It Does Seem to get Better, at a Snail's Pace
Wednesday, 2. July 2008, 19:35:40
I never really realized when the accident happened that it would hit me so hard. I mean look at me, I am virtually unscathed...on the outside at least. There isn't an hour that goes by that I don't think about what happened and how rapidly my life changed. It took me a long time to work my way up to being able to buy a brand spanking new car just the way I wanted it and in a matter of seconds it was taken away from me. In the state of Minnesota a person in a car accident where they don't find themselves physically injured has no rights. I am constantly reminded of how Minnesota "no fault" laws protect the rights of the insurance company over the person that went through such a traumatic event. So far I have been "slapped in the face" by the other parties insurance company by being offered $500 as a sorry in exchange for me to sign a piece of paper that says I can never go after the other driver in the event that injuries do show up in me. Obviously they can't pull the wool over my eyes and I didn't sign. The issue is that I do have injuries, on the inside it hurts so much thinking about the accident that it makes it difficult to work and do daily things. When I informed my insurance company that I was going to go talk to someone about all of this they informed me that insurance does not cover mental health related to the accident. Aside from the medical side of thing the insurance companies aren't willing to buy me a new car even though we all know that someone was beyond negligent and nearly killed me. I am forced to settle for what they feel the car is worth and foot the rest of the bill myself meaning that I will be without a car for a few months at least. To top things off my insurance company informed me the other day that since they made me a "fair offer" on my car that I have to return the rental car that comes with my insurance coverage... once again I am without a car. Dealing with 6 insurance agents on a daily basis really takes its toll on a person.
Through all of this I have realized something, no matter how hard I try the people that are supposed to help me won't. I have once again realized that I just don't care anymore. I am going to give up? No. But why should I care if nobody else does? I can do nothing to recover what was lost from inside of me and no one else wants to own up and help me fix that portion of me. My car is obviously gone but I don't really care about the car. I care about all of the time in my life I have worked to own something I was truly proud of.
I am starting to feel better slowly at this point as I begin to care less and less and realize that I should be out having fun with friends. Going out and having fun with friends is part of what is making things difficult as my constant lack of transportation is a reminder of what happened.
Through all of this I have realized something, no matter how hard I try the people that are supposed to help me won't. I have once again realized that I just don't care anymore. I am going to give up? No. But why should I care if nobody else does? I can do nothing to recover what was lost from inside of me and no one else wants to own up and help me fix that portion of me. My car is obviously gone but I don't really care about the car. I care about all of the time in my life I have worked to own something I was truly proud of.
I am starting to feel better slowly at this point as I begin to care less and less and realize that I should be out having fun with friends. Going out and having fun with friends is part of what is making things difficult as my constant lack of transportation is a reminder of what happened.
