It took two new people entering my life, to remind me that my natural state is love. One male, an Australian friend, and one female who is a life coach. So it's fabulous when the universe sends people to kind of wake you up. Remind you of who you really are. I'm an open-hearted person. Big heart, very feeling and compassionate. I enjoy romance and that giddy state of euphoric bliss. I love love. And as an artist the vibration of love is an important inspiration and component to my divinely-inspired masterpieces. Somehow I shifted away from my heart and that unconditional space of giving and receiving. Away from that state that makes me feel most alive. It was a gradual thing that happened over the past three years to be exact. During that time, I left my home, friends, family, and identity in America. And flew across the ocean to live here in Tokyo, Japan. It's been the hugest thing ever to make such a life change. Surrounded by concrete skyscrapers, busy buzzing silent people, languages that I don't understand. Felt like I landed on another planet without a guidebook to orient me. So I have been in survival mode most of the time. A state of trying to stay safe, secure, grounded, comfortable. Not heart centered at all. More like serious mental overload and brain drain. It's been fun too so I don't want to make it seem totally like a bad thing. It's just a challenge to be open and feeling in the midst of all that change.
In my isolated world, I've been a bit hug deprived too. It's like a hugging desert here in Tokyo. ha ha. The custom here is to bow politely. That means no body contact. No warmth. No connection. I miss hugs! ...the comfort and effortless way people hug and connect back home. I found myself fantasizing about the perfect hug. Ha ha ha. Not meaning anything sexual at all. Just that sweet feeling of being present with another person in that warm loving experience. I think as humans we need contact and connection with other humans. It somehow helps us feel real. At least for me. And I guess you don't realize it until you're in a hugging desert without it. Now I am married with one beautiful child so I do get some nice hugs from time to time.
So this blog is my journey and exploration of being the heart-centered human that I am. To remember and rediscover all the sensations of love in my life. You'll see my poetry, writings, some art and other fun things here. So join me in exploring something that every human experiences. Sweet, giddy, warm, comfortable, uncomfortable, depressing, euphoric, sensual, floaty, happy... LOVE
Creating art is a labor of love for me. It's like breathing. I was born to express this stuff!
This video is a collaboration with Astronomy Records, groovy guys who really love music! It was a blast working with Herrin, the founder of AR. Our two talents and creative passions coming together with fabulous music and divine art. It's a moving and inspiring video that guides you to just be and feel. The music is "The journey home" from the album "Embrace the moment".
Inspirational Art & Music video by Artist Nicole Mizoguchi and Astronomy Records
The other day I was standing at the bus stop listening to my thoughts. At first I was just watching the Tokyo traffic speed by and checking every minute to see if the bus was coming yet. But then I started to notice the random bits of thoughts streaming through my mind. And I realized that inside my head I could hear myself thinking those thoughts. It was a curious awareness, and surely I had noticed it before. But for some reason I listened more closely.
Various ideas, beliefs, self critical thoughts, self praising thoughts, observations and other stuff. But what I found intriguing was that I was listening to the sound of my thoughts being spoken in my head. Now I never paid close attention to it before. Usually I just THINK. But this time I listened to the sound of the voice speaking the words as I was thinking. My inner voice.
Surely I am not the only human being that hears that inner voice speaking. You hear it too don't you?? Please tell me you here something too. ha ha
What I started wondering is why is it that we hear anything as we think the words. Like little internal conversations. Maybe it's so we can catch ourselves thinking something stupid and change it. Or maybe it's so we can plan what we will say before we say it. Kind of like when we use our imaginations to visualize something first before we do it.
Anyway, I was standing at the bus stop and then wondered.... Hmm, so if humans hear their voice inside their head, what about animals? Do dogs hear their own barks inside their heads before they speak? "Grr Grrrr wooof woof..."
So this is what I was thinking while standing at the bus stop! ha ha
I've been away from blogging so long. I've almost forgotten what it is! I miss my blog...I still love you just been away doing other things.
Life has a way of spinning you around so fast it's easy to loose track of things. And to not find time to blog and connect. In the past few months I started writing a book...about art and intuition. I'm really passionate about it and excited to see it coming together well. So my brain has been focused on really completing my book and printing next year.
I also joined Inner Space Writers group. So I've been writing stories, mostly fiction. We randomly get a topic and have to write on that subject and turn it in within two weeks. I've enjoyed expressing different ideas and getting feedback from the group.
Here's the link, check out what I've been busy writing. And see the other authors as well. Inner Space Writers Group
Hope you are happily living and that life is going well with lots of love and good things. Peace
I feel good in my own skin. Yes that's a great feeling. Amazing! I haven't felt like this in a long time. Feeling internally content, peaceful, spiritual, healthy, beautiful. It feels like the universe is smiling on me. And I am smiling on myself. Appreciating what I have and all the experiences in my life.
The past few weeks were crazy. Lots of worry and fear. So what showed up in my life was a feeling of tension and confusion. I talked to a friend of mine, and poured out my concerns to him. His words helped me. Sometimes it's great to reach out to someone. It helps bring you back to reality to hear another human voice.
When I began to think happy thoughts. My world became better instantly. So I changed my thinking and decided to do something fun and creative instead. I made some art! I danced to some great music. I let go.
Through that process I remembered that there is no need to fear anything and my life is great. It's something I already knew but forgot. Wonderful things are happening all around me all the time. So much love and abundance. And now I can see it more clearly and appreciate it all. That's really cool.
Being creative is almost like drowning in a sea of ideas! Sometimes my goals and dreams seem too big, too complicated. Like I need to be three people just to accomplish it all.
What do I choose? How do I accomplish it successfully? blah blah blah...
Sometimes doubts or procrastination delay me from attaining what I want. Those delays help me to figure things out. But they keep me from experiencing things quickly.
There is a flow and a timing to the way things happen. There are people and opportunities to connect with when the timing is right. Otherwise things become frustrating and difficult.
I love it when things flow easily and when I actually accomplish one of my goals. It's so amazing! But then comes my next idea and the next... So there is always a striving desire for more. Always some creative inspiration ready to be expressed and dreamed of. That's what it's like being a creative human. It never ends...
Some of my goals include teaching, writing books, art instruction videos, art products in stores, art exhibitions, and many other personal goals. Maybe one day I will feel that peace of successful accomplishment and being really fulfilled. I'm happy that I've accomplished a lot. But always striving for more.
Do you believe in destiny? Does it really exist... Could it be that your life, the people you meet and life events are pre-planned in some way.
Some people believe your fate is only due to the choices you make in your life and there is no great plan. It's only a matter of free will and randomness. But what if there is more to it.
The subconscious mind holds many things like a computer program you can't fully access. It influences your direction and decisions more than you think. Perhaps this is the place where each individual plan or theme is stored. And this subconscious program and our own free will work together...
I smile a lot! It just feels good and it's a natural part of my personality. Besides it's beneficial in other ways too. Here are 10 reasons to smile, but surely you can think of lot's of other things too!....
Yesterday, walking along the streets in Tokyo, my mind began to wander... I was lost in my thoughts and suddenly realized I was smiling!
It was something a friend said that brought me joy and a big smile across my face. Right now, I can't recall what I was thinking about then. But my thoughts triggered something spontaneous and my body reacted automatically with warm feelings and a big grin. It surprised me to realize I was smiling. And I thought I must look silly grinning to myself like that. ha ha
Then I began to think about how nice it is to make someone smile. And I wondered if I had caused that reaction in anyone lately...
I just feel like writing or expressing. Like there is a lot churning inside me. It's forming into something that I can't quite see clearly. There are frustrations and desires all mingled together, but not a lot of clarity to put it in order yet!
The words are there...The feelings are there...But what is it I've been wrestling with? What is it that's trying to get my attention so eagerly? Rising up in my dreams.
It seems I can't do much of anything the past few days. Mostly sleeping, dreaming, eating, watching tv, listening to music, hoping, desiring...
I need a breakthrough. Some understanding and clarity. Some wisdom and comfort to make it all seem right.
Feels like I am straddling two worlds with one foot in each place. Not sure if I am ready to put both feet in the same spot. So many choices. I'm anxious and ready but things aren't happening fast enough for me. Waiting is so hard sometimes...
I'm writing a book for Nova Science entitled "Autism and Allergies" and I'd like your permission to use a piece of your art in Google images. It's the infant with multiple hand. Can I use it in the book? If, you agree I'll send you a copy of the book!
WIDGETIZE