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One morning, three songs

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Let's call it Acapella Friday. It started with a visit to my professor who handed me what seemed like a hundred books. After one weary look at the amount of readings I have accumulated in just 2 days, I quickly decided I'm doing anything but reading them on my free Friday (a rare phenomenon). Of course, being the dedicated procrastinator I am, I had to find something to do which could never- not ever- get any work done. What comes most naturally in these cases is singing, or sometimes if luck holds, writing.

I decided to get into business with a Paul McCartney song I heard just a couple days back from my friend Annie (graceful people call her Ananya). I have a thing for jazzy vocals. Paul McCartney's voice flows into the romantic corner of your mind like a meandering stream on its way to the river- slow but sure (leave my brain alone, hydrology!). After one failed attempt at trying it out in my still-shaky morning voice, I realized there is no way on earth I can sound like a 70-year old maestro. I gave up and closed my eyes and just sang.

So here's to my valentine!



Now that I was officially in the mood, I searched around for other bits of inspiration. There, lying squat on the floor right beside the table, was my 20th Century Poetry & Poetics. It's there because I was reading that poem by Galway Kinnell once again last night. Galway Kinnell, who seems almost as fascinated by the animals of the wild as with his own mind, just makes my night. Every time I read that poem it reminds me of a Regina Spektor song, where another loner- although he claims a thousand faces, I see that of a loner's- entertains himself with the company of his window-moon. I can perfectly picture the long dinner conversations with his moon and his animals. Then I shiver when I see my face there. One among the thousand. I am horrible at reciting, and what with my weird accent and runaway speeds, poems are better read with my eyes than with my tongue. But the morning was bright, the house blessedly quiet and lonely. I picked the first and last stanza of the rather long poem. The quiet company of the animal and the longing for the human...




There now. I've started singing Regina. I've never been known to stop at one. So I decided to bring back the jazz and sing a song I sing these days without even thinking about it. I'm surprised I never recorded it before. The song is called Rejazz. Just perfect for the morning.



The clock still strikes midnight and noon. Noon. Noon. Where has my morning gone?

The dreamers

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They burned the witches for the day and tried to clean the air. But the air’s never clean where their breaths have been. The smoke of ideas just circle around and infect. Once infected the symptoms are clear. Your laughter grows too loud, your songs become too free, your eyes see too much. Don’t fret, simply wait to die. Some are ashes. You now are the smoke.

They escaped each night.
None were noticed first—
these rained-upon minds
leaving burnt cities, lunging
towards dreamlit waters,
learning, each night,
to play the lights.


The bodies have turned the crows to vultures. The smell grows stronger every day. It’s all wrong. Strong is wrong. So wrong, so rotten, the vultures can’t stop feeding on it. They keep pecking till even the bodies want to crawl away.

And every day they turned, returned,
each to their tailored mornings
perfect as a picture-
may be a Cezanne room where fruits
are eternally escaping baskets.
One only worries about
noisy neighbours
or the children’s lunch
while a tidy tea is brewing.


A dog passes by sniffing the air. It’s a country of stray dogs. Pets are a pretty peculiarity. One may pet a conspiring, corrupted mind— not dogs. The stray ones no longer know to bite. Weak knees wobbling, they just pass by.

Nights are for the creatures of dreams—
lost in day when newspapers scream and
frantic faiths sell faster than fashion
and folly spreads faster than pollution.
The moon might make a poet of you,
the sun sees only sin.


Love is a luxury, but still mothers cry. Bodies become faces that once smiled. The smiles now are the smoke.

Here now is the dream,
the sin of dreaming,
and a land of labyrinths—
here where the mind
splits: two birds—
one lost in the beauty of beyond,
one bound in the burden of between.



Symphony
16 May, '13

It hasn't occurred to me
we haven't met before.
We haven't lived in love all our lives to reach
this love.
We haven't dreamed together to have
similar dreams.

We carried in us different debts
and different defeats.
The smell of coffee and rain
traveled to us through different labyrinths.
I lived through the different pieces of my life
without watching you sleep.

You played a harmonica
and in a different land
I sang.

~ Symphony

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Pick up the music from a backdrop of chaos,
I bring me to myself piece by piece.
Pieces lost in the way-
some I left when I yawned,
a few had a way of their own,
I lost some for I didn’t see,
The loss of some I deeply mourn.
Pieces were lost in the way.

Pick up the mind from a backdrop of crowd,
will you bring them back someday?
~ Symphony

De-stressing and Distressing

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The toughly scheduled final exams are right up my nose, which means I'm doing everything except studying at the moment. lol
This song has been in one corner of the House soundtrack folder, and I've never really listened to it closely. I pulled it out yesterday and since then I've been listening to it endlessly. Had to give it a try today.

Life is hard on me right now (not for the exams). But well, I don't remember asking for perfect. smile
And...there's always hope, if nothing else!



I'll whine, but I'll wait. smile

~ Symphony

বৃষ্টি-বিকাল

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এটাই বোধহয় আমা্র বাংলায় লেখা প্রথম পোস্ট।
হঠাৎ খাতার পেছনে পাওয়া এ্কটা ছোট্ট লেখার ওপর চোখ পড়লো। লেখাটার সময়ের সেই বিকালটা এই মুহূর্তে ফিরে পাওয়ার তীব্র ইচ্ছা জাগলো। কিন্তু সেই বিকাল ফিরে পাওয়ার উপায় জানি না। এই দুর্দিনে ওরকম একটা বিকালের খুব বেশি প্রয়োজন ছিল। লেখাটা জমিয়ে রাখা হতো না হয়তো। প্রায় দিনই তো চোখ পড়ে, জমিয়ে রাখার ইচ্ছা আজ প্রথম হলো। ইচ্ছা হলো এরকম সুন্দর একটা বিকালের স্মৃতি ধরে রাখতে।…



আগে কোনদিন খেয়াল করি নি— শ্যাওলা-ধরা সিড়ি দেখতে আমার এতোটা সুখ হয়। বৃষ্টি-ধোয়া জগৎটার খুব ছোট্ট একটা অংশ এই সোফাটায় বসে দেখা যায়। (বেসমেন্টে বসে যে এইটুক দেখা যায় তাই অনেকটা ভাগ্য!) শ্যাওলাটে ওই সিড়ির ওপারেই ওই বৃষ্টি-ধোয়া জগৎটা। ওইপাশটায় ঠান্ডা একটা সোঁদা গন্ধ। এইপাশটায় গরম কফির সাদা সাদা ধোওয়ায় আরেকটা সুখি গন্ধ। দুটো গন্ধুই কি সতেজ, কি সুখি! দুটো গন্ধ যখন মিশে গিয়ে তীব্র একটা নেশার মত নাক দিয়ে প্রবেশ করে ভেতরে, একদম ভেতরে চলে যায়, তখন মনে হয় উ-উ-উঁচু কোথাও দাঁড়িয়ে চিৎকার করে বলি— থাকুক দুঃখ, হাশ-ফাশ করা সমস্যা আর ঝামেলাগুলিও থাকুক। কিন্তু আজকে বিকালে, ঠিক এই মুহূর্তটাতে, আমি একজন সুখি মানুষ।




Symphony