This is My Chance
Saturday, 29. August 2009, 09:36:47
This is My Chance
I've got a feeling...a really bad feeling about something I'm not quite sure of. Are they both lying to me? What's wrong with the excessive consideration and the secrecy? It seems so frightening, and I'm afraid to make any simple mistake. After what happened to me the past two years, I wouldn't know what to expect. Smiles and laughter may deceive easily; and obviously, I wasn't aware of that until he came along. O.K. Fine... I may be somewhat exaggerating through speech, but I can't find any other way to put it. I'm just scared, and I don't want what happened in the past, to occur again. I don't want to feel helpless or vulnerable to anyone, like I had been to him.
I don't understand how people would dare doubt me and question my loyalty, while I shut up and watch them break our trust. Maybe that's my fault. I'd rather be quiet, somewhat avoiding the cause of any problem or misunderstanding. I don't want or intend to build up any hatred or revengeful feelings towards anyone. Could someone just explain to me what I've been missing through all my investigations of these past months? I'm sick of this! I just want to start a new page; fresh ink of all good and bright days! I want to be myself and not fear anything that could happen to me, from what possible mistakes I have committed. I want to get you out of my mind and out of my heart...because I can't love you anymore. I need to let go of you, the past, and the hope of you coming back with tears in your eyes.
I want to breathe a free, pure heart.
No more of your confusion & disgrace.
I need to live now & forever...
I've got a feeling...a really bad feeling about something I'm not quite sure of. Are they both lying to me? What's wrong with the excessive consideration and the secrecy? It seems so frightening, and I'm afraid to make any simple mistake. After what happened to me the past two years, I wouldn't know what to expect. Smiles and laughter may deceive easily; and obviously, I wasn't aware of that until he came along. O.K. Fine... I may be somewhat exaggerating through speech, but I can't find any other way to put it. I'm just scared, and I don't want what happened in the past, to occur again. I don't want to feel helpless or vulnerable to anyone, like I had been to him.
I don't understand how people would dare doubt me and question my loyalty, while I shut up and watch them break our trust. Maybe that's my fault. I'd rather be quiet, somewhat avoiding the cause of any problem or misunderstanding. I don't want or intend to build up any hatred or revengeful feelings towards anyone. Could someone just explain to me what I've been missing through all my investigations of these past months? I'm sick of this! I just want to start a new page; fresh ink of all good and bright days! I want to be myself and not fear anything that could happen to me, from what possible mistakes I have committed. I want to get you out of my mind and out of my heart...because I can't love you anymore. I need to let go of you, the past, and the hope of you coming back with tears in your eyes.
I want to breathe a free, pure heart.
No more of your confusion & disgrace.
I need to live now & forever...
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