The View From My Bowl

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What a week, a birth, a death and a medical scare of the worst sort, that the all clear came back on today.
Exhausting.
Seriously exhausting.

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And one last speed model from the Time pieces Challenge. 60 min modeling.

In to the Doctors again today. Some of the secondary symptoms are starting to come under control, getting sleep now on a fairly regular basis. The pain is still appalling but thats not something that can be dealt with unless I am willing to spend most of my life in a haze of hard drugs. I`m not willing.

They tried to get bloods today but could not stick a vien no matter how often they tried. My arms are covered in tiny little holes now but you just got to grin and bare it, the arm that is.

After that I had my walk, to be honest I wanted to crawl into bed not hit the roads. Managed almost 3.5 Km.

I will get back to some photos tomorrow.

Book: The Dreaming Void / Peter F Hamilton (Amazon UK Link)
Music: Tom Waits

Tulip, found growing on the side of the road near to home. While I say side of the road it wasn't an accidental seeding, there was a whole bed of flowers along the edge of the path. The pride that some people show in their neighbourhood is impressive. Aquilegia from the same family as the Granny`s Bonnet I posted last year. Mrs Sprogger was good enough to hold it up for me, my leg is shot these days- I cant safely even bend down to shoot these. an iris of some variety Its that time of year again, the long days and warm summer nights have arrived. The Summer Photo Network will be reopening as EspenAO was kind enough to write about on the front page. For the last year/year and a half I haven't been very active on the opera community and photo networks, I have some health problem which involves considerable pain. I get involved with groups and peoples blogs with the best of intentions and ideas, I remember when we started the first of the photo networks- The Autumn Photo Network(APN). I thought it was the coolest thing (Probably a poor reflection on the level of excitement in my life) And frankly I still do.
When the pain is at its worst though, part of me goes away. Its like the social part of my brain just shuts down, I look at blogs and just cant bring myself to put in the effort to gather my thoughts and type them out. It leaves me feeling bad about what feels like letting people down.
Normally these brain blocks only last a few days or at worst a couple of weeks but this time its been about 14 months. Everything I am involved with I have let slide. I have made, what felt to me, a massive effort a few times during these months to force my self back to normal but that don't work..
However it does seem to be lifting, whether its the bit of sunshine giving me a boost (because its certainly not an improvement in pain levels) or what I don't know. So Woooo Hooo!!
And with a return of the social part of my brain comes a creative return also, 5 drawings in the last 2 days, over 200 photos shot just today. I`m keeping my fingers crossed that this will continue.
To anyone I have let down, here or in the "real" world, I can only say - I am truly Sorry
See you soon, I`ll be around with any luck. PS I just had a look at my long neglected watch list. I`m scared!

It was the beginning of a new era, something special, a wedding, my wedding or rather our wedding. I posted this photo last year to mark the day in question.

This year I thought A photo taken by my wife would be an idea.

She doesn't think she is a good photographer and rarely takes the camera. So I ask you to tell her what you think of this shot she took on our anniversary.