and vision that we have to make it come true.
So what do you see, my friend, what do you see?
I want friends and love, princess want to be successful, and cherry wants to write, or having somebody read her writing.
What would we become? What vision do you have?
A secret that we only keep for ourselves. Close to me, I have something to say to you two?
Why are you keeping so silent like that?
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Darling
Monday, December 20, 2010 1:05:37 AM
Darling, there is so much that have changed.
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Have you ever...
Saturday, August 21, 2010 1:56:28 PM
Have you ever wondered why I started to write, dear?
It's because I want to preserve the self that loved you. That is a little magic that a girl could perform.
However it is, that young love have changed my life.
But now I have to put that self to sleep.
I decided to move on with life.
There is only one true message in those stories,
it is how much that little girl has been in love with you.
It's because I want to preserve the self that loved you. That is a little magic that a girl could perform.
However it is, that young love have changed my life.
But now I have to put that self to sleep.
I decided to move on with life.
There is only one true message in those stories,
it is how much that little girl has been in love with you.
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Me and writing
Monday, August 2, 2010 5:36:43 AM
Nói tóm lại, thì sau ba năm viết, mình đã có gì chứ?
Mình có một vài câu chuyện mà mình không bao giờ muốn đọc lại, một trong số đó vì lý do bí ẩn nào đó mà được nhớ lâu hơn những cái khác, và cũng là cái mình chỉ muốn xé nát nó cho rồi vì nó quá ngu xuẩn, mỗi lần có người khen nó là mình muốn lợm giọng. Mình có một vài cái comment vô thưởng vô phạt kiểu "viết nhanh lên nhé" không thì một sự im lặng đến cùng cực trong đó mình nói ra chả có ma nào trả lời cả. mình đang dịch dở một vài câu chuyện, hoặc là mình chọn sai truyện, hoặc là mình dịch quá tồi, mà chả mấy ai đọc, và mình cũng đâm chán chẳng muốn dịch tiếp nữa.
Đủ rồi, tôi chán ngấy rồi. Tôi chán ngấy những thứ tôi viết, những thứ tôi dịch, những thứ tôi đọc và chán ngấy cả các người nữa, người đọc yêu quý ạ.
Mình có một vài câu chuyện mà mình không bao giờ muốn đọc lại, một trong số đó vì lý do bí ẩn nào đó mà được nhớ lâu hơn những cái khác, và cũng là cái mình chỉ muốn xé nát nó cho rồi vì nó quá ngu xuẩn, mỗi lần có người khen nó là mình muốn lợm giọng. Mình có một vài cái comment vô thưởng vô phạt kiểu "viết nhanh lên nhé" không thì một sự im lặng đến cùng cực trong đó mình nói ra chả có ma nào trả lời cả. mình đang dịch dở một vài câu chuyện, hoặc là mình chọn sai truyện, hoặc là mình dịch quá tồi, mà chả mấy ai đọc, và mình cũng đâm chán chẳng muốn dịch tiếp nữa.
Đủ rồi, tôi chán ngấy rồi. Tôi chán ngấy những thứ tôi viết, những thứ tôi dịch, những thứ tôi đọc và chán ngấy cả các người nữa, người đọc yêu quý ạ.
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I'm tired
Friday, July 30, 2010 10:29:54 AM
I'm tired.
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The golden butterfly has disappeared.
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The golden butterfly has disappeared.
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Leviathan of Envy.
Sunday, July 25, 2010 3:19:54 PM
Leviathan, là ác quỷ của lòng ghen tị trong Seven Deadly Sins (bảy tử tội) của thiên chúa giáo. Một con ác quỷ giữa biển khơi, gầm gào không nghỉ. Không ai có thể biết hình dạng thực sự của Leviathan, chỉ biết là nó có ở đó, và nó có thể dìm ta xuống biển khơi.
Ngẫm lại thì, có lẽ, trong bảy tử tội đó, lòng ghen tị là thứ tội không bao giờ mang lại một phút giây khoái trá cho người sở hữu nó. Không có gì ngoài ước vọng mãnh liệt được thấy sự thất bại nhục nhã của người khác. Sức mạnh của lòng ghen tị thật lớn lao, nó có thể thúc đẩy người ta làm việc mãnh liệt để vượt lên trên người khác, nhưng về cơ bản, nó cướp đi quyền tự quyết định hạnh phúc của mỗi người. Hạnh phúc của anh không nằm trong tay anh nữa. Hạnh phúc không nằm trong những gì anh có nữa. Anh chỉ được hân hoan vui sướng khi nhìn thấy người khác thất bại.
Nói cách khác, Leviathan có sức mạnh kinh hồn, nó có thể giúp ta hủy diệt người khác, nhưng cái giá con quỷ đó đòi chính là cuộc đời của ta.
Your life is destroyed when you wish for somebody's destruction.
Một bài học đơn giản.
Nếu tôi nói là tôi có sức mạnh nguyền ếm người khác thì bạn có tin tôi không? Đúng thế, Leviathan cho tôi sức mạnh. Tôi đã nguyền rủa và đã thành công. Việc nguyền ếm người khác đơn giản lắm, như bất cứ ma thuật gì trên đời. Bạn chỉ cần có một quyết tâm kiên định, và sẵn sàng trả giá. Cái giá đó là hạnh phúc của bạn. Bạn không được cảm thấy vui sướng, không thể cảm thấy hài lòng, bạn không ngừng nguyền rủa và bước về phía trước. Bóng ma của Leviathan đuổi theo bạn. Từ trong đáy sâu gầm gừ, con quái vật đó đòi bạn phải cống nạp cho nó tất cả niềm vui của đời bạn.
Bạn có sẵn sàng trả cái giá đó không? Bạn có sẵn sàng trả cái giá đó không? Leviathan sẽ giúp bạn làm mọi thứ, con quỷ ấy sẵn sàng xuất hiện trước mặt bạn để làm mọi thứ, chỉ cần bạn chấp nhận trả giá xứng đáng mà thôi.
Ngẫm lại thì, có lẽ, trong bảy tử tội đó, lòng ghen tị là thứ tội không bao giờ mang lại một phút giây khoái trá cho người sở hữu nó. Không có gì ngoài ước vọng mãnh liệt được thấy sự thất bại nhục nhã của người khác. Sức mạnh của lòng ghen tị thật lớn lao, nó có thể thúc đẩy người ta làm việc mãnh liệt để vượt lên trên người khác, nhưng về cơ bản, nó cướp đi quyền tự quyết định hạnh phúc của mỗi người. Hạnh phúc của anh không nằm trong tay anh nữa. Hạnh phúc không nằm trong những gì anh có nữa. Anh chỉ được hân hoan vui sướng khi nhìn thấy người khác thất bại.
Nói cách khác, Leviathan có sức mạnh kinh hồn, nó có thể giúp ta hủy diệt người khác, nhưng cái giá con quỷ đó đòi chính là cuộc đời của ta.
Your life is destroyed when you wish for somebody's destruction.
Một bài học đơn giản.
Nếu tôi nói là tôi có sức mạnh nguyền ếm người khác thì bạn có tin tôi không? Đúng thế, Leviathan cho tôi sức mạnh. Tôi đã nguyền rủa và đã thành công. Việc nguyền ếm người khác đơn giản lắm, như bất cứ ma thuật gì trên đời. Bạn chỉ cần có một quyết tâm kiên định, và sẵn sàng trả giá. Cái giá đó là hạnh phúc của bạn. Bạn không được cảm thấy vui sướng, không thể cảm thấy hài lòng, bạn không ngừng nguyền rủa và bước về phía trước. Bóng ma của Leviathan đuổi theo bạn. Từ trong đáy sâu gầm gừ, con quái vật đó đòi bạn phải cống nạp cho nó tất cả niềm vui của đời bạn.
Bạn có sẵn sàng trả cái giá đó không? Bạn có sẵn sàng trả cái giá đó không? Leviathan sẽ giúp bạn làm mọi thứ, con quỷ ấy sẵn sàng xuất hiện trước mặt bạn để làm mọi thứ, chỉ cần bạn chấp nhận trả giá xứng đáng mà thôi.
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depression
Sunday, January 17, 2010 3:20:29 PM
You can not fucking die because of depression, because I live through it almost all my life. And now I'm still living, yeah, that's great, huh? I should thank all Gods upon that I still keep myself living right now. Really I wonder why all the thing bottled up inside me haven't explored. Yet.
Yes, I know I would live. I know I could live and go on. But still I could not forget. How many time that I multiplied myself and tried to forget, that's not enough. Because that past is making how I am right now. I really wonder why such a person like me exists. Yeah, I have always wondered this for a long time, since I was a small kid. How many time I tried to make thing meaningful, they are becoming meaningless. Yeah, great huh? The reason my life sucks is myself, I know it pretty well.
Well, I would got better. Soon. Of course, this periodic depression is nothing new to me, it's more like an old friend but it doesnt mean that it doesn't make me go through hell.
Boogiepop is such a great story...
...
I know its time is over. I know there're totally no meaning in translating it. I admit I have no hope and no trust in my readers. Yet...I still want to live through it one more time. I don't want that novel to be forgotten. But I don't think I have enough strength to keep on working now.
Yes, I know I would live. I know I could live and go on. But still I could not forget. How many time that I multiplied myself and tried to forget, that's not enough. Because that past is making how I am right now. I really wonder why such a person like me exists. Yeah, I have always wondered this for a long time, since I was a small kid. How many time I tried to make thing meaningful, they are becoming meaningless. Yeah, great huh? The reason my life sucks is myself, I know it pretty well.
Well, I would got better. Soon. Of course, this periodic depression is nothing new to me, it's more like an old friend but it doesnt mean that it doesn't make me go through hell.
Boogiepop is such a great story...
...
I know its time is over. I know there're totally no meaning in translating it. I admit I have no hope and no trust in my readers. Yet...I still want to live through it one more time. I don't want that novel to be forgotten. But I don't think I have enough strength to keep on working now.
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Note1
Tuesday, December 1, 2009 1:54:32 PM
"He he, Nam Phong, now have you felt anything?"
And yet I will die today
I know it deeply
I don't want to
But there's nothing to regret
Even if the core has died
Even if all left for him is just the cover he knew
...Somehow I could not tell that this is just a cover
Just a moment
I could believe that I'm innocent, cheerful and stupid
And be happy to be besides him...
(Doanh - Natsu no Ringo)
He knew it. He saw it. The final answer.
Maybe, he had seen this end for a long time ago.
He's just not brave enough.
Just because he's a jerk.
Because he still cling to the belief that he could somehow be happy.
Now he realised that this is a dream
...that should be shaltered in the bright sunlight of a summer day.
...However
He thought when he jump down into the deep blue sky...
...This dream is ...
...so...
....beautiful...to lose...
(Thuy, Natsu no Ringo)
This man knows me. He knows that I'm similar to him.
And he knows the choice I am not brave enough to make
Maybe he choosed it to himself too...
It's just a poor way to escape. However
At first it;s just a play. To reduce stress. To forget. I created within myself another self with no function others than forgetting
I used to watch this self in short moment with him as a way of relief
However, before I recognised it...
I had fallen backward...
I had fallen in love with seeing myself having so much fun.
And yet I will die today
I know it deeply
I don't want to
But there's nothing to regret
Even if the core has died
Even if all left for him is just the cover he knew
...Somehow I could not tell that this is just a cover
Just a moment
I could believe that I'm innocent, cheerful and stupid
And be happy to be besides him...
(Doanh - Natsu no Ringo)
He knew it. He saw it. The final answer.
Maybe, he had seen this end for a long time ago.
He's just not brave enough.
Just because he's a jerk.
Because he still cling to the belief that he could somehow be happy.
Now he realised that this is a dream
...that should be shaltered in the bright sunlight of a summer day.
...However
He thought when he jump down into the deep blue sky...
...This dream is ...
...so...
....beautiful...to lose...
(Thuy, Natsu no Ringo)
This man knows me. He knows that I'm similar to him.
And he knows the choice I am not brave enough to make
Maybe he choosed it to himself too...
It's just a poor way to escape. However
At first it;s just a play. To reduce stress. To forget. I created within myself another self with no function others than forgetting
I used to watch this self in short moment with him as a way of relief
However, before I recognised it...
I had fallen backward...
I had fallen in love with seeing myself having so much fun.
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To tell the truth...
Sunday, October 25, 2009 8:14:48 AM
I lost my best friend a few years ago, because I told her, after 4 years of being friend, that I did not know the meaning of friendship at all.
Really what I told her is I did not understand the meaning of friendship in people's head. Why someone became more special than the others? I did not know. I did have friend, but maybe I did not trust them much. I'm never disappointed about my friends or their action, because I haven't expected anything in them. I do not keep the belief that "my friends would be here when I need them" or "they cannot betray me" or whatever. If my friend stabbed me with her knife, I would be angry because I'm stabbed, of course, but there're awalys a possibility for them to stab me, then why became disappointed? If people could only express the feeling that they have experienced, and expressed them quite good, than it's just natural for me to be "not trust" in anyone. It's not suspicion, no. It's just "do not trust". Haha, I could see myself as a very naive person. But there's someone inside me, with no trust in anybody at all. The true reason why I have friends is...well, I need company, like anyone on earth. But isn't it the main reason why we all have friends?
What the hell makes me tell her the truth? I don't feel very angry when she became mad at me. I just knew it at the beginning, and I told her anyway, even I felt that she would be hurt. Hm, maybe she is a little different from other friends. But I could not tell what it is.
What you have been thinking, or just what you have always been, is not important to anybody but you. Who on earth would care about your thoughts, I do not believe that they do really care. They would not understand. I'm just...like that. There's something wrong with me, but I could not fix it myself. Why someone were more special than somebody. Sometime I doubted even my own feeling to my family. But they're the strongest connection that I have, eventhough, sometime I still feel a very distant feeling to them and to my own ego. Like I'm watching a movie with me being the character.
Now I'm still wandering the earth, and haven't found someone more special than the other, except for my family. But in fact, I also do not believe that my family would love me anyway. All feelinsg and emotions are just temporary, some lasts long than the others, but they all would come to the end, if you fall to respond to the role you're acting in life and in relationship.
You could say that, anyone could become my friend, or nobody could become my friend at all. It's mainly the same thing.
The thing that lost in me, maybe the power of "sympathy".
I'm not a stubborn kid. I would change if anyone could change me. But I haven't seen that person.
Really what I told her is I did not understand the meaning of friendship in people's head. Why someone became more special than the others? I did not know. I did have friend, but maybe I did not trust them much. I'm never disappointed about my friends or their action, because I haven't expected anything in them. I do not keep the belief that "my friends would be here when I need them" or "they cannot betray me" or whatever. If my friend stabbed me with her knife, I would be angry because I'm stabbed, of course, but there're awalys a possibility for them to stab me, then why became disappointed? If people could only express the feeling that they have experienced, and expressed them quite good, than it's just natural for me to be "not trust" in anyone. It's not suspicion, no. It's just "do not trust". Haha, I could see myself as a very naive person. But there's someone inside me, with no trust in anybody at all. The true reason why I have friends is...well, I need company, like anyone on earth. But isn't it the main reason why we all have friends?
What the hell makes me tell her the truth? I don't feel very angry when she became mad at me. I just knew it at the beginning, and I told her anyway, even I felt that she would be hurt. Hm, maybe she is a little different from other friends. But I could not tell what it is.
What you have been thinking, or just what you have always been, is not important to anybody but you. Who on earth would care about your thoughts, I do not believe that they do really care. They would not understand. I'm just...like that. There's something wrong with me, but I could not fix it myself. Why someone were more special than somebody. Sometime I doubted even my own feeling to my family. But they're the strongest connection that I have, eventhough, sometime I still feel a very distant feeling to them and to my own ego. Like I'm watching a movie with me being the character.
Now I'm still wandering the earth, and haven't found someone more special than the other, except for my family. But in fact, I also do not believe that my family would love me anyway. All feelinsg and emotions are just temporary, some lasts long than the others, but they all would come to the end, if you fall to respond to the role you're acting in life and in relationship.
You could say that, anyone could become my friend, or nobody could become my friend at all. It's mainly the same thing.
The thing that lost in me, maybe the power of "sympathy".
I'm not a stubborn kid. I would change if anyone could change me. But I haven't seen that person.
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