CulterPaulus

In this moment I want to start saying million of Thanks to my friends, the ones who passed by here last days and leave their words, and the other ones who had no time, or couldn't come (I'm reasonable, there are thousand of posts and blogs to read). Thanks to that words, I was driven to feel better today.

By the other hand, I must tell I'm sorry, because sometimes I'm not the one I want to be. I think this is a problem in every human being, but it causes frustration, and sometimes anger. As suddendly as weather changes, my moods changes a lot too, and even when I'm fighting that since I was 12 or 13 years old, sometimes power goes away from my hands.

But today, even when a soft rain keeps on falling over the city, and it sounds in the roof of my studio at home, I feel much better that past 3 days. I'm smiling, I'm happy the best I can. I've been with friends today (more than 40 in a meal) and they supported me a lot. But yesterday and some days ago I was with my friends of MyOpera too, and found support too, in different ways (messages, comments, etc), and I feel so proud to count with you all.

In changing states of myself, I use to break down, collapse in negativeness, sadness and want not to see anybody. But a friend told me that people like me has to do the opposite: get up when we want to lay on bed; walk outdoor when we want to stay indoors (alone), look for friends when we want not to see anybody. I found that's true.

Many of you gave a great help even being so far. Doing nothing else than "listening", giving short comments, and NOT TRYING TO MINIMIZE MY PROBLEM, even when is possible it's real a minor problem. But in the middle of that situation, it seems huge.

My friends, today I'm OK, I feel well, and wanted to tell you about this thing.

MILLIONS AND TONS OF THANK YOU'S!!!