OPHELIA'S RAINBOW

Please tell me I'm not going insane. Please tell me that it will happen. That I will be with him eventually. He is the other me. The sense in a world that I cannot comprehend. I have never connected with anyone this way in all my life. And why do I feel so incomplete and shattered about him. I cant even cry about it anymore. He came into my life when I needed him. But I was such a fool. He travelled 500km to see me. He stopped on the side of a road one day to take a picture of a rainbow to send to me. Every single day he would phone. Twice a day. One hour whilst in traffic. And after supper for no less than 3 hours at a time. Then that one time I meet him. And I barely hear from him now. Text or instant messages at most. So I decided to call him. Today. After 4 months. And we spoke for ten minutes. I cant breathe without feeling that half my breath belongs to him. Is this enough to claim that He is made for me. Why did he ask me the other day: What do women want? . Some say he meant to ask what it was that I wanted. Why could I not realise. Someone please make sense of this for me. I cant do this. I just cant do this, life, everything. Without him. He who claims himself as a Tempest of Emotion.