I think I have troubles
Monday, May 9, 2011 6:52:39 PM
Still, things haven't changed as much I hoped too, by the time.
I'm working hard, and making hours, not rewarded as much as I like/would/should.
And now, I am taking a serious shot. Like a breakdown.
I'm almost 30 and, when I look what I have achieved yet, there's nothing. Emptiness is all around.
Maybe more because I'm an asshole than because I don't want to.
I'm eager to see when this will all finally start; for real. I guess my life isn't challenging enough, even if there are a lot of challenges ahead. Maybe I don't get to measure them yet. I don't know.
Someday I wish I could look backwards and say this all phase I'm going through was necessary. But as time goes by I don't believe that's true.
I'm slowly digging my own grave and making the best of it. Loneliness was never a good friend to me, and once more, it shows up; and I'm mad at me because I have to restart from the beginning and stop feeling sorry for myself.
And one of my worst or best fear is slowly running into my veins.
I hope that I might be wrong. Still, times fly and on theses kind of matters I never get that wrong.
As usual, time will make the rest.