Mo Chridhe.(supposedly means my heart in Gaelic) two words that impacted me the most through the reading of a book i bought recently. Mercy by Jodi Picoult. she was a writer i've never heard of, and i've never read any book of hers. but somehow or rather, her books captivated me, especially mercy, with the words "the love of your life asks for your help to die. what would you do?" printed on the front cover. so tell me, how could i not buy it? i have to admit, it was a difficult read, mainly because i didn't understand where most parts were coming from till i reached the last part of the book, and even now, there are still many questions reeling in my head, the most burning one being (nope it's not about whether jamie did the right thing by killing his wife out of love)is it true that in love, it's never equal, and it's either seventy-thirty, or sixty-fourty? and if that's the case, where would you rather be?the one giving, or the one receiving?
so anws, putting aside that mind boggling question, i went vivo with hid and qiqi yesterday! ate quite unglamly, and went shopping for more formal wear. spent a total of $300 there between me and hid (qiqi didn't get anything). but it was great, cos we went to take the CABLE CAR!!! (it was a mistake to take it so late at night, but ohwells.LET'S TAKE IT TOGETHER WITH SARAH AND JUNIOR NEXT TIME IN THE MORNING OK!)
we had to walk so freaking far (turned a big round in fact) to find the place to take the cable car, and in return, we got this lousy looking ticket. you'd have thought it'll look nicer. but anws, its not really the ticket that matters.
it was me and hid's first time on it (qiqi took it before at genting), and frankly, i was quite scared (at first) cos the cabin was kind of tilted to one side. and seriously, dangling out in the sky in a small box suspended only by a few wires is no joke ok! but hey, it was just cool after awhile.
and despite not having much to see, we caught the night lights, and just had fun enjoying the experience. it ended too soon though.
had to head back home after that cos it was getting late, and we were all worn out walking the lengths of vivo earlier on.
love this photo big time. just look at qiqi's expression! i like this type of photos, capturing what the person's feeling at that point of time, so they can always look back and feel the way they'd felt at the point of time the photo was taken. (it just seems easier to replay that moment when the expression's captured. at least, that's how it seems to me.)
we had fun entertaining ourselves in the crowded cabin, not giving a damn about others really (the train was considerably crowded), and just snapped away and laughed at our stupid expressions.
and when i told qiqi i've been getting mosquito bites recently, she said "because you're sweet." WAHAHHAHAHA! boost my self esteem can! thank you v much!
shopping again today in town (and i'm gg again tomorrow) though i didn't manage to get anything, and seriously, i shouldn't. cos the money spent on formal wear is getting ridiculous, and seriously $70 for a formal top just isn't as worth it as i thought i should be. just knock me in the head again so i'll never do such a stupid thing again please. but $50 for formal pants is REALLY WORTH IT (hint to qiqi!) and both me and hid got 2 of it (at ZARA somemore can!), like good buy like siao. and when i think back on the past, when i went shopping once with qi and told her $20 for a tshirt is damn expensive, i mock myself at how now i sometimes even think that $50 for a simple shirt is worth it.
maybe it's true that as the money you have increases, your spending just increases with it as well, and no matter how much you have, it just never seems to be enough.
the view from the top is always the best, but it's also the most dangerous, because when you fall, remember; it's a long way down.
lets JUMP FOR JOY! (even the sky's prettier today) it's the last paper (at least for some of us) today!so though it wasn't really a big exclamation of YES IT'S OVER AND DONE WITH, but definitely we're glad its all over. (no more studying! at least for the next 11 weeks, or so.)
lunch! at bishan's pizza hut. and seriously, i think that piza hut's service standards really is quite at some places please. this was no exception. but oh wells. the food was goooood. and i like the photo of the condiments i took which had hid's face in the middle, quite nice i think.
arcade after that, and as you can see from the scores, i'm the lousiest.SARAH IS THE OVERALL WINNER!!! (she forced me to say that) spent quite some time and money there, and there were quite a few interesting games! v fun!
towned, where we shopped and walked here and there, and sat at kino for the longest period of time. most exciting part of this journey was went we went back to gap for the 2nd time, and we had fun in the fitting room.(bought formal top! yay!)
blur, but i guess somehow quite nice.
it was such a tiring day out, but i had so much fun. though we didn't do much, but spending time with hid and qiqisunshine(dearest qiqi's new name) just makes me happy!
please watch over them from up above, keep them safe. let everything be alright, i plead with all my might.
So I'm waiting for this test to end So these lighter days can soon begin I'll be alone but maybe more carefree Like a kite that floats so effortlessly I was afraid to be alone Now I'm scared thats how I'd like to be All these faces none the same How can there be so many personalities So many lifeless empty hands So many hearts in great demand And now my sorrow seems so far away Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain But I turn them off and tuck them away 'till these rainy days that make them stay And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs And the words still ring, once here now gone And they echo through my head everyday And I dont think they'll ever go away Just like thinking of your childhood home But we cant go back we're on our own Oh, But i'm about to give this one more shot And find it in myself I'll find it in myself So were speeding towards that time of year To the day that marks that you're not here And i think I'll want to be alone So please understand if I dont answer the phone I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls Until I can see nothing at all Only particles some fast some slow All my eyes can see is all I know Ohh.. But I'm about to give this one more shot And find it in myself I'll find it in myself
i know the lyrics ring something in me, and though for now i have no idea what it is, hearing this song makes me feel this deep sorrow and yet at the same time, i feel at peace and relaxed.
20082008(wouldn't have realised if not for sarah's msg) like how nice is that!?!?! so obviously i'll have to blog on a day that only occurs once in forever. there'll never be such a date, ever again. (though if you think about it, there'll be 20092009, and 20102010, 20112011, and 20122012, and 30013001, 30023002 ...)but it'll never be 20082008 ever again, unless the whole world decides to calculate the date all over again, which i think is quite retarded and most probably impossible. <-- ok that was lame. but the date is still cool!
starbucks seems to be our new home. <3
studied there with hid and clara, though clara came later and left earlier. and me and hid were stunned to see a flood of ladies overcrowding starbucks early in the morning. they got a free drink each from the "head" who brought them there, and they seem to be having some sort of prize giving session (cash prizes ok!). in the end we stil couldn't figure out what exactly were they, but we concluded maybe they were retail staff of some sort. starbucks must have really rolled in bucks then, cos there were something like 20 plus 30 plus people there in total? even if all ordered the cheapest coffee, it'll still be like seriously alot!
had to go ttsh to get my medical report for my fatty tissue with my mom, and it turned out to be nothing (phew!) and i was just suay to have kena-ed it. ohwells. tough luck.
went back starbucks to find hid again to study, though it was more of like having an entertaining conversation with her and my mom more than studying, but i thought it was really nice that i got to talk to my mom for awhile as a friend. it was nicer than i imagined.
(i had difficulty taking the above photo, cos they all din really wna entertain me. but i still got the pic in the end!) so it was dinner at swensens when my sis came to join us. and i think there was something wrong with my tastebuds cos the food tasted real salty.
had a real laugh at popular when we went to get some labels for the act. it was really damn entertaining. "RAH RAH!" it was so random that we all just had an outburst there and then.
anws on a more serious (or should i say lighter?) note, it's 14 hours to the start of the last paper which also means its 16 hours to the end of hell! (at least for 4 days, before it resumes with an even greater intensity.)
and i never fail to be thankful for the friendships that i have that i really treasure. these are the people that i know know me and still love me despite knowing me. these are the people that i am at ease with, that i feel that i can almost be myself with. these are the darlings that brighten up my everyday, and the ones that support me when i'm down. these are the sweeties that encourage me to surpass my abilities and be the best i can be in many little ways, who just make me smile by saying silly things that don't make sense at all. i'm blessed, i know. thank you. (you know who you all are.)
and even though it might really be that at different stages in life you will have different groups of friends, i really hope the friends i really treasure at this point of time, will remain with me throughout. because i just can't imagine life without you guys.
(no wonder i miss the pig over at aust so much. rawr. hope december comes sooooon!)
the possibility of something is more intriguing than the something itself.
- it's like sometimes when you want something so much and you keep imagining just how nice it would be if you really had it, but once you have it, it just doesn't seem as great anymore. that's how i interpret this, and maybe this shall teach me to stop buying on impulse. which i think i have (to a certain extent at least) thanks to hid and last time, hao, who always naggggg at me when i spend too much. thanks, especially to hid!
THREE DOWN!one last to go. not that it's gonna get much better since it's gonna be ipp from next wk onwards (which i seriously have doubts of surviving because i'm so not suited for a sedentary job. i mean like what if i'm gonna fall freaking sick every 2 weeks like the other time i did office job? let's hope it'll be fine, but then again, i really shouldn't complain because i'm really quite lucky.) and it'll be 8.30 to 6 every week day, for me at least.
today was RED DAY! me hid sarah all came in red today! (you think it was because our telapathy [dont laugh at how i say it!] "skills" increased due to the bonding yesterday?) LOLS!
snapped photos at the mrt with clara to signify this wonderfully RED day. i love the last photo of me with clara! the lighting somehow damn nice, though i wonder why my face is quite omg in it (maybe its quite omg in most pics). and actually i think basically all four photos we nicely taken (sadly not with my phone) and the lightings and our SWEET SMILES made the shots all pretty and nice!
went woodlands after the paper ended for dinner at banquet there (the food there's really good!) and landed at delifrance for dessert.even though i felt like i was too bloated and all, but i guess sarah's right in that there's always space for dessert. LOLS. tried to study eir there, but apparently all i rmb now is the union recognition and the definition of trade union.
and i think i like black and white photos more than colour photos. they seem to convey so much more, at least they do to me. it's just so timeless.
Life is not about the amount of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away.
today was a great day of trying to study (failing miserably once again). and sometimes i can't fathom how we can be so relaxed when we're having a paper the next day, but apparently, we just can.
lunched at ichiban with hid sarah qiqi, (edit: hid went with us but she nv eat there! so poor thing look at use eat, SORRY!) before gg off to sarah's for mj (without qiqi, sadly.) and it was seriously fun! we tried to study after that, but somehow or rather, by the time it was dinner, we'd only seem to achieve what is S.I.M.P.L.E and after dinner was worse. we talked about everything and anything under the sky, and it was the greatest 2 hours of my day.
comfortability with a person has no time factor, and it just occurs. no one can understand how one decides one is comfortable with another, but i guess it's a mutual thing, and i consider myself lucky, really.
we don't know, you can never be sure. but you take the plunge anyway. sure is for people who don't love enough.
- on how you know the one you choose is really THE ONE. awww tell me again, how sweet is that?
and talking about sweet, we watched fated to love you (and it STILL ISN'T the last episode which is kind of getting irritating) today! and OH MY GOSH IT WAS SO FREAKING SWEET HOW THEY GOT TOGETHER IN THE END ok! is totally melts one. and cunxi is really so freaking cute and charming!!
propose to me the way he did, i'll definitely say YES! (haha ok i do know now's kind of still young to be talking about marriage, but hey, a girl's entitled to her fantasies ehh)
my two fav guys together! mike he and ethan!
ok off to nap and than WHP! keep the faith that you have please.
such a beautiful song. if im not in love with you - faith hill
If I'm not in love with you What is this I'm going through Tonight And if my heart is lying then What should I believe in Why do I go crazy Every time I think about you, baby Why else do I want you like I do If I'm not in love with you
And if I don't need your touch Why do I miss you so much Tonight If it's just infatuation then Why is my heart aching To hold you forever Give a part of me I thought I'd never Give again to someone I could lose If I'm not in love with you
Why in every fantasy Do I feel your arms embracing me Lovers lost in sweet desire Why in dreams do I surrender Like a little baby Someone help explain this feeling Someone tell me
If I'm not in love with you What is this I'm going through Tonight And if my heart is lying then what should I believe in Why do I go crazy Every time I think about you baby Why else do I want you like I do If I'm not in love with you
such beautiful lyrics and melody, seriously. please listen and fall in love with the song, as i have.
and i seriously hate myself for not being able to memorise information like how i spend money, i.e. with such ease that i don't even realise it.
like freak. i've spent the whole day studying (plus watching shows and blogging, but that's not really the point) and i can't seem to churn out the information. i spent like millions of hours, and yet nothing seems to register in my brain. ihateboo so much, i seriously do. and i hate the system in singapore. why are exams important anyway? we just forget what we memorise for the sake of memorising when the exam's over. exams are a stupid thing. projects are much better in the sense we get to apply what we learn, and in the process of learning, we automatically remember all the theories we apply to the project. see, all rounded! schools should be like 100% proj based, and i know some of you may say exams are to test what we know, and the progress of learning, but seriously, is that a good enough gauge? doing well in exams just doesn't equate to doing well in real, at least, to me, that's how i see it. ohwells.
life's just this way, like it or not. and i just gotta accept it and take the exam tomorrow, whether i'm ready for it or not, is secondary. so please wish me luck and pray really hard that somehow i'd manage to remember snippets of information here and there to give me a B. i just want a B.
anws on a side note, i watched the olympics, but just gave up halfway, cos sorry to say, but i din see the point anymore. but me and my sis had a great time laughing at expressions, and one thing the commentator said really had us laughing like nobody's business.
she just can't believe she's not perfect
- commentator, when the zhang woman made one of the mistake in the match against jiawei.
studying seriously kills my brain cells! have been studying, doing tutorials, uploading photos, and watching snippets of the olympics.
i want to play!
anws the phelps(is this how you spell it?) guy got 8 gold medals in the olympics. how cool is that man! and i like gymnastics! it's like so cool the way the athletes seem so graceful in a sport that requires so much energy. watched the beach volleyball match (womens) between usa and brazil during lunch, and omg the usa blocker was DAMN GOOD OK! and im gonna watch the chance for singapore to get gold(like, finally!) tonight!
i like how opera functions and the additional stuff that's so much easier to add as compared to blogger, but i feel the userface isnt v stable and wells, i just hope it wont give me too many major problems. the time's kinda funny though sometimes (or is it all the time?), so i guess you have to add something like 8 hours to it?
and i seriously hate it when i have no $$. it's a sad thing really, though i don't understand how my $$ just seems to flow away like that. -shrugs- maybe it's just rising prices in everything, and not my spending style, right?
anws they have really cute smilies! <- you think the eyes' as huge as mine? <- this is damn cute! <- this reminds me of dearest qi! <- love these!
ok i've sidetracked. this is a very redundant entry really. and i don't know why but my internet's really slow nowadays. it's so slow that it's quite irritating actually. BLAH.
let me at least do something useful like introduce a nice song lyrics!
one in a million-Hannah Montana
How did I get here, turned around And there you were I didn't think twice or rationalize Cuz somehow I knew That there was more than just chemistry I mean I knew you were kind of into me But I figured it's too Good to be true
I said pinch me where's the catch this time Can't find a single cloud in the sky Help me before I get used to this guy
All this time I was looking for love Trying to make things work They weren't good enough Til I thought I'm through Said I'm done Then stumbled into the arms of the one
You're making me laugh about the silliest stuff Say that I'm your diamond in the rough When I'm mad at you You come with your velvet touch Can't believe that I'm so lucky I have never felt so happy Every time I see that sparkle in your eyes
They say that good things take time But really great things happen in the blink of an eye Thought the chances to meet somebody like you were a million to one I can not believe it, oh whoa You're one in a million, (yea yea)
Happiness isn't getting what you want, it's wanting what you got
- Garth Brooks
ok i'm off to force more information into my puny little brain. (at least i'll try to)
i pondered hard and long before deciding to shift here actually. i mean, moving here meant leaving behind my 667 entries over at blogger. i'm kinda missing them already, but as the saying goes, "if the old doesn't go, the new wouldn't come", right?
let's hope i won't regret!
today was spent at thomson with hid and sarah, studying(though we watched cars and had random conversations more than anything else).
love the ambience at starbucks, and we had the best seats when we went back there after lunch! it got so comfortable that i was so unproductive. (ok that's just an excuse, but ohwells.)
had this conversation that revolved around acceptance from a parent's viewpoint. and i guess sometimes accepting just ain't as easy as it seems, especially if it involves your own child. and though now i say i can, maybe when it really happens, i can't either. who knows?
anws just kill me, cos i'm supposed to study qm and nothing's gotten in my head yet. i just hate memorising stuffs, and it's just not in me i guess. quite stressed that i'll not have enough time. hope all will be well.
it's not in me, usually, to be draggy, but when it comes to __, i have no idea why i am so. i guess it's just because every extra moment counts, and i just hate to rush in this. sorry.
Mercy by Jodi Picoult. she was a writer i've never heard of, and i've never read any book of hers. but somehow or rather, her books captivated me, especially mercy, with the words "the love of your life asks for your help to die. what would you do?" printed on the front cover. so tell me, how could i not buy it? 
i have to admit, it was a difficult read, mainly because i didn't understand where most parts were coming from till i reached the last part of the book, and even now, there are still many questions reeling in my head, the most burning one being (nope it's not about whether jamie did the right thing by killing his wife out of love) is it true that in love, it's never equal, and it's either seventy-thirty, or sixty-fourty? and if that's the case, where would you rather be? the one giving, or the one receiving? 
we had to walk so freaking far (turned a big round in fact) to find the place to take the cable car, and in return, we got this lousy looking ticket. you'd have thought it'll look nicer. but anws, its not really the ticket that matters. 
it was me and hid's first time on it (qiqi took it before at genting), and frankly, i was quite scared (at first) cos the cabin was kind of tilted to one side. and seriously, dangling out in the sky in a small box suspended only by a few wires is no joke ok! but hey, it was just cool after awhile.
and despite not having much to see, we caught the night lights, and just had fun enjoying the experience. it ended too soon though. 
love this photo big time. just look at qiqi's expression! 
i like this type of photos, capturing what the person's feeling at that point of time, so they can always look back and feel the way they'd felt at the point of time the photo was taken. (it just seems easier to replay that moment when the expression's captured. at least, that's how it seems to me.) 
we had fun entertaining ourselves in the crowded cabin, not giving a damn about others really (the train was considerably crowded), and just snapped away and laughed at our stupid expressions. 
at some places please. this was no exception. but oh wells. the food was goooood. and i like the photo of the condiments i took which had hid's face in the middle, quite nice i think.
so it was dinner at swensens when my sis came to join us. and i think there was something wrong with my tastebuds cos the food tasted real salty. 
<- you think the eyes' as huge as mine? 
<- this reminds me of dearest qi!
<- love these!
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