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October 2009

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Sittin' in Shaine. Avoiding work..... / Let's talk about culture!! =D



I should REALLLLLy go see Pies and pick up that color sensor......But he's prolly out to lunch, anyways.... P:

So! college!?

It's okay.

I mean, ther are parts I love and parts I hate.

The classes are wickked interesting, but the work is TOO MUCH. Just flat-out TOO MUCH. As the TA's say: "they're trying to make us break and fail". FML.

Friends? I have some pretty cool friends.

College is kinda cliques-times-a-million. Once again, I'm in the random one.....

I mean- I'm an American girl of Lebanese/Italian/Armenian descent, so OBVIOUSLY I fit right in with the Chinese, HK, and Korean students, espicially the smart boys, right?....ROFLMAOOOO!!!!

And that soudsn kidna racist, but I do not mean it that way.

I have two friends, Waih and Sven.

Waih is Chinese; he moved to New York like two years ago.

Sven is Korean; he lived in the US his whole life.

I prolly hang out with those two the msot, and we have been discussing this kind of stuff.

The first time Waih met me he asked me what I was and I said, "Uuh, American?" And he just said, straight-faced, "Oh. American girl minority." He is always wickked serious!! I was kinda taken aback. I did not really get what he meant.

Later, when I was talking to both him and Sven he asked me if I felt like I fit in with any of the groups. I thought it was a weird question. But then I thought about it:

All of my classes are mainly boys. And the majority of the kids are either Chinese or Korean. So it kidna is true. Often it is easier for the people to talk in their main languages, so they tend to speak to each other like that.

Sven said that's not true; they do it as a defense mechanism. He says they can talk fine in English, and if not, like Waih, who is not as good as me and Steven, we at least know what they mean and I can understand most all of what they are saying.

I also think it's interesting how Sven doesn't fit in anywhere. People like him and Trask get left behind becasue they are Asian and most people figure they fit in with the other Asians, but they are American, too, and cannot really speak the languages of their nationalities.

Like I said, it's just weird. I figured in college everyone would easily fit in and find their niche, but most people I know can't seem to do it. awww

One of the funniest things about Sven and Waih is when they greet each other.

Waih will go 'Korean boy', with sarcasm on every syllable, and then Sven will call Waih some racial slur. and then Waih will call him 'Korean boy' again, and Sven will respond, until one of them gets sick of it and they do a stare-off. And then pretend they're gay.cIt's really entertaining.

Waih identifies people by their nationality. He describes the people I know by calling them 'Korean Boy', 'That Korean Girl', 'That Other Korean Girl', 'Chinese Boy', 'Smart Chinese Boy', and 'your HK Roommate'.

I've never really had people describe each other like that. A few of my other friends will identify people like that, too. Oh, and I'm either 'The American Girl' or 'The Lebanese Girl'. Lol.

I usually hang out with the two of them like once a week. Waih has not roommate an open-double, so there is a lot of space and we just all hang out and talk. We usually talk about things like race. It's interesting, their perscpetives.

One of the things I rememebr Waih saying that bothered Sven was that "Korean girl not want Korean boy; Korean girl want AMERICAN boy. Chinese girl not want Chinese or Korean boy; Chinese boy want AMERICAN boy. American girl want American boy." He meant 'classic American boy', as Sven put it. It kind of made me feel bad, too, beucae I don't think it's that way.

They also talked about do I 'really feel comfortable with everyone', like in Cheon Ji In and stuff. Oh! I jopined Cheon Ji In, better known as Korean Drumming. Jun is in that with meee~! xDD She is coolll!! She is in half of my classes and i consider her one of my closer friends. :smile: She is Korean and lived in New Zealand for a few years, and then came to the US. She is soo niceee! She is one of m favorite people here, haha!!

Back on topic. I said yeah, kidna. And then they brought up the Moon Festival. My roommate, Mia, told me I should go. When I got there I found out that she was on the staff for it and could not ahng otu with me. She had already bought me a ticket. EVERYONE there was Asian and I could not find any friends. Seeing as to how the whole thing was mainly in Chinese, I WAS kidan panicing.....But then I found some of her friends. I DID feel out of place. I had never felt like that beofre. (o.O);;

I ended up seeing a bunch of my friends, anyways, but I did feel lost. I'm not gonna lie.

So, to answer his question, I feel like I belong, but also like I don't. They will all inevtibaly speak their own languages when we're doing stuff and whatnot, but they all seem to like me invite me to do things. But on the other side of the coin, I feel like I bother them, becuae I don't speak Cantonese, or Mandarian, or Korean, or whatever.

To add another layer to this rant, the guys keep telling me to watch out becuae some Asians don't like non-Asians and they don't like people 'intruding' on their culture (for things like the Moon Festival) so I think they are just making me nervous, lol. I always try to be respectfl.

So, eayh. I really wanted to put all of that out there beucase I found it interesting- to say the least.....P:

Other than all that college ios pretty cool. :cool: I have a few American friends, lmaoooo!! When my aunts and unvles came to visit, they asked me if I did....Heh.

I also got a radio sopttt!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

Over a hundred people applied for a very few spots at a free-fromat (or whatever they claled it, lol) radio station. I got the 1-4am slot on Mondays. If you guys are up, lsiten in. =D

I will be playing rock/electronic. YES 'my kidna music' will also be incomspicuously mixed in..... xDD

I really am shocked, though, that as a freahman I got a THREE-OUR timeslot....they said they had twos and threes avaulabe......And like I said, over a hundred applied. I was blown awayyy!!! :happy://

So they must like my kidna music. Hehe. NEVER thought I'd see teh day. ;]

I'm building a Mars Rover for one of my classes......I should REALLY go get that peice. P:

Tell you about THAT ONE tomorrow, hahahahahahaharoflcopterlmfaoooo!!!

~Red

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Song of the Day

Come Together

By: That Joe Cocker Version. From 'Across the Universe' (Tell yah THAT story later, too, hahahaha!!!)

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Woah.



I erally want to talk about a lot of things; I haven't been ehre in a whiiile, now....

but today i will talk about Esther. I just heard what happaned.... :cry:

This is really sad.

There are so many people I talk to here, and realllly like, and then we al sign off, and....WHAT-?

We don't know.

So much happens when we are AFK, and most of it no one ever knows. So I just really wantedt o check in with everybody and hope you're all wlel.

Things happen everyday that are completely out of out control....I just really needed to write something..... I am reallly upset about this. Iam sitting in the middle of the Technology Building crying, right now....

I will really miss Esther. I loved to read her blog but only really talked to her a few times.....She seemed so nice and open and easygoing.

I know she will definately be missed.

I miss being able to talk to all of you, a lot, too, but I just have too much to do. :frown: The work is reallly hard, and a few times I ended up even crying becuaes I just cannot do it.

I am having a hard time, but hanging on.

I am Computer Science, and Pre-Veternerian. Wow. It's a shitload of stuff, but will all be worth it. :wink:

~Red

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Song of the Day:

Rakuen (Paradise)

By: Tim Jensen

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