xmas

Well, today was another day full of surprises as always....

I find I only ever write in my blog when i have something to nag or complain about, maybe that is because i am a nagger and a complainer, i dont know, and frankly-i couldnt care less...
i am sure that if i have something nice to tell i will, so just bear with me...

Anyhow, I went to bed at about 3am last night, only to wake up about an hour later feeling sick and miserable. So what do I do, I get out of bed, go downstairs, get out the sleepingbag and settle on the sofa with the telly on discovery channel, hoping that it would be so boring i would fall asleep... but no, just my luck, it is something really interesting and i stay up to watch it how blond can you be...
So instead of changing the channel I am now so engrossed in this documentary I end up with only 3 hours of sleep... ugh, sometimes being me is tiring work i tell you...

Well,
today it is xmas day and unlike every other year where we go see familie on xmas day and stay home on boxing day, we do it the other way around this year.

We are staying home today and are having a nice quiet day at home, nothing special, just the two of us and I have to say I am glad!

Xmas is so overrated in my book, the same as Valentines day it is a commercial holiday where entrepeneurs take advantage of our need to spend money on things we do not really need. For me Xmas is about being nice to your neighbours and someone you do not know.

I mean, I am not spending hundreds of euro's on presents for all my family, even if i spend 20 euro's a person I have spent well over 200 euro's and as there are every year, there are always some presents that are more expensive than the normal 20 euro's you promise to spend...

No, I do not like the spending spree people seem to get when it gets to December...
I think people have forgotten what Xmas really is about.... and no, i am not a bible basher or a religeous fanatic... I don't even go to church or believe in god, heaven, hell or anything to do with that... yes thats right i am an atheist, and i dont care what anyone else thinks of that.

i feel that everyone is entitled to believe what they want, wether that be in god or that you believe that there is no such thing as god... and everything in between is fine by me too..
all i am saying is that people should take a moment to remember what Xmas is about...
it isnt about spending ridiculous amounts of money on presents or have the best or nicest decorations.
it is about being nice to the people around you, regardless of wether you know them or not, it is about forgiving past mistakes and celebrating the gift of life we have all been given.
after all, if your parents hadnt met, then you wouldnt have been born.

that brings me on another subject and sjeesh, this is become a nag and winge more than a xmassy thing but hey, i just go with the flow, i find it healthier...

so many people are affraid to speak their minds, to say what they are REALLY thinking or feeling. they are never truly honest, but i am the kind of person who will always speak her mind, and if someone doesnt like that then that is their problem, not mine. i do not try to fit in with the masses, i am not a dumb sheep that will just follow the flock and do what is considered "normal", i do what my heart tells me to, unless it is obviously harmful to myself or someone around me, because i am not without morals or standards..

just because i do not fit in the box that is ticked with the stamp "normal" doesnt mean i dont have standards or morals, in fact mine are better than those of many people i know, but i do not condemn them for it, it is their choice, although heavily influenced by society and peer pressure.
just because so many people decide that that is normal doesnt nessecarily mean it is normal, they just percieve it as such...

well, that is me for today, i have nagged and winged enough and probably make no sense whatsoever but then again think about it and answer me this: What is normal?