refreshing.
Wednesday, 30. January 2008, 11:44:51
oh fuck who does this.
sitting at 5:46 am. just sitting, refreshing, waiting, hoping, listening, watching, some one will post, some one will respond, some one ill im, checking. home. mypage, blog, refresh, friends page, aim, home, mypage, blog, refresh friends page, adium, over and over. theres no one there. there all gone. gone to sleep. yes even the wones on the other side of the world. its almost six aim. almost bed time. i finished my pack today, didnt bum any, i know thats not buch but it feels like something.
pathetic. and clusmy.
sample:
inspired by gods with the crystal glare of star burnt brightness engulfing her vision. a signal arm stretching, pale, strong, no sign of a human form. skin like silk, coarse and flowing over what ever veins lay underneath, defying all logic as a face follows the arm. still with the light at his back, from his eyes, burning orbs contained by no shade of glass or thickness of wall, now burning the back of her retina, she knows she must look away, but she can not break the gaze, what she cannot see some how holding her mind in place. her head of-coarse follows, forgetting the presence of her neck, all below her might as well have vanished, for with out any direct communication she has lost them. she doesn't notice, but she no longer needs to breath, her hair no longer falls to her shoulder, he heart, no longer pounds, and she, of-coarse, cannot blink; her eyes beyond entranced. still staring up, the light, his voice, if only i could reach, the hand so close, my arms, no need, i need only think it. he mind found the fingers of the heavens gently grazing the side of her cheek, emitting a warmth that she had never felt. he smiles, his eyes soften, fingers find their way to lay behind her ear, then his mouth opens, the sound of a train comes screaming out. i wind pulls her, her eyes blink violently, and she falls slightly backwards bending at the knees, feeling suddenly cold, and defend, the train flying only a few feet in front of her. she knew she had been fatally, close, she looked up and down the tracks as a light in the distance flickered twice then deadens. then forward in time to see the last window of the last car on the train fly by, it is him, im the window, looking out, hand pressed to the glass, waiting for her, to see her face, then disappear. follows him with her eyes her face and all of her body not believing his eyes, and as quickly as all things pass, he is truly gone. she stands momentarily stunned. felling the dry cold burn her cheeks and hands, drying the inside of her noise as it struggled to cling to more. she then becomes animated once agian, searching for a second, then finding her purse no more then a step behind her on the paved station floor. she picks it up brings it to her shoulder leaving her hand against her cold tan leather jacket to hold the strap in place and walks a few paces to the pay phone. with out thought she dials, a voice calm, gentle, not her voice, but her others, mine, "Teger station?" "yes" "i can make it in 4 min. if you need it." "he was here, i cant remember why or how, but i say, him, then on the sub way, please com.." "ive already left and i made coco, for the ride..." "...but how did you know..." "i saw him as well, he told me i would pick you up."
the silence was neither awkward nor comfortable, steady nor violent, it was simply understood
"i just pulled in."
"i love you"
"what we share is not to be held to the restraints of words, no more then our world is"
an shaky smile starts to twitch upon her face, i continue
"i love you"
her eye releases a single tear
"im here"
the light in the phone booth then starts to flicker, and with out hesitation she places the phone on its nest, and takes the 9 steps to the cars, by the 4th the light was out, i wait at her door,
"he cant hurt us"
she holds tight to my body with her shoulders around my neck, i return the act, starting to loose my self in the safety of our embrace,
we both at once release.
a single kiss and i start to my said of the car.
sitting driving, sipping hot coca, she says only one thing,
"hes getting stronger"
then science. she knows i understood.
this is a sample of my other blog. GO READ IT AND COMMENT!
its not based on any reaility, at all, so its intresting, kinda, at least comment on the other one.
rives7.blogspot.com
rives-endofthings.blogspot.com
sitting at 5:46 am. just sitting, refreshing, waiting, hoping, listening, watching, some one will post, some one will respond, some one ill im, checking. home. mypage, blog, refresh, friends page, aim, home, mypage, blog, refresh friends page, adium, over and over. theres no one there. there all gone. gone to sleep. yes even the wones on the other side of the world. its almost six aim. almost bed time. i finished my pack today, didnt bum any, i know thats not buch but it feels like something.
pathetic. and clusmy.
sample:
inspired by gods with the crystal glare of star burnt brightness engulfing her vision. a signal arm stretching, pale, strong, no sign of a human form. skin like silk, coarse and flowing over what ever veins lay underneath, defying all logic as a face follows the arm. still with the light at his back, from his eyes, burning orbs contained by no shade of glass or thickness of wall, now burning the back of her retina, she knows she must look away, but she can not break the gaze, what she cannot see some how holding her mind in place. her head of-coarse follows, forgetting the presence of her neck, all below her might as well have vanished, for with out any direct communication she has lost them. she doesn't notice, but she no longer needs to breath, her hair no longer falls to her shoulder, he heart, no longer pounds, and she, of-coarse, cannot blink; her eyes beyond entranced. still staring up, the light, his voice, if only i could reach, the hand so close, my arms, no need, i need only think it. he mind found the fingers of the heavens gently grazing the side of her cheek, emitting a warmth that she had never felt. he smiles, his eyes soften, fingers find their way to lay behind her ear, then his mouth opens, the sound of a train comes screaming out. i wind pulls her, her eyes blink violently, and she falls slightly backwards bending at the knees, feeling suddenly cold, and defend, the train flying only a few feet in front of her. she knew she had been fatally, close, she looked up and down the tracks as a light in the distance flickered twice then deadens. then forward in time to see the last window of the last car on the train fly by, it is him, im the window, looking out, hand pressed to the glass, waiting for her, to see her face, then disappear. follows him with her eyes her face and all of her body not believing his eyes, and as quickly as all things pass, he is truly gone. she stands momentarily stunned. felling the dry cold burn her cheeks and hands, drying the inside of her noise as it struggled to cling to more. she then becomes animated once agian, searching for a second, then finding her purse no more then a step behind her on the paved station floor. she picks it up brings it to her shoulder leaving her hand against her cold tan leather jacket to hold the strap in place and walks a few paces to the pay phone. with out thought she dials, a voice calm, gentle, not her voice, but her others, mine, "Teger station?" "yes" "i can make it in 4 min. if you need it." "he was here, i cant remember why or how, but i say, him, then on the sub way, please com.." "ive already left and i made coco, for the ride..." "...but how did you know..." "i saw him as well, he told me i would pick you up."
the silence was neither awkward nor comfortable, steady nor violent, it was simply understood
"i just pulled in."
"i love you"
"what we share is not to be held to the restraints of words, no more then our world is"
an shaky smile starts to twitch upon her face, i continue
"i love you"
her eye releases a single tear
"im here"
the light in the phone booth then starts to flicker, and with out hesitation she places the phone on its nest, and takes the 9 steps to the cars, by the 4th the light was out, i wait at her door,
"he cant hurt us"
she holds tight to my body with her shoulders around my neck, i return the act, starting to loose my self in the safety of our embrace,
we both at once release.
a single kiss and i start to my said of the car.
sitting driving, sipping hot coca, she says only one thing,
"hes getting stronger"
then science. she knows i understood.
this is a sample of my other blog. GO READ IT AND COMMENT!
its not based on any reaility, at all, so its intresting, kinda, at least comment on the other one.
rives7.blogspot.com
rives-endofthings.blogspot.com
