what ever will BE, will BE

It was a strange thing. i woke up this morning and i was greatful to be alive. while, a day ago i was wishing with all my strength and my whole being for the world to come crashing down on me. i couldnt breathe and i was just too tired to care. the world was a dark pit i couldnt seem to get out of fast enough. i made a deal with the Man upstairs: " if you take my life right now, i will be eternally grateful to You. my family and friends will be better off without me. So how about it? huh???"

Silence!!!!! thats all i could here and it seemed to be getting louder by the minute and by every ticking second. AAAAAAAARRRRRGGH!!! "GIVE ME ANYTHING, BUT THIS LOUD SILENCE!"

but then suddenly...this morning... i Woke up, I was CALM and I SMILED!!