Stephanie

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Monday, 23. October 2006, 22:43:23

STEPHANIE

Well, I thought that I'd never keep this up...and it is true. Maybe my life isn't too interesting . . . or I just don't want to share some things.

This may be my last post for a long time . . .

No one reads this anyway.

Wait...

One person reads it and mocks it . . .

So I will dedicate my final post to him by ending it all with . . .

TYLER

IS

MEAN!!!

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Lost

Monday, 2. October 2006, 02:44:49

Some days do you ever just feel lost?

Feel like your life really has no direction or purpose?

Some days, I do.

I'm so eager to get out of here and to go IL (if that's the place I choose), but I've done some researching and it's so expensive. I ask myself if it is worth it . . .

I bought some crazy daisies this weekend, they always make me smile. They are so beautiful. I love all the "crazy" colors . . I'm a colorful person. The water is all purple...it's funny.

I'm really addicted to this song called "For You". I can listen to it forever.

I'm really hot and I don't know why . . .

This week shall be alright.

Pumpkin Patch, I think on Friday? That should be fun . . . I love pumpkins.

"I wish I could hate you . . . but I can't. I can hate how you make me feel though . . ."

Good night to all and a wonderful week!

*stefney

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little kid

Thursday, 28. September 2006, 01:55:41

First, I got back my accounting test today, I got a 87.5 . . . .

Out of 84 that is! WAHOO!!! I was SO worried about that exam. I'm VERY proud of myself!

I have a Stats exam tomorrow . . . which once again, I'm NOT prepared for. I missed one class and when I am in class, I tend to talk/pass notes to Ashlee . . . which results in me not paying attention. So, here I am tonight, attempting to learn two chapters. Blah!

Tonight was fun! Micki and me did our usual "drink/drive" where we ALWAYS listen to 97.5. Anyway, they have this contest where they play the top 5 requested songs or something and then when he plays #1, he'll ask for the 9th caller to win some free food. Well, we ended up only getting the top 4 songs. When he asked for the 9th caller, I grabbed my phone, expecting to get a busy signal...but it started ringing...so, I hung up. Micki said, "CALL BACK!". So, I did... and it started ringing... but we were number #4. So, I called again...and it started ringing! The conversation went something like this:

Chase: Hello?
Micki: DID I WIN? AM I THE 9TH CALLER?! *laughs*
Phone goes dead.

We were VERY puzzled...so we called again! lol. And...it started RINGING. I was like 'NO WAY'... and MICKI WON! She asked if not many people were calling because we didn't get a busy signal even once. Chase said that a couple of "5 and 6 year olds were calling and that is not what the show is about"... I had to laugh because he thought Micki was one of them when she did the conversation above! The phone went dead because he had hung up on her! It was all good though... we DID get our "shout out" on the radio. That's right ... Stephanie N' Micki . . . great times, great laughs. Bored some night? Give me a call... it's always fun!

Well, I best be off to study my Stats . . . I need to get a decent grade!

Before I leave, my cousin said something so funny tonight. She said something about keeping it on the "DL" (which I guess means down low) . . . I don't know why, but I just thought it was funny . . . DL? I mean, who came up w/ that?

I will end this with. . .

GN!

...which means 'good night'!

*stefney

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dilemma*

Tuesday, 26. September 2006, 22:12:50

So, I went to Denny's tonight w/ Popz and Mother... it was such horrible service, but my stomach isn't complaining... it's full (after they got my order right). I do love chicken . . .

One thing that really bothers me is when people lie. It's so stupid. Am I guilty of it? Absolutely. I wouldn't be human if I hadn't lied before. However, people who continually do it just annoy the heck out of me. It's so funny when I catch them too . . . then, they tell me a hundred reasons around their lie. Seriously, just confess and say sorry.

I love my friends. What makes a friendship? I do not think it is one person who does all the work. If that is a "friendship"...it's really screwed up.

I thought that was OUR special thing. Yes, go ahead, mock me . . . and then laugh because it is SO funny. Right . . .

I have a dilemma . . .

Do I stay or should I go?

*stefney

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Shhh....

Monday, 25. September 2006, 00:47:50

I have a secret...

But I can't tell anyone.

Why?

Then it wouldn't be a secret.

Don't ask...

I can't tell.

*stefney

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uncertain

Sunday, 24. September 2006, 05:28:48

Alright, this post may be a bit confusing to most, but that will be okay. First and foremost, I love my life...truly. I have great parents (ok, we do fight alot, but I know they will always be there for me--when I'm an angel and the devil), the friends I have are the greatest, I love my job (hence JOB--I'm not TOO fond of one of my jobs), and I finally have some sort of 'direction' in life. But, lately, I've been looking at myself and wondering . . . do I like who I've become?

First, peer pressure. Yes, everyone hates it. I tend to become a victim real fast. When I do, I feel lousy...as if I'm some sort of idiot. I look at some people and they don't give in at all. I know I do and I can admit it... I do see that I do it. Yes, it's a flaw. I try to work on it, but it doesn't seem to work. You tell me, "it's easy", but it's not. . . I care about my friends and don't want them mad. If it were easy, I wouldn't have the problem. It may be easy to you, but I struggle with it.

Just for the record... I'm down 15!! Only about 30 more to go. . . (just thought I'd include that bit in here)

My back really hurts lately . . . I've been trying so hard not to move my left arm, but obviously I didn't do a good job. I don't want those scars back...I feel ugly then. Also, my medication isn't working. Damn it. Oh well, I will not stress out about any of this . . . unwanted stress is not something I need.

Why do you stare at me in disgust? Let's get the facts straight . . . I don't like you either.

I'm against drinking, drugs, and smoking. Don't get me wrong, I do not think a drink of alcohol here and there is bad (glass of wine), but drinking to excess is seriously stupid. It can and WILL mess you up... I guarantee it. As for drugs... that one is obviously. Smoking? Well, you'll get hooked and be stinky. Who wants to stink? Not me!

Lately, I've been feeling so much pressure about relationships. I'm only 20 1/2 . . . am I thinking about marriage? Hell no. I feel as though I'll never find a guy who is "right". Yes, I have standards. High standards? Most would say so. My "perfect" guy has to have a college education--yes, that's very important to me. Second, I want a guy who is NOT into drinking, smoking, and drugs <--~-- that's the HARDEST quality to find in a guy!! The last quality is: I want a guy who wants to make me happy and who will stick by my side no matter what (when I'm in the greatest mood and the worst mood). Remember: talk is cheap, impress me w/ your actions. It may be lame, but I think the greatest moment would be. . . yes, you've all heard it and it hasn't changed: dancing under the stars to "Amazed" by Lonestar. Someday my Prince Charming will do this . . . someday. Let me just make something clear: HAPPINESS IS NOT JUST ABOUT BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP. YES, I AM SINGLE. NO, I AM NOT LOOKING. The right guy will just come along . . . I'd rather be single than be in a relationship just soley to please people. So, if I ever am dating someone, you all know it WILL be serious. Enough of that. . .

I have a boatload of homework to do. I'm not motivated. I want to do other things outside. I hate studying, but I keep telling myself I won't be able to achieve my dream if I don't. Right now, my dreams are important to me.

Life is short, live it while you can. Those of us who take this simple fact for granted are the ones whose lives will be cut short . . . if you were to die tomorrow, would you be satisfied with how you lived you life? Would you have regrets? Think about it . . .

My mind is still on a certain boy. He was MIA on Friday. The one thing I miss most about a "relationship"? Cuddling. I think it can be the greatest feeling in the entire world if you are with the right person. On Monday, maybe I'll see him. No, I'm not obsessing . . . I just think he's cute. However, is he the one who makes me heart skip a beat? No. . . that certain boy I'll never reveal. It's a lost cause, this I know. So, MIA boy, I'll be seeing you soon . . .

I hate when the world seems to change. I hate when people I love change. I thought I LOVED change, I think I'll think again . . . I can deal with change, but I don't necessarily like it.

Have you taken the time to look at the trees lately? They are so beautiful. . . one of nature's true gifts to mankind. Take the time . . . go for a walk. . . I promise you won't regret it.

I'm very tired. Today was a long day for some reason. So, this must end now . . .

G'Night All.

Wait, aren't you wondering the answer to my question?! Yes, I do.

*stefney

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My heart...

Friday, 22. September 2006, 01:56:49

So, I'm sitting here tonight listening to the radio. . .

What's on my mind you ask? A certain boy.

I don't know what it is . . . but he makes my heart beat very fast.

I love thinking about him . . . he's super cute.

Sometimes, I'm at a loss of words.

There's only one problem: I'll never get him.

Why? I think his heart belongs to another girl . . .

But, I can dream, right?

I really want him . . .

Just thinking of him brings a smile to my face.

Am I in love? No...

Just lust.

I, Stephanie Eileen, hereby, do love being in lust.

So my special boy . . . I LOVE HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL.

This is the end . . .

(feeling romantic tonight)

*stefney

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Horrible day

Thursday, 21. September 2006, 23:40:11

Today was not a good day for many reasons.

I would post all about it . . . but I'm very tired.

On a brighter note, 97.5 is giving away Black Eyed Peas tickets EVERY hour ALL night long.

Keep your fingers crossed, by some miracle, I win!

I'll post probably tomorrow or Sat...

Until then,

Have a superb day!

*stefney

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Mean people...

Tuesday, 19. September 2006, 15:31:58

Alright, if you read my 'About' tab, it states specifically that I do not like mean people.

Therefore, if you feel the need to say something RUDE, DISRESPECTFUL, or flat out MEAN, I WILL delete the comment.

Most of you don't know me, therefore don't make an assumption based solely on one of my posts.

*stefney

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