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Posts tagged with "my life"

Crashing and burning

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To all of you that miss me (lol), I drop by and read, but rarely comment, and blog even more rarely. Oh well, so this is gonna be the return of mine, hopefully. However, since my last post was written in November, I'm gonna try to post all of the (interesting) updates...

- Was planning to move to Belgrade on the 1st of December. However, my computer died, so I bought a laptop.
- In December, my relationship began attempting suicide, due to weird timetables and too many kilometers.
- Christmas and New Year's eve went great.
- In January, I was robbed in the middle of the day, in the very downtown of Novi Sad. Two mornings later, I managed to fuck up my ankle, running to catch a train in 5am. It actually never healed properly, since I couldn't afford not to move. Also, traveling to work became almost unmanageable, but I kept on trying, and missed my exams, since I went broke due to family reasons.
- In February, my bag was stolen on a train, and all of the usable clothes was inside of it!
- In march, my salary was cut, and it started to be late. They still ow me the part of that month's payment! I also started looking for a new job.
- In april, I started working at RTD as a radio DJ.
- Meanwhile, I have built up a site of mine, with a blog included, so I blog in Serbian at: http://blog.arsenovic.net. Also, my spine went bananas, I've become a bigger hater than I was and I haven't eaten properly for several months.

My current condition is:
- Still happily in love, but trying to restore all the things that went wrong due to the seven months without a normal communication.
- Working almost every day.
- Still not having enough money and not knowing when the hell am I gonna get back to the Uni.
- Unable to go anywhere on vacation this summer, and being very annoyed by the fact.
- Trying to do something with my spine. Therapies, gym, etc.
- Trying not to project my frustrations on other people oO

Sounded black? Oh well.

Now welcome me, lol.

Countless counting

So, here's what's been keeping me busy.

As many of us know, I work as a technician in a satellite TV station called "Top Music Channel". My salary is around 300€ each month. Plus I recieve the alimony from my father - around 150€ more. I earn around 50€ some other way sometimes. So, 450€ isn't a bad sum of money to live with in Serbia. I do not have a family, only a flatmate. However, what is screwing the concept is the fact that I live and study in Novi Sad... and work in Belgrade!! So, 450€ minus the rent (75€), minus the bills (80€), minus cellphone (30€), minus travelling to work (at least 150€)... it doesn't really lead me anywhere. Well, I do manage my existence, I get drunk once a month and always eat out because I don't have time for cooking...

So, I got this great idea of moving to Belgrade. I lived there in a couple of rounds, but I'm not really into the whole moving process right now. Plus, the flat would be more expensive. And I would have to somehow maintain my lovelife that would stay in Novi Sad. Found a flatmate. And these days we've been looking for a flat. And planning to move by the 1st of December.

And this is such a wrong moment to start hesitating about the whole thing, you know?
But I keep destroying everything I touch.

Since mine and my special someone's timetables are going to be pretty crowded in the next couple of months, I fear of staying in Novi Sad much longer than I plan - than, why moving? Sitting in cafes for the whole day untill we manage to meet at night could be exhausting. Even carrying a laptop around all the time wouldn't make me productive enough.

... Now what?



Gonna get back here, I guess. Welcome me.

Update?!

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Yeah, I've kinda abandoned this blog. Willing to upload photos... but there are none Oo

So, here's what's been happening around lately..

August. Utterly broke. Utterly lonely.
Towards the end of the month, while recording and editing a podcast, a friend of mine screamed about my negativity.
So, she said that she was gonna find me a job.
Ten days later, she actually did.

Gave three more exams. Living in Novi Sad... and working in Belgrade, in a satellite TV station...
So, not having much time.

Gonna try and comment the blogs of people I like to read :wink: but I can't promiss I'll blog here for a certain period of time...

Yeah, another blog and the Quarter-life crisis

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This post is a semi-translated copy/paste from my other blog.

The deal is, at the beggining of this summer, I've started another blog, in Serbian. Decided that this one should take a summer break. The Serbian blog was originally at myexit.org, and the goal of its existence was to let me collect and organize my thoughts and to emmit all the negativity.

However, I was hacked. Big time. Lost my Myspace & Facebook accounts, MSN, two Google accounts etc etc etc. Lost some important data as well. And loads of passwords. So, apparently, I had to move the Serbian blog, since I am now unable to log to that account. And since I've totally got used to blogging at MyOpera, the choice was logical. For all of you that understand Serbian, the blog is here.

Still messed up about the whole hacking-thing. Like it wasn't enough to suffer from Quarter-life crisis, lol! No, really, found about it recently, and hell yeah, I think I can recognize the simptoms. x)))


Finally found something to blame for everything that goes on in my head!!

What's the use waiting for the mid-life crisis?

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level
frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career
confusion of identity
insecurity regarding the near future
insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals
insecurity regarding present accomplishments
re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships (all the time)
disappointment with one's job
nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life (always)
tendency to hold stronger opinions
boredom with social interactions
loss of closeness to high school and college friends (I even looked forward to it)
financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
loneliness
desire to have children (OH GOD NO!!!)
a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you



Wikipedia article:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

And there are also sites about it, support groups, etc... Massive!!






And before I go, I've got to say THANK YOU to MyOpera Community Support, for helping me in renewing my password. That's the way to keep a blogger. :wink:

Happy Birthday To Me

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So, if you're reading this, know that this is the post written one day earlier and scheduled to appear at the exact time of my birth. So, 17th of June, 9pm.

On 16th of June, 21 years ago, my mother was sitting in the tavern called Venice, at the quay of Zemun. And then, a month or two earlier than anyone expected, the labout pains have started.

I was born upside-down, after 23 hours (!!!) of enormous efforts by the doctors... and my mom, of course.

For months before my birth, and quite some time after that, my mother refered to me as The Gremlin.

Oddly enough, a few days ago, my special someone's friend, seeing my photo, said precisely that: "Oh look! A gremlin!" (It was later explained to me they use that term to describe someone cute, but cute in a weird way.)

Well, happy birthday to meeee P:

Alright. A mess. LoL

A couple of brief updates. More thorough ones - tomorrow or the day after.

- I HATE summer. However, this one tends not to be so bad at all. Yeah, I can't afford going on vacation, and I'm still without a job, but... Today I've bought a ticket for the Exit festival. And will also get my Green Fest ticket till the end of the week. (Green Fest is Exit&Tuborg's one day event this year featuring The Raveonettes, Franz Ferdinand and Cypress Hill) So, I'm fine till the middle of July. And then, we'll see.

- Saw Sex and the city: the movie. Well... Could've been great. However, they've squeezed all the notorious cliches in the last fifteen minutes. C'moooon!

- Gonna go to Cinema City as soon as I manage to get some sleep. x)

- My spine went nuts... Well, my back is... don't know the word... Whatevah. It hurts like hell. Even when I breathe. So I'm on painkillers...

- And I hope I won't run out of them. x) Tomorrow having an exam AND a casting for Star Academy!!! Yeah, why should I panic? Will have to carry the keyboard to the University if I want to manage to get to the casting on time. And also that stressful tomorrow is... my birthday. :S Wee.

- Planning a post about my beloved backpack which has commited suicide during the last movement.
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