Saysame (Says-a-me)

’09 Oct 17 4:28 am I awoke from a dream, wondering what was going on, what was the cause of my loss of memory. My first conscious thought was that I recently bought a new brand of Multi-vitamins and Echinacea tablets and I started taking them three days ago, and that it was these pills that were destroying my memory in the dream I was having.

How it worked in my dream was that in the instant that I remembered something, that memory was erased. In the dream I was remembering things about the Nazis in the Second World War, and just as I remember something, the memory faded and was gone. I searched my mind for any trace of that memory but there was nothing to find, I was blank. It was, no it is, a weird feeling and I don’t know if it was a dream or reality as now that I’m writing this in my journal I feel confused and empty, like a part of me, a part of my life is missing. Maybe I’m just sleepy and tired and can’t remember, but as I now scan for memories of the Second World War, each memory that comes to mind is erased just like what happened in my dream. When I realize that I have lost that memory/thought, I’m suddenly left blank. I’d try to remember what I just remembered but it’s all gone. I sure hope this is all part of my dream.

JR