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Sunday, 19. July 2009, 07:25:24

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Last June, the first term of my second year in college started. But due to some family issues and problems, I ended up ironing my own uniform (yes.. we still wear a uniform in our university).

I can iron, but it taked my a bit longer than the usual ironing time.



Our iron is the hot metal kind, not the steam one. So I woke up 30 minutes than the usual wake up time since I know I have to iron my uniform. I took a bath first then wore my undies. I was only wearing my undergarments while I was ironing since the one that I'm suppose to be wearing is not yet prepared and has tons of creases.

I was done with the blouse and was almost finished with the skirt when I accidentally grazed my thigh with the side of the iron. I didn't feel anything but a small sharp pain. After 15 seconds, OH GOD.. it hurted like hell. That is sooo going to leave a mark.

I checked on in and it was almost a second degree burn.

The burn is found on my right thigh near the inguinal region so the skin is thin on that area that's why it hurts. The size of it is about 2 and a half inches long.



I'm worried about the scar, it seems like after it dries up, it would be very visible. After 2 days I took another picture of it.



What is left as of now is an ugly scar and I'm searching on whether Rosehip oil really works as a scar remover. I don't like the place where my scar is located... probably an eyesore for my 'future' husband.

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Barf!

Sunday, 19. April 2009, 12:00:00

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Most of you, or rather most of the people I know that I am under strict diet and exercise. I'm gradually seeing some improvements and I think I'm doing great. I don't exactly follow the tips I have posted before about losing weight the healthy way - actually it is far from that.

I was thinking of making this private, but I don't see how would that help. I know that all of you will be very disappointed in me and probably think of my as stupid.

Aside from eating more healthy foods, lessening food consumption, and exercise, I have done something totally different from what I call 'healthy way of losing weight'. I am totally against being anorexic just because you want to look thin, and now I feel very disgraced and shamed of myself.

Last Tuesday, I woke up late for school and had to venture out without eating breakfast. Since I forgot to bring cash, I didn't get to eat at school either. I was famished when I got home in the afternoon and 'binged'. I ate 4 cups of rice, 3 servings of 2 chosen dishes, a bread dessert, 7 glasses of water, 1 mango, a few biscuits/crackers, and a sandwhich. How did those all fit in my stomach? Don't ask. I was disappointed at myself for binging and I was afraid that all my hard work at dieting has gone to waste. (Note: Binging that day is not the cheif problem) I remember reading a post from ------ regarding Bulimia Nervosa. Not that ------ actually influenced me I know about Bulimia very well but it just sort of reminded me, it's just maybe... just maybe... if I puke out everything I ate, or atleast a portion of it since I don't want to feel hungry again, I may still get back on my diet track.

So I puked atleast 20% of what I ate.:yuck:

It wasn't easy. I had to stick in my 'clean and washed' finger down my larynx (throat) for some time and it didn't feel good. I felt a little satisfaction when I finished. I thought to myself, "That's not bad. I mean, it won't be a disorder for me. It's my choice and I won't go totally bulimic and I totally have self-control over this."

The next day, I didn't get to eat breakfast, but I ate at at the college canteen. When I got home, my mom cooked my favorite dish... 'Nilagang Baka'. It's a filipino dish with beef, soup, potatoes, cabbages, etc. I think it's beef stew in english or something. I couldn't resist and I ate too much again. Even though I was already full, I stil ate. In the end, I puked most of it and went on my merry way.

Here is the part where it totally goes out of hand. Puking became my daily ritual. After the third day, I promised not to puke again. I am a nursing student so I know the effects of being bulimic. I can't believe it!



I AM BULIMIC!!:no:

Puking for the first time didn't feel that way. I thought that was just one time. But the success of the first one made me go for the second and third. Earlier this day, I puked again... not because I binged, but I ate chips.. a big bag of chips.

I was thinking before about how could people not stop the things they are addicted to when they don't like it themselves. Now I understand. TOTALLY! I don't want it, but it's happening!

I understand why this is happening to me. I am afraid that I may not be able to stop. I'm afraid that I may damage my throat, esophagus, body metabolism, teeth, etc. I am afraid to lose after all the hard work of dieting.

I do not go on a diet just to look good, but to be healthy. Looking pretty is just 10% of the reason. My body mass index tells me I'm fine though.

Anyways, I am totally ashamed of myself from developing a disorder and try my best to actually stop it. No more puking for me unless Mik decides to wear a bikini (peace Mik!) or I see someone in a skirt wearing traditional crocs. :smile:

Any tips are appreciated, although don't misunderstand. I am totally aware of what I am going through and I'm still in the beginning stage... so it won't be hard to revert back. But being in the bulimic newbie stage is also crucial as it might determine if I will become a full-pledged bulimic.




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We moved!!!

Sunday, 12. April 2009, 08:50:33

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Okay, so I haven't been active lately and some might actually notice that I'm a bit busy and I hadn't posted my monthly book review for quite a while now. I still can't upload the book cover snapshots, which I want to post with the review... so no book introductions for now.

We moved to a new house! Yey! or not actually Yey! My family found a need to move due to financial problems. The former house was too big and expensive for a family of 3 with 2 dogs. Now, we are currently residing at a new home two blocks away from the former home. We only rent here in the Philippines because we already own a house in Pasadena, California (another one that is too big and my dad might consider selling it once the crisis is over) and a cottage somewhere in the province here in the Philippines too. We rent a house at the city so I won't have a hard time transporting to my University.

The new house is half the price of the former one, and so far... it's the smallest we have ever lived in. I noticed the 'big' decline in the size of the houses we live in during the past years. The first house we had in the Philippines, (constructed years before I was born) was more than a hectare in size, had a swimming pool, a bar and billiards, and the works. My family used to be rich then. It's a complicated story which I hope will be shared to you soon.

Since the new house is small, some things need to be let go. I agreed in giving away clothes, some shelves, even my favorite bed which is too big for the new bedroom. BUT NOT MY BOOKS! I already experienced the trauma of actually losing them in a flash flood a few years ago. None were spared and I had to rebuild my collection which takes a big chunk on my budget. My parents just don't understand how important those books are to me.

What's the point of keeping them when you have already have read them? I know it's a waste of money to throw them but there is absolutely no space for it in the new house. You have to say farewell to you books and start packing the only the stuff you need. What are you going to do with those books anyway? Your course doesn't require you those stack of novels. Rather than reading those, read you Medical and Surgical Nursing Textbook which you will take next semester. Nothing good will come out of you reading all those stories.



I can't believe it! Those were the words my mom said to me (translated to English for the readers to understand some parts may be omitted). My parents do not appreciate the fact that I love to read. I was holding back my tears when I re-packed my books in a box where we put all the stuff we are going to throw out. The next day, I asked my dad if it is really necessary to throw my books. There has got to be a way right?

You don't have to throw out stuff that you don't want to throw. I guess you can find space in your room to put it as long as it' organized, it's fine.



Alleluia! This are one of the reasons why I haven't run away from home. I love my dad. I still had a few 'arguments' with my mom, but it worked out well for me.

I don't feel a certain longing for my former home. I only lived there for a year. I'm used to moving. I do not fail in keeping in touch with my friends. They just live in the next city just 30 mins away (without traffic). And our place has the most malls and hangouts so most people come here.

Anyways, my summer semester starts tomorrow. In tropical countries, summer starts at March and ends in mid-June.



To compare what our house is like... that house is way better than the one we're living in now... but actually.. I like the house in the picture P: I'll post pictures of our new house next week.

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Memorable tidbits of my 2008

Tuesday, 30. December 2008, 12:00:00

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2008 is about to and soon we shall welcome the new year. First, I would like to thank the people who made my 2008 memorable and worth breathing in. I have decided to enumerate small important details, events, happenings, endings and beginnings in my life that happened this 2008. No specific dates or names are mentioned and it doesn't appear in chronological order (or any specific order actually) but what is important is its significance.


  • I got to make new friends and realize who really care about me.

  • Made my first blog post here on MyOpera

  • Discovered that embarrass is spelled with two 'r's and two 's's.

  • Read the Twilight Saga written by Stephenie Meyer and loved it.

  • Realized my passion for stories

  • Became Site Manager of MangaVolume

  • Graduated from High Scool (M.I.S. Batch 2008)

  • Made a very long but touching thank you letter to my teacher in High School we used to hate but in the end I appreciated what he did

  • Indulged in the world of File Sharing

  • Met interesting people online (interesting in the concept of them being admired)

  • Daydreamed more than the usual

  • Laugh more than the usual

  • Learned how to use or do CSS without any CSS generators

  • Learned and used Photoshop for the first time

  • Move to a new city so I could be closer to my new school.

  • Attended college as a Nursing Student at Trinity University of Asia

  • Although embarrassing, but I have to mention this... I got my first kiss

  • Became uninspired and lonely, but still found and grabbed every oppurtunity to smile and laugh

  • Received my very first Christmas card via mail

  • Sang properly (meaning seriously) infront of an audience more than 10

  • Won the $1,000,000 dollar stage in the computer flash game "Who wants to be a Millionaire" twice.

  • Gave up playing Nintendo (not because I didn't want it anymore, but I didn't have the time and I couldn't find the console)

  • Fastest reading record for the year : 2 hours (400 pages of a novel)

  • Longest number of days or rather NIGHTS without sleep: 5 days

  • Started using make-up in small amounts once in a while

  • Fell inlove with an estimated amout of 150 fictional (novel, anime, manga) characters

  • Fell inlove or rather infatuated with 3 men

  • Lost 70% of my hair

  • Largest amount of money obtained in one time: estimate of 12,000 pesos

  • Largest amount of money wasted due to loss: 3,000 pesos (I cried)

  • Started downloading Manga series rather than viewing them online

  • Started downloading a few anime videos and episodes

  • Hadn't used paint (paint, as in the mother's worst nightmare when in the hands of a 3 year old)... at all this year

  • Had the crappiest Christmas of my life and I hope that the future ones will be better

  • LIST TO BE CONTINUED SOON... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

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I laugh when I am depressed

Sunday, 7. December 2008, 08:12:57

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Most people don't realize how depressing my everyday life is. I smile and laugh even though at times where I am suppose to be stressed or at times of hardships. They don't know that my smiles are like band-aids that cover up the pain I feel. Most people want to be happy and blissful every day. But is it worth it if you're just gonna cry until your eyes hurt every night? I took an this quiz on how depressed I am just for fun. Possibly the results are right but the questions asked in my quiz are far from my situation.
My Depression Level: 80%
I seem to have moderate depression.
My symptoms are bad enough that they're effecting your everyday life.
I would benefit greatly from professional help.
So, I am totally depressed and I need help. But that doesn't mean I am emo. I don't slit my wrists or listen to sad or metal just to wallow myself more in the suferring and pain I am experiencing.
I am 44% Emo
I am not not emo, but I am plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty.
So now, you can finally grasp a little bit of how I feel (I am sorry if I am not telling the whole story about this, maybe some other time). I am sad with my life, but how do I cope up with it? How can I ever manage? Most people who will have the same situation as mine would have commited suicide probably years ago already.
I am 88% Happy
It's unlikely that I know anyone happier than you.
I know how to be happy, no matter what life throws at me.
I hate feeling depressed. Although I know how sad I am, I try my best to laugh it out. I don't like to keep on suffering and torturing myself by crying all the time like some emos who never do anything in their life but to make themselves suffer more. I try to be happy and smile everytime I have a chance to. Having friends is also a big help.

You only remember your friends when you are sad because whenever you are with them you are happy.

The sad thing is that I do not confide how I feel to them. They don't know what I am going through thinking that it will only make them worry and more sadness shall come. The reason I have friends is because I want to be happy. Why will I tell them my sadness if its just gonna make all the happiness go away? For me, it is better this way. I like it to remain as it is because atleast I am lucky enough to find some happiness a few hours everyday. Smiling ang laughing are best medicinces for depression! But it doesn'y fully go away. Once I stop smiling, tears will fall down from my eyes.

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What is my Emotional Intelligence Quotient?

Saturday, 6. December 2008, 13:13:29

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My EQ is 147
You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.

While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

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Life Survey (uhh.. kinda boring though)

Wednesday, 3. December 2008, 15:25:32

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PART 1:: PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE
1. Who are you?
> I am the Princess of Death, A.K.A. Lady Karen
2. Who is your best friend?
> Razle Corcuera
3. How many close friends do you have?
> A lot...
3. Who do you value most?
> People who are important in my life, beings I know that I couldn't exist without, and creatures whom I adore a lot!
4. Who do you want to be with right now?
> with EDWARD CULLEN!
5. Who is the person you hate most?
> No one at the moment P: Probably myself -.-
6. Whose name is randomly appearing in your head?
> Edward Cullen :heart:
7. Who are you expecting today?
> Edward Cullen (I know he's fictional.. but I don't care!)
8. Who was the last person you were introduced to?
> Gosh! I forgot her name! I am such a bad person!!!!

PART 2::EMOTIONS IN YOUR LIFE
1. How are you feeling?
> Happy (outside), pained, sad, melancholic, sorrowful, and crying inside.
2. Do you have your ups and downs moments?
> I have them in everytime I breathe
3. Which one tends to get to you more often?
> Too many to mention :frown:
4. Are you hot-tempered?
> Not really.
5. Do you keep your emotions to yourself?
> Yeah, most of the time, especially those depressing ones.

PART 3::THINGS IN YOUR LIFE
1. What is your favorite color?
> Black, Lavader, Red, Apple Green
2. What is your most prized possession?
> I do not consider the stuff I have as 'MY' posession yet. I'm still a bird in a cage.
3. What is the object that you hate most?
> Things that remind me of my most dreadful days.
4. What kind of fashion statement do you follow?
> Anything and everything? hahaha
5. What is your favorite animal?
> I am an animal lover... animal lovers don't have favorites... I LOVE THEM ALL!
6. What is your least favorite animal?
> None.. Obviously. Well, maybe insects.. but somehow, I still like them :smile:
7. What are you most afraid of?
> Being alone and abandoned in the dark :worried:
8. What are you allergic of?
> Dust...

PART 4::MEDIA IN YOUR LIFE
1. Do you watch the news?
> Sometimes...
4. Do you watch cartoons? If yes, what?
> Yes... but mostly Japanese Animations.
5. How many email adresses do/did you have?
> 12 (yup.. and now I only use 5)
6. How many Internet accounts (Facebook, Myspace, Imeem, iLike, etc.)?
> Do you actually think I could keep track of that?
7. How many pen pals do you have?
> Pen pals? What's this? The 19th Century? Well, I do have net pals.. does that count?
8. How many messages are in your current email inbox?
> In which account? Well, estimation of more than 1500 in all of my email accounts excluding those accounts from MyOpera, Facebook, Myyearbook, Friendster, Myspace, Imeem, Vimeo, etc.
9. Do you follow fashion trends?
> Not that much.. I usually follow trends that I know will last more than 4 months. I don't like following stuff that will only last for 2 weeks.

PART 5::SCHOOL IN YOUR LIFE
1. What is your favorite subject?
> Physical Education
2. What is your least favorite subject?
> Biochemistry
3. Do you finish all your homework in time?
> Most of the time.
4. Are you the kind of person who comes late to class?
> NO!!!
5. Have you ever skipped class?
> Skipped class for nothing? Uh, NO!
6. Do you chew gums or eat candies in the middle of a lesson?
> If it's allowed, then yes.

PART 6::ACTIVITIES IN YOUR LIFE
1. What are you doing?
> Other than answering this survey? Well, I'm contemplating on myself while reading manga, downloading some anime videos, and listening to the television while trying to do an assignment on human anatomy and physiology.
2. What are you supposed to be doing?
> Doing my assignment and studying
3. What are you best in doing?
> Hiding my feelings, pretending on being happy, laugh, actually other than this, I can do a lot of things... Heck most of the things I can do, I am good at!
4. What kind of extracurricular activities do you have?
> Hmmm... none yet.
5. What is your goal in life?
> :confused: :confused: :confused:

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What kind of blogger are you?

Wednesday, 29. October 2008, 11:31:28

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I am a Pundit Blogger!
Your blog is smart, insightful, and always a quality read.
You're up on the latest news, and you have an interesting spin on things.
Of all the blogging types, you put the most thought and effort into your blog.
Truly appreciated by many, surpassed by only a few



I was browsing the net and answering some random quizzes when I saw this one. And among all the quizzes I've answered, I decided to post this one on my blog. Although, I do not totally agree to everything it said about my blogging type. For all bloggers out there, try taking this quiz to see what kind of blogger are you!

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Eleven Layers...

Tuesday, 23. September 2008, 11:52:24

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A survey taken from Nerak(Karen.. not me) who took it from Sarah who took it from Jose. It looked kinda interesting so I grabbed it and answered it as well.

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Lady Karen
Birthday: July 20, 1992
Location: Somewhere in the Milkyway Galaxy in a planet called Earth
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty: Righty.. (I used to write using my left when I was young, that is before I discovered it's easier to write using my right hand)
Zodiac Sign: Libra

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Half Spanish, One Fourth Japanese, One Fourth Filipino
Your fears: Being alone in the dark
Your perfect pizza: Cheesy!!!!! with lost of meat! with extra CHEESE it will be a bonus if it's fat free... but heck... cholesterol is delicious!

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
Your thoughts first waking up: "5 more minutes"
Your best physical feature: eyes and eyebrows
Your bedtime: anywhere from 1am tp 3am
Your most missed memory: Being happier than what I am today....

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: None... I prefer Dihydrogen Monoxide
Single or group dates: Hmmm.. if it's with a person I barely know.. group date... if it;s with a person I know... Single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla!! Yum!

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU
Smoke: No
Take a shower: duh!
Have a crush: :happy: yes....
Think you've been in love: :heart: hahaha.. Yup!

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: :no: I don't drink alchoholic beverages
Gone to the mall: Hahaha.. yes!
Been on stage: YUp....
Eaten Sushi: :chef: yes!!!
Been dumped: No
Gone skating: Yup.. I was really bad at first... but it was fun!
Dyed your hair: No... I like mine to be natural

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: Hahahaha! :yes:
Gotten beaten up: Uhhh.. No. But I have beaten somebody up :faint:
Changed who you were to fit in: Uhh.. No

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age you're hoping to be married: 25-32
Age you want to have kids: 27-onwards

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: black!!!! and red!! yeah!
Best hair color: black, brown, any dark color
Short or long hair: Long!

LAYER TEN: TIME
1 MINUTE AGO: Answering this survey
1 HOUR AGO: Eating...
1 DAY AGO: dead tired because of my schedule in college!
1 YEAR AGO: multi-tasking and getting caught up in anime and manga

LAYER ELEVEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
I LOVE: Anime, Manga, Family, God, Friends, more anime and manga, books, techno stuff... did I mention anime and manga?
I FEEL: pressured bug
I HIDE: my true feelings and personality... also some of my talents
I MISS: a lot of people who I care about
I WANT: more anime and manga, and money that can satisfy all my needs and wants!!! :lol:



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