CulterPaulus

In this moment I want to start saying million of Thanks to my friends, the ones who passed by here last days and leave their words, and the other ones who had no time, or couldn't come (I'm reasonable, there are thousand of posts and blogs to read). Thanks to that words, I was driven to feel better today.

By the other hand, I must tell I'm sorry, because sometimes I'm not the one I want to be. I think this is a problem in every human being, but it causes frustration, and sometimes anger. As suddendly as weather changes, my moods changes a lot too, and even when I'm fighting that since I was 12 or 13 years old, sometimes power goes away from my hands.

But today, even when a soft rain keeps on falling over the city, and it sounds in the roof of my studio at home, I feel much better that past 3 days. I'm smiling, I'm happy the best I can. I've been with friends today (more than 40 in a meal) and they supported me a lot. But yesterday and some days ago I was with my friends of MyOpera too, and found support too, in different ways (messages, comments, etc), and I feel so proud to count with you all.

In changing states of myself, I use to break down, collapse in negativeness, sadness and want not to see anybody. But a friend told me that people like me has to do the opposite: get up when we want to lay on bed; walk outdoor when we want to stay indoors (alone), look for friends when we want not to see anybody. I found that's true.

Many of you gave a great help even being so far. Doing nothing else than "listening", giving short comments, and NOT TRYING TO MINIMIZE MY PROBLEM, even when is possible it's real a minor problem. But in the middle of that situation, it seems huge.

My friends, today I'm OK, I feel well, and wanted to tell you about this thing.

MILLIONS AND TONS OF THANK YOU'S!!!

The world is constantly moving, changing. I've heard in the news about how many uruguayan people who lives in other countries are planning to come back home. Economical facts, roots, and many factors are the reasons.
Between 2000-2002 many people went to other countries for some opportunities. Even when that economical situation touched my family, at home we were agree with fight the moment in this place. There are problems in all the world, and my way of thinking is that moving is change a problem for another one. I'm not telling about better or worse places to live, I mean we are part of this place, we have our family here and know how the things happen in this place. No bad situation last forever. I knew lot of people who were not prepared to go too far, and the trip was a dissaster.

Of course, this is my point of view, and respect everyone's. The news of today made me feel we didn't choose wrong. We are not a rich family (and I don't want that), but our situation is better than those times. My job is more stable, my daughter is growing in a peaceful place (until now), my family is united. I noticed this last thing yesterday, when some friends prepared a nice surprise for us: a picnic to celebrate our aniversary (the aniversary is on 16 of march, but couldn't celebrate with friends).

I hope all that uruguayan people can come back to this place again. Gov' is planning to give some money to those who want to return here, and maybe that will be useful to start again.

And I hope, over all the things, that every human in the world could find their place. And if they had still family, to keep it united and happy!

Las siguientes palabras no son mías, me las pasó un amigo, y me parecieron tan interesantes y excelentes para mí, que me gustó ponerlas aquí.
Following words aren't mine, a friend sent them to me, and they seemed so interesting and excellent for me, that I liked to post them here.

Felicidad
Nos convencemos a nosotros mismos de que la vida será mejor después de casarnos, después de tener un hijo, y después de tener otro. Entonces nos sentimos frustrados de que los hijos no son lo suficientemente grandes y que seremos más felices cuando lo sean.
Después de eso nos frustramos porque son adolescentes (difíciles de tratar.) Ciertamente, seremos más felices cuando salgan de esta etapa.
Nos decimos que nuestra vida estará completa cuando a nuestra esposa(o) le vaya mejor, cuando tengamos un mejor auto o una mejor casa, cuando nos podamos ir de vacaciones, cuando estemos retirados.
La verdad es que no hay mejor momento para ser felices que ahora. Si no es ahora, ¿cuando?
Tu vida siempre estará llena de retos. Es mejor admitirlo y admitirlo y decidir ser felices de todas formas. Una de mis frases favoritas es de Alfred D. Souza, él dijo, “por largo tiempo parecía para mí que la vida estaba a punto de comenzar, la vida de verdad. Pero siempre había algún obstáculo en el camino, algo que resolver primero, algún obstáculo en el camino, algún asunto sin terminar, tiempo por pasar, una deuda que pagar, entonces la vida comenzaría. Hasta que me di cuenta de que esos obstáculos eran mi vida.”
Esta perspectiva me ha ayudado a ver que no hay un camino a la felicidad. La felicidad “Es” el camino, Así que, atesora cada momento que tienes, y atesóralo mas cuando lo compartes con alguien especial, lo suficientemente especial para compartir tu tiempo, y recuerda que el tiempo no espera por nadie...
Así que deja de esperar hasta que termines la escuela, hasta que vuelvas a la escuela, hasta que bajes 10 kilos, hasta que tengas hijos, hasta que tus hijos se vayan de casa, hasta que te cases, hasta que te divorcies, hasta el viernes por la noche, hasta el domingo a la mañana, hasta la primavera, el verano, el otoño, o el invierno, o hasta que mueras, para decidir que no hay mejor momento que este para ser feliz... la felicidad es un trayecto, no un destino.
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Happiness
We convince to ourselves that the life will be better after marrying, after having a son, and after having another. Then we are frustrated that the children are not the sufficiently big and that we will be happier when they grow.
After that we frustrate ourselves because they are adolescent (difficult to try.) Certainly, we'll be happier when they leave this stage.
We tell ourselves that our life will be complete when our wife or husband goes better, when we have a better car or a better house, when we can have vacations, when we are retired.
The truth is that there is not better moment to be happy that now. If it isn't now, when?
Your life will always be full with challenges. It is better to admit it and to decide to be happy anyway. One of my favorite sentences belongs to Alfred D. Souza, he said, "for long time it seemed to me that the life was about to begin, the real life. But there was always some obstacle in the road, something that to solve first, some matter without finishing, time to happen, a debt to pay, then the life would begin. Until I realized that those obstacles were my life."
This perspective has helped me to see that there isn't a route to the happiness. The happiness "it is" the road, So, store each moment that you have, and store it more when you share it with somebody special, the sufficiently special thing to share your time, and remember that time doesn't wait for anybody...
So stop waiting until you finish the school, until you return to the school, until you lower 10 kilos, until you have children, until your children leave the house, until you marry, until you get divorced, until Friday at night, until Sunday at morning, until the spring, the summer, the autumn, or the winter, or until you die, to decide that there is not better moment that this to be happy... the happiness is an itinerary, not a destination.