Poetry In Motion

what do you think? is this what you had in mind? as per your request

HERE, BUT GONE

They call me, and I can't hear
as I barely notice my life ebb away in fear

Complacent and numb I react to the day
and no one notices the things I have to say

My form it stands at the sink
as I barely notice my life on the brink

Eyes wide open and my heart it does not beat
for it died some time ago and I just follow my feet

I sleepwalk through my daily chores
If I could rest and close the doors

and leave the world behind
or if only a moment of peace I could find

the children's voices call to me
a faint whispering and little form I see

and realise that life is worth the living
for these little charges accept me unconditionally

and I know that this is just the testing ground
and the Lord provides the strength to be found

for He will not leave me alone without resource
He will provide and not let me regret or have remorse..

For life is worth living as I am lifted from the sleep
and brought closer to shore away from the swelling deep

Maree Long
(c) Maree Long 2007
www.freewebs.com/poetrybymareelong

That was beautiful. I think I will post this one. And give credit! thanx!!!!

thank you TogaOga - if you would also kindly post myopera home page with the piece I would be especially thankful - thanks in advance

and thank you I'm glad you like the piece often life can be overwhelming for people at times in different circumstances but one thing I have learnt - If I am going through it - than I know with certainity there is a source upon which I can rely and draw for strength.....

TogaOga,

I will post one soon, that will explain how you are feeling as well. As a young mother, we get so frustrated and we feel like a we have become a shell of ourselves. We go through life just barely making it and wonder is this it.

I understand, I like others have been there. I questioned my life many times and wondered if I could take it. The late night feedings, the whining the tantrums the day that just wouldn't end. You just wonder if you are doing a good job and the answer is Yes you are. Your children will thank you someday (now I have teenagers, so don't expect it too soon) lol, but one day they will.

I will post that poem for you to see. It was made into a greeting card by Blue Mountains Arts Greeting Card Company.

Just keep thinking positive and take some time out every day for yourself, even if it is only for a short time to just meditate, read a book or just take a nice long bath. The kids will start to understand that this time is Mommy time and that Mommy cannot be disturbed. You will feel better and will have more energy to give to your children.

Good luck.

Christy

christy, you actually made me cry. but not in a bad way. all good. i feel better too! thank you.

You are welcome. Any time you need an ear, just PM me and I will be here for you. I have been there and it is hard. So please feel free to contact me at anytime. I will always be there for you.

awww:)

remember

How can I as a man understand what a mother's call is or how she can deal with having to be mommy 24 hours a day without a break. I always came home after work and added on to my wife's burden. That was long ago but for you...

Today Is Yet Young

I come and go as if I am alive and well
some do not notice I'm not one of them
I only care that my children can not tell
to end it all would be to go out on a limb

Who would take care of them and give them love
how can I stop these desires to run
What can I do except seek guidance from above
where do I go to learn to make life fun

Time passes slowly and here I do stay
things must be done and I am enslaved
Always the thought in mind to get away
never wanting them to feel that I betrayed

Why do I feel I've been here far too long
when will it end and I am dead and cold
The only answer is just to be strong
one day I will serve just my own soul

That is so true, valius

There have been many days where I thought this is it, I am giving up then I realize what about my childen. They need me. I might not be the best mother in the world, but I am their mother. So whatever happens, I need to be here for them.

omg-my thoughts exactly. i have contimplated on suicide many times...but when it came down to it, i think, "what am I doing? I am just being selfish, only thinking about myself." don't get me wrong, I love my children, I sometimes can't help but wonder what kind of stuff will they do, once I'm gone? or what if I didn't have any kids? how would my life be different? would i be as depressed as I am now? idk, but now that I think about it, i don't wanna go. and i'm glad for my children. These little people have a God-given right as well.

You are so right. You need to be here for our children. I know some days you might not even feel like getting out of bed, especially if you had a rough night with one of them. And it seems like you have lost yourself and you are not sure where the true you lies. That is what gets depressing. It does get better. Even now having teenagers, I think to myself I should be doing this or I should be doing that to make things better and I just drive myself crazy. I know that what I am doing is the best I can do for them and I have to remind myself of that every day. They might not appreciate it now but someday they will.

thanks to you and valius, i have given myself second thoughts about leaving. i will let God do His part, I will do mine. *hugs* to both.

Good to hear that. First of all, I wouldn't want you to leave this group. We need you on the group. And second, even if you only read other poems, that is okay. Maybe you might want to try to just write a few lines, whatever you feel like. Nothing has to rhyme here or even make sense to anyone else, but you.

*hugs* to you too.

well, i tried. the thing above...not really a poem so i asked for help...and i got it!!!

That is all you need to write. Just a few lines that express your emotions at the time. Nothing fancy. Just your feelings.

this i will! thank you for your encourage...ment?

You are so welcome.