Thursday, 3. September 2009, 17:13:44
Hearts should be stronger
Stronger than pride at least
But until that day comes I will leave this rose
And as petals fall, you might think I have stumbled
If that makes you happy, believe it to be true
Imagine me as the forgotten debris washed into lifeless gutters
I have moved on
So quickly
A shock to me
I know now that it's for the best
I know now that I can still laugh
More now than ever
Thursday, 3. September 2009, 17:12:16
Snap your fingers and I will fall in love
Stomp your feet and I will spill my blood
Hold me and I will drive you mad
Can you see it? the air is thick tonight
Hanging heavy above us, this is our sign
Let's take this drug and close our eyes
I don't won't us to realize
This could be love
Or just a second chance
Maybe I shouldn't be so worried which exit I take
And just figure out how to take you with me
Are you willing to go down with me
That might be all I ever needed
Better half may not be just a figure of speech
But a figure
A monument to the one thing this world could be proud of
And to stubborn to share
Another night like this and I will kiss you
You probably won't like it but you will know my sincerity is worth more
Then my inexperienced lips
I hope you will go down with me
Whether it be in history or flames
This could be the greatest thing
We could be bigger
We could lead a million hearts over the edge
Thursday, 3. September 2009, 17:10:24
I drove around last night
Just needed a break from my new norm
This is the night before thanksgiving
And for once I am comfortable enough to say thanks to those who have given me a laugh
But tonight I am alone and walking into a generic bar
I see a pack of men
Mid 50s
Thankful to have this time away from their families
I can't be one of these guys
Not this early
Hopefully never
About face
Back into my car
I head south
I want to smell the cold heavy air as it smacks the face of the james
I smoke a cigarette at the edge of the river
The moon shines just enough light to give a glimpse of a few rocks
Trying their hardest to stop the water
I'm sure they gave up long ago
And are now content with slowly being chiseled by the soft hands of the east bound river
I should head west
See how far a full tank will take me
I should go home
I should do my dreaming between warm sheets
And find a force
That will strip away from me
This rock
Contentment could lie within me
Thursday, 3. September 2009, 17:08:37
I can't believe how long it's been
Since I last saw those lips
It could have been the drinks
Or maybe it was her
My stomach was in knots
Drunk with nervousness
My hands dripped salt into my shallow pockets
As I tried my hardest to look her in the eyes
There is hope
For me
In each brief laugh that she throws my way
I wish I had what it took
To just tell her that she is beautiful
To bring her a world
Saturated with candlelight
I long for steady hands
Ones that have the patience to draw her out in detail
Every subtle part of her perfection would tear through the page
Thursday, 3. September 2009, 17:05:44
It's nights like these that I wished you loved me
It is so soon
But you make me smile
I can't remember the last time I laughed
Without a reason to hate me
I would call you perfect
I know I am flawed
How could you except what I consider an abomination
I wish you wouldn't make me laugh so hard
I wish you
Would see that I wasn't good enough
It's not as if I see failure as a blanket
I just wish you would smother me
No need for a mask
You are more than routine
More than my first breathe
Can I ask you at this early stage?
Could you love me
Will my questions scare you away?
Thursday, 3. September 2009, 16:55:14
I shouldn't have lead myself this far
I found something that I am willing to die for
Water that I can breathe
I shouldn't have expected this to be more than a great start
I can see this to its end
I might not want to
I'm not sure if you'll be there
I know laughs can be endless
Even as our hearts break
I just don't know if I can or if I have given you a thing in return
I can't ask
I can't assume
But I am willing to wait
It's what I have been doing my whole life
I was seconds away from giving in
Until that sleepless night
It all just came to easy
Of course the rest hasn't been so simple
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