We sometimes sin and just because no one else but us knows about it we think we have gotten away with it. The problem with that logic is that both we and God knows. I am a sinner or I wouldn't be on this earth.
I was once a thief! When I was 8 years old I use to go to the grocery store for my mother. Every time I went to the grocery store I would stop at the little candy store and look at the toy gun that was in the back in a showcase. It was big and gold with a black handle. It was just what I wanted so when I watched westerns on TV and played along with the cowboys I would have a gun.
After saving for months I still had less than $2. That gun I wanted down at the candy store cost $3.50. It seemed like I would never save enough. One day while I stopped at the candy store to look at the gun I was there stooping on the floor with my grocery bag next to me. I noticed that no one except me was in the back of the store. Yes by now you have guessed that I took the gun out of the case and dropped it into my grocery bag.
My family moved less than a year later but still in roughly they same area, within walking distance of the same candy store. The odd thing is that after we had unpacked all of our things I could not find "MY" gun. I never did find it but I had no problem with that since it had become a reminder of what I had done. In fact I was very happy it was gone.
Years passed by and I was now 26, but every time I went back to my old neighborhood and saw the candy store I felt guilt. I wouldn't go into the store. Then I decided one day to go to the candy store for no other purpose than to confess. It had been a number of years since I had been in that store. The thought even occurred to me that the owner would not be the same and I would then not have to face the situation.
Sure enough as I walked in "Heime" was behind the counter looking exactly the same as he always had looked. He recognized me and we spent a little time talking about what I was doing. He even mentioned and asked about all of my brothers and sisters most by name. I had no idea he knew my family members so well.
It was at that time in the conversation I told him that I had come in to confess about something that had happened almost 20 years before. He immediately said, "Oh you mean the gun". I think my mouth dropped wide open. So he had known all the time. ( As I later owned small businesses I realize that a proprietor of a store usually does know everything that's going on.) I pulled out $3.50 and said I want to pay for it now. He took the money, I think more for me than him and joked by saying, "Ok but you know with inflation what that gun cost today?" We had a good laugh and I had a good life lesson. So these are the things we come here to learn.
At the time I was 8 when I stole that gun I was innocent and a child, but I knew it was wrong and therefore I was accountable. I had also left the lasting impression that i was a thief. I asked God to forgive me and I know that incident has been erased in my little book of life that is in heaven. It is now that it never happened as far as God is concerned. To me I have let it go but I learned at that age after becoming a thief that if no one except me and God knows of my sin then that is two too many.
I don't have the capacity to ever kill and since that incident I know longer have the stomach to steal. I have learned by guilt to honor my father and mother even though my father is now a memory and my mother is day away from her 90th birthday. So if I can remember the rest of the commandments I'll check to see what I have to work on next. If I'm truly living in the word I think I might find that I'm doing pretty well. I just can't remember the 10 commandments.
I have to keep the list near:
23And Moses said unto the LORD, The people cannot come up to mount Sinai: for thou chargedst us, saying, Set bounds about the mount, and sanctify it.
24And the LORD said unto him, Away, get thee down, and thou shalt come up, thou, and Aaron with thee: but let not the priests and the people break through to come up unto the LORD, lest he break forth upon them.
25So Moses went down unto the people, and spake unto them.
1And God spake all these words, saying,
2I am the LORD thy God, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.
3Thou shalt have no other gods before me.
4Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.
5Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;
6And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments.
7Thou shalt not take the name of the LORD thy God in vain; for the LORD will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.
8Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy.
9Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work:
10But the seventh day is the sabbath of the LORD thy God: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates:
11For in six days the LORD made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the LORD blessed the sabbath day, and hallowed it.
12Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.
13Thou shalt not kill.
14Thou shalt not commit adultery.
15Thou shalt not steal.
16Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour.
17Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour's.
18And all the people saw the thunderings, and the lightnings, and the noise of the trumpet, and the mountain smoking: and when the people saw it, they removed, and stood afar off.
19And they said unto Moses, Speak thou with us, and we will hear: but let not God speak with us, lest we die.
20And Moses said unto the people, Fear not: for God is come to prove you, and that his fear may be before your faces, that ye sin not.