Monday, 14. December 2009, 13:36:31
poem?
rest for the rest of my natural life the lies
are told infallible in all the ways of flies
pulled wings no the end but is an end so i lie
here on cold floor and warm sky and infallible tie
of pain and of self torture free me form these tides
for none shall change as long as tyrant of lies stand before the immaculate times of the complete and final end of infallibilities.
Tuesday, 8. December 2009, 16:05:19
love, life
ive always known from the beginning of how useless i am i hate my self i hate my life i hate it all. but then i met a girl and although i know how stupid this decision was i did it i gave this girl my everything i look at her and think of how much i love her i look at her and know that i will always love her. this girl can rip me to shreds and can kill me with so few simple words. im in job corps and she lives in Washburn its hard i don't wanna give up il be out soon and she says she wont give up either she says shell wait for me and i believe her. i know i shouldn't believe any one ever but i believe her i give her my trust and now i feel like im dying i feel like i have a hole in my chest were my heart is supposed to be 6 months Ive been with this girl but always she ask y i love her and i tell her. and never do i lie to her about that. im a dick im an asshole hell i can be worse than victor but not with this girl because she ain't trash like all the other bitches i have fucked around with but she thinks she is she says she knows what she is. but i refuse to accept that call me stupid or naive i am what i am i believe in love and am willing to fight for it with everything ive got i will die for it.for every lil bit of happiness i find there is 10 times of hell but i go through it because she is worth it but today she said somethings that i may not be able to fix by my self she has to help. i need her to say those words i need to hear what shes saying i need her to tell me more than i need anything else i don't want to live my life in regret but Ashley i need u to tell me. i don't want to loose u i don't want to loose my self i asked u to marry me and i meant it and i heard all those things u said about me how u love me and how u said yes and how u don't want to loose me and u don't have to. but you need to mean it i want to believe u i want to know that ur fighting for us too and that im not doing this alone. i love u and i always will you are my baby pouty face and the fact that i let u in this far enough to hurt me the way u can means something to me.
Monday, 7. December 2009, 14:53:13
fun, life, story
once was there a man who came to be of earth and fire. this man was unknown to all around him and to himself. this man lived a hard life of toil and heart break many times has he considered ending his own suffering but never found the courage to do so. on a regular Tuesday morning rest as them all the day started breakfast he gets dressed and goes on to his bossiness but on this day some thing is different he can feel it he feels and uneasy feeling the skin on his back crawls his nose wrinkles and his eyes water the smell if brim stone fills his nostrils and burns his eyes in the barley fields.
the man look around bewildered and scared a fire would mean he would be out of a job and surely homeless.he runs towards the manager to raise the alarm he makes it to him but before he could move his mouth a fraction of an inch the manager standing there so tall and power full slumps to the ground a bloody mess his entrails slowly oozing from his middle. and be hind him a beast as none has been seen before its eyes the purest black ever seen all around his being is distorted and its arms at each end claws as sharp as razors bloodied by the manager.the man stands in front of the beast knowing he should be scared but he is not he starts to hear screams and the beast starts to laugh and slowly turns his gaze to the man and asks are u not scared you worthless bag of flesh? the man replies as to your question i must reply what may sound insane but i do not fear you beast i hate u i loathe u i want to kill u but afraid i am not.the beast smiles and says you will now fool and strikes for the bold man.
to be continued
Monday, 30. November 2009, 16:15:40
life
ahh how words can hurt they cut like blades aiming deep for my heart no words hurt more than those of who are close to u. i understand that always have but it never numbs it it just intensifies it. im not a tough manly man im a regular guy i cry in a sad movie and i don't even try to hide it cus i really don't care i have feelings too ahh ohh well i dont know what else to say so bye.
Wednesday, 25. November 2009, 19:56:33
life, random
to me loyalty is every thing if u say ur my friend be my friend dont stab me in the back, if u say u love me then love me and no one else, if ive done u a fovor return that favor, watch my back and il watch your do not lead me around by the nose. ive been fucked over too many times now to actually really trust any one the only person i can truly count on and depend on is my self and no one else not family not my lover and not my friends same goes for every one else its not that i cant count on u its that i choose not to because u never know whats going to hit u. to all those who have been loyal to me i thank you with my whole being and u can count on me to have ur back u can count on me to be your true friend, you can count on me to truly never let go i am like a dog i bark and bite but im also loyal. so count on me to never stab u in the back.
trust me.
Monday, 23. November 2009, 13:05:17
life
damn just when i think my ma might actually like my girl friend victor goes and fucks shit up by sayin some stupid shit.and now my ma not only dislikes her she is mad at me and thinks with every fiber of her being that im doin the wrong things but i know different. i think that for the first time in my life im actually doing something right my school life and my love life are all going pretty good i have good friends im doing good in school and i have a great relationship. well life always has its ups and downs, so i wont give up il just have to fight that much harder to be happy i love u ma, i love u my baby pouty face Ashley
Friday, 20. November 2009, 19:55:40
love, and all the above, life
hey can u hold this bloody knife for me im just goin to take a leak. i wonder how many times ive said that and can u guess how many lol. do you think im awkward sometimes? i know i am but i like to be normal is boring sometimes u need a little weirdness sometimes but like all things i like to dish out wierdness in a fucking silver platter and it dosent allways work to my benefit but whatever because i ghot high lol. hmm i dont think that i have a specific agenda for this post u know im just posting whatever right now im pretty appy for the most part with this horror of a life i have sometimes so um yes i got this girl and she is beautiful and smart but sometimes she dosent make any fucking sense whatsoever but i love her and god know if he does exist that i have the patience of a fucking saying whos had a few too many, figure that one out ha! i love u baby your my pouty faced angel and i would destroy this world for u i would hold the bloody knife for u too.
Wednesday, 4. November 2009, 18:35:41
i ain't one for proper grammar so hope u don't mind the way i blog. any ways to get on with what i have to say. my name is Orlando and im way too nice for my own good sometimes i practice the black arts (and no its not Satan worshiping or magic. Google it)and im a gamer. i dint ever use to have a life and relationships dint really mean anything to me so i just fucked and i did a lot but never into a serious relationship. now im with a girl who i actually care about the things i would sacrifice for her make me scared. i do have trust issues but i try to not let them get a hold of me.i try to live my life through reasonable logic . i base my decisions on facts and only take a chance on things if they go in my favor considerably. i know that i am not perfect and i know that i am not the best but when i speak the truth its is the truth and when i say its the truth i mean it. i love my family my friends and my girl friend if any one of them is doing something that might hurt them in any way i will tell them to the full extent until they understand whether they hate me or not. at the end of it all i want people to know that i don't say things to hurt them i say them to protect them and because i care. i am too nice but i can live with that.
Tuesday, 3. November 2009, 14:22:48
sexy, teen, blog, life
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ok so lets see.... first off my name is Orlando and im very new to this on-line blog thing. im not even sure as what to write about but ima try to think of something even if its just me thinking of something that im writing about. ive always wondered what kind of people would look at my blog and say 'hey i actually want to read this' it just feels weird knowing that some thing you write is going to be read by some one other than your self. any ways what i ultimately want is to be able to state my ideads about things like life, death, love, and other shit and have other people comment back their opinions and believes in a civil and educated way. so if you read this leave a comment so i can see if you guys really will be able to do what i want to do with this blog thank you.
Monday, 2. November 2009, 15:35:52
tech, opera, browser
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