The Dork

i feel unappreciated. badly. i makes me feel dry, with nothing to offer.

and i hate it. is it okay to hate that?

should i bite my tongue and tolerate this shit? i am as sensitive as a nerve and this all hurts. painful.

am i growing up? maturing? is this part of being adult? i really wonder.
will i be a better person after weathering all this crap? or will i go away being feeling bitter and cheated of my emotions?

should i bear with it? can i choose to escape this pain? will i be judged?

i wish i could be tired and numb. but i am not. i am as exposed as an open wound. and being lashed at.

i almost cannot take it anymore. the bubble is going to burst.