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Yeah, another blog and the Quarter-life crisis

Friday, 15. August 2008, 13:27:46

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This post is a semi-translated copy/paste from my other blog.

The deal is, at the beggining of this summer, I've started another blog, in Serbian. Decided that this one should take a summer break. The Serbian blog was originally at myexit.org, and the goal of its existence was to let me collect and organize my thoughts and to emmit all the negativity.

However, I was hacked. Big time. Lost my Myspace & Facebook accounts, MSN, two Google accounts etc etc etc. Lost some important data as well. And loads of passwords. So, apparently, I had to move the Serbian blog, since I am now unable to log to that account. And since I've totally got used to blogging at MyOpera, the choice was logical. For all of you that understand Serbian, the blog is here.

Still messed up about the whole hacking-thing. Like it wasn't enough to suffer from Quarter-life crisis, lol! No, really, found about it recently, and hell yeah, I think I can recognize the simptoms. x)))


Finally found something to blame for everything that goes on in my head!!

What's the use waiting for the mid-life crisis?

Characteristics of quarter-life crisis may include:

feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at one's academic/intellectual level
frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career
confusion of identity
insecurity regarding the near future
insecurity concerning long-term plans, life goals
insecurity regarding present accomplishments
re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships (all the time)
disappointment with one's job
nostalgia for university, college, high school or elementary school life (always)
tendency to hold stronger opinions
boredom with social interactions
loss of closeness to high school and college friends (I even looked forward to it)
financially-rooted stress (overwhelming college loans, unanticipatedly high cost of living, etc.)
loneliness
desire to have children (OH GOD NO!!!)
a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you



Wikipedia article:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

And there are also sites about it, support groups, etc... Massive!!






And before I go, I've got to say THANK YOU to MyOpera Community Support, for helping me in renewing my password. That's the way to keep a blogger. :wink:

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Happy Birthday To Me

Tuesday, 17. June 2008, 20:00:00

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So, if you're reading this, know that this is the post written one day earlier and scheduled to appear at the exact time of my birth. So, 17th of June, 9pm.

On 16th of June, 21 years ago, my mother was sitting in the tavern called Venice, at the quay of Zemun. And then, a month or two earlier than anyone expected, the labout pains have started.

I was born upside-down, after 23 hours (!!!) of enormous efforts by the doctors... and my mom, of course.

For months before my birth, and quite some time after that, my mother refered to me as The Gremlin.

Oddly enough, a few days ago, my special someone's friend, seeing my photo, said precisely that: "Oh look! A gremlin!" (It was later explained to me they use that term to describe someone cute, but cute in a weird way.)

Well, happy birthday to meeee P:

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Good morning

Sunday, 9. March 2008, 07:10:09

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7:51 am here. Awake since 6am. I've sleapt only for five hours or so.
In a manic high since last Saturday.
Packing. Going to Belgrade - to a SUS meeting, and tomorrow gonna see some friends and go to the bank (again).
Also, had a job interview yesterday... Well, actually, a casting. Think I've done fine. Gonna have the final info till Friday.
Gonna work at a hairdressing fair/seminar in two weeks.

The "doing something for myself" can be pretty exhausting. It varies from cleaning the whole flat up from cooking to trying to gain some weith... and also, I'm getting involved in various kinds of work and various projects and... well, at least I have no time to get depressed. However, I do need a decent sleep.

Seems like things are getting in place... finally. Or not. Hm.

My very best (bestest, lol) friend, Ivana, the only constant person in my life since 2003, has disappeared... Her cell is out of reach for ten days now, her flatmates have no idea where she is... the last thing I know is that she and her boyfriend broke up. No, I'm not fearing of anything bad, but... It's just... weird. Maybe she needs some space. But yet, she had never disappeared like that before. And I feel a bit weird, trying to get used to her not being, well, present all the time.

Well, other than that, things are going fine. So fine I simply know that something utterly bad is going to happen :wink: Just for a change.

8:08 am now.

Ohkay.

Need to pack. And wash the dishes. And make my bed. And... oh, I'm never gonna manage all of that. I've got only 80minutes...

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Not a bad day... Not at all, actually x)

Saturday, 1. March 2008, 18:42:53

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Yeah, the week we're slowly leaving behind was pretty lousy. I was ill and broke, utterly bored and depressed. However, this day was cool.


Yeah, I hate when the rain starts and I'm outside, wearing my glasses. And yes, I despise umbrellas (although there was a period when I used to carry my umbrella everywhere, just in case). And when the glasses get completely wet and I have to put them away, I go around in a bat-kind-of way. That's what I hate even more. By the way, I love rain itself x) And the weather was, well, too hot for February, so it made a great setting for taking a walk.

Well, actually, I went for a walk in order to do what I usually do when feeling fine - to shop groceries! At this store, to be precise. Ok, this sounded lame. Well, first of all, when happy, I eat like a pig. Plus, I get creative with food. But, even more important, I ADORE hanging around in the grocery store! I usually find all the stuff I need very quickly (btw, I love choosing onions and I sometimes get very meticulous about it) and then just walk around, listening to the people. Or observing them, but that wasn't the case today since my glasses were too wet, lol. It's interesting, maybe I should write a study about types of shoppers. Plus, there are different accents and stuff, and people of different age using different number of plastic bags x) Ok, I'll cut it out. x))

In front of the supermarket, saw a nice lady selling farm products in the rain which was becoming, well, more and more serious about itself. I stopped to buy some eggs. However, two of them cracked when I got home. Poured them out in a bowl and mixed with some sugar till I got the delicious foam x)

Outside, the storm began. So the afternoon was peaceful (except of the thunder outside) and TV oriented.

Having a job interview next Saturday. Hopefully. I want to use these seven days to, well, get myself in order. That's like, to start sleeping at night, to start shaving regularly, maybe I'll do something about my hair or whatever...

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Sneezing

Wednesday, 27. February 2008, 11:22:58

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They say every aptchoo is a little orgasm. Oh my, I think I've reached my quota fot this year already. :D




Haven't gone to college today. Too ill. Jobless, moneyless. Made myself send my cv and cover letter to a firm.
Bored. Nostaligic. Apathetic.

Great weather outside. On Monday, we had 24*C. Too early. Too hot.

Yseterday, my friend Bojana (yeah, Bojan and Bojana, catchy) brought me some delicious, creamy, raspberry cake with chunks of chocolate. Yummy.

My doorlock isn't really working.




The song I've been listening over and over again...


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Just thoughts...

Thursday, 21. February 2008, 18:00:00

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Ohkay, now, maybe too much politics in this post.


Yeah, I can't make myself write anything here these days. Maybe I'm just too tired. Mostly eating, watching news and... well, eating? Apart from going to the uni...

Eating. Yeah. Started doing that again about a week ago. People say I've already gained some weight. Well, ok. Better than being anorexic, I agree.

Tired. Too much thinkin. Went to Belgrade on Sunday, for a brainstorming about my Internet radio project. Getting complicated. I'm also tired of the whole Kosovo story... I can't really understand the poor memory Serbs, as a nation, have. Guess some people will never learn. On Sunday, posted a bulletin at MySpace, saying Urime paraversia, which is Happy Independance on Albanian. x) Tired of arguing with people. Also tired of 12-year-olds talking politics! :yikes: Now that really pisses me off. The kids are just too uniformed - but oh well, I guess it seems good to them, talking big words. Big words arranged in really improsperous attitudes.

I'm also sick of the fools fighting for Kosovo by demolishing Belgrade and other cities. For God's sake! Yeah, everything is enemy these days. International companies and shopping malls. McDonalds'. Here, today at five pm there was, let's quote the officials: A protest rally against the unilateral declaration of Kosovo's independence. Now, after all the crap happening these days, this protest was supported by the most of the politicians and aimed to be peaceful. Watching the B92 News... They've just reported that the hulligans are ruining the American embassy. Oh crap. Now the image will be even worse.

Meanwhile, the B92 network has been receiveing threats. There are even videos calling to kill (!) some of their journalists. I really can't believe this shit...

I've started to write about my attitude about Kosovo and its independence, but I'll stop here. If you have something to ask me, I won't mind answering. Let's put it this way, if they wanted to keep Kosovo in Serbia, they should've thought (and done) something about it at least ten, twenty years ago... And I totally support the independance thing now. Can't live in the past. However, our goverment is sometimes too ignorant...

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