Sunday, 20. January 2008, 07:20:41
spots of indeed i am
someone said eyes are the windows of the soul... for me or you (which are most of us), visual plays most part of everything. we tend not to colloborate these other four senses with the utmost sense which is the visual. eyes are everything which we based our existence from. for when i close them, i have these other senses needed to be aided and acknowledge by these windows. everything here reflected nonetheless like the mirror, can u see through your own ....... ?admitting yourself to your loved ones of who you are is the best thing that could ever happenned to me. Yes. Me Me Me. Moi. Complete. Now I kept telling myself to come forth . Yes. So I come forth , but i didn't really know of what I brought with me? Always empty, plenty of laughters, best at reflecting nothing in particular. some cringed to be pointed out , here it is... nothing, until u start to talk again. I saw a young man in youtube, that is so dreamy
in his expression and yet , everything that he said, is concrete . and then he would look at the camera, and begin again , beautiful.
Many of us , ones most at peace are the one that speak with the tempo of his/her heartbeat. or vice versa. whatever.
shel , i looked around ... still i see you. every frequency , notations, and memories had the inclinations of you. go figure... if this is not love then , i don't know what is.
Thursday, 10. January 2008, 09:27:22
spots of indeed i am
sick to my stomach . hard to wake up in the morning. so in touch with reality that i was hoping that i was back in the dreamworld. i was so angry last week, that i had screamed, this existence!, I don't want.
Proud and full of dignity I was, to some, since most view this reality/life as a gift. (Why do I feel like I am writing the Book of Death Part Two? ) Can i just be full of life, if not fuller in my steps forward as a being that's indeed blessed. ( the technique to fade out quietly. the beginning of
The Book of The Dead...
DIE ALREADY!)
but here i am . amongst. becoming. growing . shrinking at the same time. gaining knowledge as i had said , and when the 'tank' is full, i 'll be leaving this Earth and become indeed! the better part of the Eco Systems.
Say!, Buddhism has so much and yet nothing to comfort. Imagine ones that was raised in this beautiful simplicity of so called religion. They even had a reading to meditate on Death. Imagine that! freaked me out in the beginning, but what happenned then when u have gained this knowledge, the basic and yet unrelenting in claiming that we all don't know jack shit about the after world. Proven? I believe they did. the rest of the faith, if you want, u can fill in the blanks, if it needs be........ and this... i got to be cool with.
0824 - That House.mp3( Chua realized something .. 'u become the 'person' that u are 'attracted' to. The multiplication of personalities , adding up to what is supposedly great about you, that's the only cross sectioned of life that makes it great. indeed!. So Chua put her book down ,
and looked out her window.. hmmm.. plant flowers. where the hell am i going to plant it... ? )