Saysame (Says-a-me)

’09 June 22, The old rules do not apply; they only apply to those that believe them to be their truth. I had a flash of Lucifer and the psychopathic killer creating another universe and destroying it and then Lucifer crossing back into this universe, pretending he was the 13th Archangel when really he is a differentiated aspect of God wanting to be God in this universe and all of creation.

Although love is something that we feel, the problem is that we have been told what is and isn't love or loving regardless of how it feels, and to deny our feelings and to go on what we have been taught. We think we know what love is and we even consider ourselves to be loving and even unconditionally loving. Because we don't know what love is, we also don't know what denial is in all its subtle and unseen roles, nor do we see the role that guilt and shame have in our lives and how guilt has been put in the place where love should be.

If you are a feeling an emotional person than affirmations and having a positive attitude will not help you as you are in denial of what you're really feeling and that is the part of your essence. If however, you are a spirit polarity person or a denial spirit, then affirmations and positive thinking will help you as they allow you to change your beliefs that create your reality, and because there is nothing magnetic to draw any other feelings and emotions to you, and so you are successful and in control of your life and life is good. This is also where the term survival of the fittest applies.

What God, Spirit, did to his Will unconsciously, the Angels did with conscious intent. The denial spirits, the Angels, had conscious intent to manifest without their Wills. Denial spirits need to feed off of the denials of Will spirits as they need that magnetic Will energy to keep them alive. They feel good when they are in control of others and when they aren't in control then they rage aggressively or passively aggressive to get whatever they want which is for the Will polarity spirit to deny themselves, as it is by denial that the Will polarity Spirit gives their power away.

JR

'09 June As I was editing my third book I noticed a channeled message on fragmentation and differentiation that I never finished channeling and it left me wondering why. Here is the original message:

Note: For those of you not familiar with the Right Use of Will (RUOW) material, this post may not make sense to you


’00 July 10 Indeed what you are experiencing now is feelings of differentiation and fragmentation. Differentiation is also linked to attack, but not in the same way as it is to fragmentation and expression, as we will discuss later. The prime directive, so to speak of differentiation is to attack, it is its nature, its essence, as it is the unloving energy of Lucifer and of the psychopathic killer. Its means of expression, of communication, of what it wants is through attack, conscious through Lucifer and unconscious through the psychopathic killer. Now the words and methods used by differentiation and attack and fragmentation and expression can be the same, but it is the feeling of the words, of the expression that is different, but there is more. You also need to move out unloving light (differentiation) before you can truly get to fragmentation and its expression.

Even with your word definition of differentiation there is confusion for you. In your linear mind you consider everything different as individual, even if they look exactly the same, the one that is held in the left hand is different from the one held in the right hand or else if they were the same there would only have to be one. The difference we are trying to express is the difference in feeling and we are not talking your physical feeling senses of hot or cold, etc. we are talking of your Will and how it feels to her, is it loving or unloving? That is the key to be able to bring separation to differentiation and fragmentation, by allowing the Will its expression including its feeling of being attacked even when there is nothing evident or when there is denial of attacking. This goes back to original cause and is at the crux of the long standing, long suffering problems in creation, in this free Will universe where the Will feels trapped.

There is loving light and there is unloving light, they may look and sound the same but they don’t feel the same, for they are not the same. And what is happening now is that there is going to be separation of this differentiation, which I first thought was fragmentation, a piece of myself and in a true linear sense it appears it is but when felt it is not. By analogy……….. (end of channeled message)

R.U.O.W. Differentiation references: Yellow book "Heart Song" page 161, 188, rage page 160

JR

’08 Nov 03 4:30 am I had this dream that there was a huge werewolf head (Lucifer) that was going around and stalking and devouring people. Once he had his sights on you there was no escape and once he caught you, he tormented you as he got a charge, energized by feeding off your terror, with you knowing what he was going to do to you and not being able to escape.

There was another demon with him that went around searching for victims and he even talked to them, again to instill terror, preparing them for Lucifer. This demon reminded me of a Lon Chaney character Lucifer was only this huge wolf head and neck (body and legs cut off) that was the size of a grizzly bear, but with no body or legs. He moved, or rather shuffled like a walrus, and as he moved, he left a slimy trail of blood as he lifted his head and moved his neck like a sea walrus, except that he was much faster than a walrus.

I knew that the only escape was to be grounded, by that I mean that I had to have a copper wire wrapped around my shoulders, stuffed down my shirt and pants and running down into my socks to the bottom of my feet so that I could connect to the Earth.

When Lucifer caught up to me and was going to attack and eat me, he touched the copper wire and exploded into hundreds of small pieces, scattering in all directions. His assistant said that while I had defeated him this time, he would be back, and that the next time, there would be more than one and that I just delayed the inevitable. I woke up.

Another thing that I almost forgot was that when he ate people, all that was left of them was the bare bones and sometimes, he ate so many in the same place that the bones would be scattered all over and all mixed up.

JR

’08 Sept 20 5:55 am 7:04 am

"Changing others is Lucifer’s plan, changing self is Gods plan"

Changing others by getting them to deny and not express who they really are and what they desire is how Lucifer gains power and control over others. He doesn’t have the power, but by denial (by default) we perceive that Lucifer has more power, but in effect, we are just denying our true power because we have this denied expectation and fear of failing imprint, that cuts us off from being totally present and in the moment. And because we are in denial, we are trying to fight Lucifer on his ground and his terms, rules and conditions, etc. that he can change at any time and so we are stuck and become the looser as denial of love is not our essence, nor our source of power. But denial of love (heartlessness) is what Lucifer is, and his power is feeding off of the denials of love essence.

JR

’08 Aug 30 3:50 am Although I’m just becoming aware of these thought form attachments and thought forms and how huge this really is, it really hasn’t sunk in. I think that I’m in shock at the realization and just how big and powerful it is, yet has gone unnoticed it is as it silently drifts from one person to the next, like neuron transmitters in the brain, transferring information and controlling us at the same time. Keeping us is a state of suspended animation, asleep, slumbering, and we call this dream like state life when in reality it’s just the opposite. This life is a dream, in that we as humanity are not living to our true potential but are rather living according to these subliminal thought forms that have so imprinted and programmed us that we believe them to be real and a normal part of living and life as they have been here for what seems like eternity.

This goes way back, and I don’t mean to our present recorded history, I mean back to Atlantis, Lumeria, and all the way back to Pan. Hummm? Back to Pan, Pangaea, back to the father warriors that said they were here to protect us and then, after the war in the Heavens, with the arrival of Lucifer (the Dark Wizard) and his band of denial Spirits, the fallen Angels. Since then, we, as humanity have been slowly losing not only our consciousness, but our powers because these subliminal thought forms of energy have attached themselves and have imprinted us into this unseen role of denial that has been playing out in our reality ever since.

R.U.O.W Book1 “Right Use of Will” Page 70 where the father Warriors invade earth to offer protection and then on page 74 where Lucifer, (the dark Wizard) brings death and the killing and eating of each other.

’08 Aug 30 4:02 am I just though that having to eat to live is another mass conscious belief and thought form that we all have in common, that we have to kill animals and plants in order to be able to live. In R.U.O.W this eating others goes back to Pan with Lucifer and his band of gangles (gang angels) where he convinced the original Spirits that never killed or ate another, that eating another was normal in the universe where he had come from.

Survival of the fittest is another mass conscious thought form where only the strong survive. Hidden in that thought form is the belief that feelings and emotions are to be controlled and suppressed and as showing any sign of feelings or emotions is showing ones weakness, and therefore, one is not strong and will not thrive or survive.

Having to work is another mass conscious thought form and yet another is working for a cause, for the good of all. In other words, the individual is part of the collective consciousness, and it’s the collective consciousness that is important, while the individual is expendable. The hidden message is one of self-sacrifice for the common good and the soldiers battle cry in wars.

Conflict and war is yet another thought form created by our duality as any different point-of-view is seen as being wrong, and being wrong, it must be set right, and if the person doesn’t volunteer to change, then the only way to convince them is to overpower them physically, mentally and emotionally so that there is no conflict, but blind obedience, respect, loyalty, discipline and law and order. If we all follow the same rules and laws, then there will be no conflict, EXCEPT of course, those that are in a position of power can and do make EXCEPTIONS that involve them or their kind.

JR

’08 July 25 I’ve been working on re-writing the part of my book dealing with the inner and outer child and of fragmentation and I’ve gotten some new insights on how the Will (intuition, knowing, feelings and emotions) have been denied. The first split in consciousness was when the Wills’ feelings and emotions were denied and that created the inner child. Then when the Will’s was struck again, it hit at the intuition and knowing aspects of the Will, and that created another split in consciousness, that was off of the inner child aspect. This then created what I call the “outer” child and a loss in consciousness, lost Will.

I could also feel how the Divine Will (the Mother) was also struck two times, first by the psychopathic killer and then by Lucifer. The psychopathic killer wanted to get rid of feelings and emotions while Lucifer wanted to get rid of, or control the Will and its (intuition and knowing) as that is the only thing that can tell the mind if something is really loving or not.

JR

’08 May 13 Last night there was a TV program on the Discovery channel about how archeologists have discovered different cultures all over the world that date back to tens of thousands of years. They also stated that when the land was stripped of it natural recourses by the roaming tribes, that it appears that they changed from being nomads to being farmers and herders. Instead of constantly traveling and foraging for food, they settled down and began to grow plants and confine animals for food.

While this provided them with food, shelter and clothing, it really didn’t provide any growth in other areas as they were too busy tending to their survival. However this social order and structure changed when man started go use animals as beasts of burned and to also enslave other men to do the manual labor of tending to the basics of necessity, leaving the controllers, the power and luxury to explore other things. This was the beginning of what was to become known as the dawn of civilization or as I see it, the dawn of the enslavement of mankind.

While that TV program scenario took us to the beginnings of the present civilized world and the creation of the haves and the have-nots and the issues of abundance, it didn’t address anything beyond our present civilization, to Atlantis and beyond that to Lumeria and beyond that to Pangea (the land of Pan). Nor did it address the issue of why we have to kill and eat things in the first place.

I know that in the R.U.O.W. book #1 Right Use of Will Page 61 it states how Pan was like a fairy tale world when it first appeared on Earth and that manifesting was simply a matter of desire and intent and that there was no killing or death. (Page 74) However, that was all to change after the war in the Heavens, with the arrival of the dark wizard, Lucifer, and his denial Spirits. With his arrival came fighting, killing, death and the eating of other essences. As time went by, because of the denials present, death was also used to break off from the experience and essence that was undesired and then to reincarnate in an attempt to reclaim the lost essence.

I don’t know where this is all going but I feel that each piece is a piece of the puzzle and that eventually, it will all make sense.

JR

'07 Aept 08 7:30 p.m. I’ve been thinking about the Psychopathic Killer and Lucifer and in R.U.O.W it mentions the Psychopathic Killer as a hot dry wind and there’s also mention of a cold damp wind. What if, this Psychopathic Killer is both? Would that would be his polarity opposite? So then, what I’ve been putting down and crediting to Lucifer as this hot pressure is actually another manifestation of the Psychopathic Killer in the Human body.

Lucifer is just the player, he has his… what’s the word.. attributes, but he is also far more solicited and mentally developed and his forte and Modus operandi is control and manipulation of consciousness, not the killing it, unless killing serves his needs.

Ok, this is all getting complicated and confusing. If that is the truth, then I’m confused as to the Kundalini energy in our body as it’s also hot and cold, yin and Yang. Then there's also the question of spontaneous combustion that destroys most of the Human body yet leaves surrounding material relatively untouched, So what goes on with that? How does all this fit together? More questions, no answers.. yet.

Humm? I just realized something profound. I’m surprised I never caught this before. I’ve know for years that shock from a traumatic experience can cause fragmentation, but I just realized, it just clicked in me, that while both the Psychopathic Killer and Lucifer are fragments of Spirit, they weren’t fragmentized as the result of a Spirit having a shocking experience, but they were fragmented out by unloving intent by Spirit Now after they struck, the Will, Heart and Body, they were repelled by the Will, and they rolled back over Spirit who was then shocked and imprinted and also fragmented further parts of himself.

So then. That means that “unloving intent” has the power to fragment and send out unloving denial Spirits. Wow! This is BIG! Unloving intent is present whenever denial in any form is present. So that basically means that everything and everyone is fragmented and fragments of fragments.

3:41 p.m. The Hot dry wind is also a fever trying to dry a person up from the inside out. Fever is an imbalance in the body. It’s the body’s way of …. Hummm? What I was about to say is that it’s the body that creates the excess heat, when I felt that its actually the body trying to get rid of the energy that is creating the excess heat. Something is attacking the Body and there’s a battle going on inside on a microscopic and Spiritual level.
JR

'07 Sept 06 1:43 a.m. It’s the same energy I felt around me as a child and other times when I felt that my life was being threatened or that I was going to be attacked in some way. I could feel the cold shivers crawl up and down my flesh and make all the hair on my body stand on end, especially at the back of my neck.

It’s also the energy of Lucifer and his cronnies and this Psychopathic Killer that had me believe that my powers were evil and wrong becasue when I felt them, bad things always happened to me. And so I tried to deny them as I didn’t want to be evil or have anything to do with something that was evil according to my Mothers Catholic beliefs.

I release the imprint, program and belief that my powers are evil. That they can identify evil, doesn’t make them evil or bad expect of course to evil that doesn't want to be exposed becasue I can now feel, smell, hear but I have yet to see. That gift of inner sight, visions, pre-cognition is one of the gifts that I denied most heavily as I believed that out of sight was out of mind. I release that imprint, program and belief and I ask that love, light and life fill those spaces previously occupied by these imprints and unloving light. I also ask for help in restoring all my powers, gifts and talents.

1:53 a.m. I’m still drinking a lot of water and I had to go to the bathroom again and I felt that he was around me. I also remembered as a child how he and Lucifer and his cronies would wait until I was returning to my room and bed before they’d attack me and literally scare me so that wouldn’t want to leave. Back then, I could see them and I had this twisted belief that if I didn’t move, that they wouldn’t see me and find me or try to attack me.

I just walked back to the bedroom and although I could feel it’s presence, there was no re-action to it from my body, that imprint is now gone too.

2:00 p.m. It’s my intent to move all Psychopathic Killer and Luciferian light out and off of me and to recover and heal all lost parts of me that I have denied and have allowed to be enslaved to their energy. I want no part of me that seeks, love, light and life to not be allowed to have it. I find it interesting that as I move out these imprints, programs and beliefs that I feel more empowered and I feel loved. I can feel love, light and life entering my Body. It still has a long way to go, but I can feel that progress is being made.

JR

'07 May 25

Conflict and fragmentation - and the unssen role of denial in Original Cause

In the Christian religion, the common belief is that Lucifer is considered an evil entity, a thorn in the side of God and one that brings pain and suffering to the world and he is also associated with hell, a place where the un-righteous and un-saved will end up to suffer their just reward when they die.

Lucifer is .. (what’s the words I’m feeling?) not a real manifested Spirit, he’s a fragment, a piece of God’s light. Lucifer is a reflection of Gods own unlovingness to himself, to the other parts of his being. Lucifer could not have fragmented out of Gods essence and been brought into existence if God was aware of his own unloving intentions. Lucifer just didn’t “happen” out of the Blue. It took some special form of energy to enable that aspect of God to dislodge itself and attack and control, what it did not like and what was not in agreement with Gods original desire and state of bliss.

Ahhhhh! There are two ways in which fragmentation occurs. It’s almost simultaneously, but we are dealing with two different aspects because if you only had one aspect there would be nothing else to relate to except the self, there would be no differentiation.

God created the fragment that was to eventually become Lucifer, in his moment of unlovingness when he unconsciously sent energy out to stop and control whatever was disturbing his reverie or bliss, which in this case was his own feminine said , the Will or Mother. This was not a conscious intent as real consciousness and understanding was not yet present during this original creation and original cause. Body was also involved here as Form otherwise this could not have been created. There was also Heart presence, but none was present when heartlessness went out as the fragment (Lucifer) that attacked the Will, feminine, the feeling and intuitive aspect of the creator. The only part of the Will that was accepted, was the “feel good” aspect that he (creator) wanted to continue to feel.. All the rest of the Will was denied and sent into, (what is called in R.U.O.W.) Lost Will, Will that has never known love.

This concept I’m getting is really fragile and I’m trying to hang on to the pieces as I’m writing. On the other hand, The Will fragmented when she allowed herself to be open to receive what was being sent at her. Her desire was for a mate, a companion of loving light but what she got was unloving light in the form of the denied rage fragment that was to soon become Lucifer. When it struck the Will, part of this denied rage light penetrated the Will essence and either Killed or damaged it. It also sent damaged parts out as fragments. In an effort to save herself, the Will, that was moving toward this unloving light, now has to close herself and to do that, she also had to stop, turn and reverse her energy back into herself. This experience created fragmentation and imprinted and programmed the Will and her Heart and Body that was subjected to this experience.

The part of this unloving light that didn’t penetrate the Will, when the Will closed herself, was reflected back (reversed polarity) to the source where it struck and rolled over God and what didn’t penetrate and imprint him, continued to move on out into space to become what was later to be known as Lucifer, with his own light, consciousness and agenda, based on these original imprints. Lucifer was the second strike on the Will, the Psychopathic Killer was the first rage fragment whose imprints and programs is not to control the Will, but to kill and destroy her by any means possible. (death)

So that means that unloving energy being sent out in denial creates an unloving rage fragment and loving energy receiving this unloving energy and denying itself, creates Lost Will fragments. Both fragments, while being part of the original essence…. are not THE parental essence that has remained intact from the original source experience.

I’ll try to explain what I felt in another way. It’s like taking an apple and every piece you cut away is a fragment of the apple, it’s a part of the parent, of the original, but it’s not “the” parental part of the apple. It’s a part of, or a piece of the whole.

Conflict and fragmentation go together, because as long as you have conflict, you have fragmentation and as long as you have fragmentation, you have conflict. One is unloving energy attacking loving energy and the other is caused by loving energy having to receive what it does not want or desire by either being over-powered, or by free will and choosing to allow itself to be overpowered and in accepting this unloving energy into itself along with it’s own unloving denial energy. In the process, it also creates fragments that unloving energy can then feed off of.

Conflict is running on old imprints, programs and beliefs, and denial, guilt and shame are the tools that create more conflict and more fragmentation. Ending denials and letting go of guilt and shame will end conflict and fragmentation at the source, within us, as well, it will also re-claim those parts that were fragmented by similar past experiences. When the power of love is really shown for what it is, when denial is ended and guilt and shame are removed, conflict is not drawn to us as we have moved the old charge and released the imprints, programs and beliefs that drew it into our reality.

One important note is that the over-powering of free Will is no longer an option. We all have choice and free Will, but we must really free our Will, in order to not be over-powered by unloving light. Any form of denial, is over-powering the self and that opens the door to be over-powered by others in our outer reality.

JR

Thursday, 19 January 2007

It was another interesting, to say the least, early morning as I wrote over ten pages in my journal. I was getting insights into God, and the origins of Lucifer and the Psychopathic Killer, as related to fragmentation, attachments and polarity. How they are of the same essence, but yet how they are completely different, opposite in polarity. I was also tapping into God awakening into consciousness, and how “it” discovered himself and then differentiated, to experience form and his feminine polarity opposite. There were also insights on Heart and Body, as well as insights on singularity and the event horizon, black and white holes, magnetism, polarity, and the Fibonacci curve as it applies to creation. There was also insights on consciousness seeking to be free and expand and consciousness seeking to control and compress and there was the concept of separation, yet there being no separation. Other topics were Imprinting as it related to Original Cause and creation was another important topic, as was about the path of least resistance.

R.U.O.W. came up over and over again and I got the feeling of being overwhelmed. That all this is so new and huge and that I’m just beginning. I saw an analogy of what I'm experiencing as I flashed back in 1966 and studying electronics at DeVry Tech. At that time, transistors were just coming into the market and you could buy small portable radios and tape recorders using this new technology. Look where technology is now! Some of the stuff that is common place now, wasn't even thought of, or even thought possible back then… That's kind of how I feel now.

As I was feeling all this I head a soft voice of Astrid, my spirit guide, reassuring me when she said. ”Start with a step, then take another. It’s all about the journey, not the destination, there is no destination.”

Again, I’m going to post some photos as “food for thought” JR


I choose this "artist concept" picture on the left as it show a link or portal to the "other" side of the universe. The picture on the right is another version of the Fibonacci curve, only in reverse to how this universe is expanding. While on one side of the universe the curve is going in a clockwise rotation, while on the other of the same universe, it's going in a counter clockwise rotation. (Think of the hands on the face of a clock on a piece of glass and then look at it from the front and then from the back.)

Pictured here is the Fibonacci curve,(numbers) Nautalis and two omphalos. These are examples of creation evolving and expanding. As noted above, it can also be used in reverse, to compress.






The last three pictures are of magnets. The one on the right shows that while the magnet has opposite poles, (N) and (S) (polarity) they are also aligned and in harmony. The energy fields are attracting each other and flows from one pole to the other without conflict.

The picture on the bottom right, shows two different magnets and again the poles (N) and (S) are again they are aligned and the energy or force field is unified and is flowing between them...

The picture on the bottom left again shows two different magnets but now where one magnet has revered it's polarity and we now have a (N) pole facing a (N) pole. Now we see conflict and repulsion, not attraction, as the force fields are repelling each other.