Structures and Foundations

so u took on the solitary flight, indeed... leaving all of us to ourselves. Thank you for the company then , I am glad that i have known you , proud to tell the world that u r also one of the responsibles of how i am today. We meet again, maybe...... someday.




This one's for you.... Love.Nick

06. 0871 - Solitary Flight.mp3

for betterment, get a little bit of attention.. positively...

a simple fact about doing good....

no matter how bad things had turned to become, always hope for the better . good to be better so that it'll be the best in the field that you're in and about. Yea?

S P E C T R U M


i am working on a series .. evening by the window... so i sat in the near future by myself thinking of the past... yes the passing of the time with the memories of the past...


so i am always in the quietest moment , always, wish that u're here with me, Shel. yes... to and for the good of the world..

oh yea, so that's it . excursions of the quick mind. i have included everything possible that i've known, still i have stars seeing what's in front of me. Yep! much is still left unknown and i don 't really care to know anymore. at the end of the day, i am back with you, Shel. the excursion is just an excursion after all. and the world revolve as it shouldn't. sinners! . so have i used the excuse of being in love to explain everthing? u damn right, and standing proud because of it... the ones that have a better reason , yes, can kiss my azz.. yep right smack in the middle of it.



Loneliness is just as it supposed to be and tried my very best not to turn it into something what it shouldn't. i guess it's worse to be lonely and not to have anything else behind that door. at the very least , i got you on the other end.

i begin again . fresh towels and fresh new face with the same heart. getting to know myself again , i am tired shel. very. i am getting better at putting potential problems on the sides pretending not to look at what they are truly are... turns out better not to have those boxes to begin with.

some experiences are timeless. classic. you relate like hearts to love. you gave all you can and try not to take anything. easiest if you have good love with you all the time. i have mine, far away in a different horizon, but still , i still able to relate. yes the magic word. relate.
loneliness is not a mental state. it became something different altogether when u can't stand it anymore. I cherish my loneliness all the time. i got used to being alone. it is the missing you, Shel, that hurts. love supposed to be good. and by God, you have been more than good to me. this is why , the best is yet to come .

( Chua cleaned the window pane diligently and tried to forget what had happened. Marianne had cried and told her about herself. She felt a ding! ding! went on her head. you see, when you able to relate, you don't sympathize, beginning of friendship don't cut from that, it grew from, being able to relate because she understood the tiny little things that most didn't see. it was the little details about her that remind her of herself . she didn't even need to say anything, she just held her hand and breathed. and they looked at each other eyes and 'relate' telepathically. 'We knew what we have been through. and it is ok to continuing on like this.'



The two kittens were back again. this time they were just staring at her. The black and white kitty, decided to walk forth slowly to her, and meowed meekly. Chua paused, and whistled 'People' . She noticed from the corner of her eyes , the orange kitty was losing weight since the last time she saw it.
Hmmm, the mother, she thought, is not present.

Chua kneeled and put out her right hands towards the kitten. 'Come here', she said softly. The orange kitten suddenly leaped forward and overtook the other one and muzzled in her hand. Chua smiled and picked both of them up and went back inside her kitchen).