I'm so angry .... and feel so worthless
Monday, March 23, 2009 11:07:58 AM
While I was still in Senior School.
A so called friend stole something very valueable from me.
A Gold Locket with my Mum & Grans photo in it, from my pencil case which was locked my school locker.
And also a Diamond & Emerald Ring, left to me by my Gran and worth about £4,000 at least in todays money.
I've recently discovered where this person might be. And it's re-opened another chapter in my life I thought was sealed shut.
The flashbacks have started again and I have overwhelming feelings of hurt, anger and pure hatred.
I just wish I knew what to do.
I'm never going to see the items again.
As it happened so long ago, legally, there is nothing I can do.
And I feel that is the problem.
There is nothing I can do.
So I guess I have to walk away again, feeling like shit, and feeling worthless because of the way someone treated me.
Yet I feel this person should be made to pay either physically, mentally or financally for the years of hurt they've caused me.
I hate these feelings. I hate being me.
I hate being worthless and I hate the fact that people can do what they want to you,
and you can't do a damn thing about it.
I wish I knew what to do.