Tuesday, 23. October 2007, 14:32:15
It's been two and a half years since I started work at my new job and now the time to move has finally arrived.
Some months back, February to be precise, I went on a vacation to the Andaman and Nicobar islands with the express intent of learning how to scuba dive. I had fun. For the first time in a long time I felt connected with my surroundings, at ease with the place. Happy.
This was something that I could picture myself doing for a while. Scuba dive.
And so I asked.
'Do you guys, by any chance, require scuba dive instructors?', all the while trying to make it sound like a casual question. Put it out there and if rejected everyone forgets about it and moves on.
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YES'
And so for the next few hours the man who would potentially be my boss and I discussed all the options available to me, exchanged contact details with the promise to follow up once I'd made my mind.
In all honesty, from a selfish standpoint i.e. mine, I'd already decided.
There were however other things to consider.
How would my family take it? What happens if it didn't work out? Was this a big mistake?
I agonised for days over how I would justify taking up the job. The answer when it came was overwhelming. Emotionally. For the longest time I would always wish I could do something that was of my choice and now, here right in front of me was an opportunity of the likes I had always dreamed of. The choice was simple. I wouldn't be doing it because everyone near and dear approved. I would be doing it because I wanted to. Every selfish bone in my body wanted it.
It is in moments of realisation like this that the true meaning of being free becomes evident. A huge weight had been lifted of my shoulders. Doubt is a heavy burden to carry. I had finally found something I wanted to do and I was going to do it.
I cried. For two long hours that morning. On the way to breakfast. At breakfast. The man at the next table must have thought I was mad. I cried after breakfast and on the way home but they weren't tears of sadness or loss. They were tears of relief.
Everything else fell into place rather easily. I called and confirmed that I was interested. Terms of employment were sorted out over a few e-mails and then it was down to waiting till the time to join was near.
I leave for work on the 28th of October.
There have been the inevitable questions from those members of family I have informed. What career do you expect to make out of it? What salary will you take home? These were inevitable. To some it was like telling them I was off to work in the porn business. People knew what I would be doing, but failed to understand why I chose to do it. Money was never the issue. Satisfaction is. I want to wake up each day looking forward to work not dreading the very thought of it. I want work that makes me happy to be doing it.
There are no guarantees of success. Who knows if boredom will strike? This line of work is no picnic either. In an alien element you are subject to a very different set of laws. People can get hurt. Egos to be managed. Possibility of equipment failure. Stupidity. The elements.
Keeping all this in mind, I have no regrets over my choice. To not have taken this chance would have meant regretting it for a long time after that. The 'what-ifs' do not appeal to me. To have tried and known something is.
So this is my last post for a while till I get to the island of Havelock and set up base. Connectivity to the outside world is limited so I have no way of knowing when my next post will happen.
Till then....wish me luck!!!
One last thing. If, by some random act of chance, anyone who reads this blog lands up in Havelock, come over to
DIVEIndia and ask for Sayeed.

With luck, we shall meet up.