Gettin-out-of-shell

Tonight, I am in the mood for writing...some mixed emotion I just suddenly felt. As time passes, being swept away by busy and stressful life, I have forgotten that my loved ones and relatives are on the edge of old age and that I should have some time talking with them, listening to them, sharing things with them, treasuring beautiful moments in life with them. I was born and have lived in the same place, around is all my relatives. We have lived together so long that in my eyes, all my uncles and aunts are still as young as they used to be 20 years ago. This morning, being in the hospital with an aunt of mine, I noticed some wrinkles on her face, the salt-and-pepper hair all of which remind me of her old age. And her husband too. He has been ill for some days, and those days has taken all his strength away. His lips are so dried that even blood was found there. He shakily took steps by steps, even could not take his scooter out of the house. I just got shocked when realized that they are no longer be in the ages of 30 & 40 any more and that now they are in mid 50. One relative that I call "grandfather", once being an "iron" man, who used to ride bike from home to our town which is over 30 km away is now in the age of 80. Seeing him walking with the aid of stick while the back bent down close to ground, I knew he would not being around with us for long. Time passes, awaits no one. It just selfishly does as it wants. Thinking of me, I feel kind of scary too when realizing I am on the edge of 30. It s just so scared when I realize that life is just too short, just not enough to make nice things. I don't know how many chances left for me to get close to these loved ones of mine, help some things for them. I hope there will still be more.