we are responsible for our well being. being alone and in the dark sometimes makes you realize who you truly are. and , the one thing is, be at peace with that. this phase of life could only move forward, whether you like or not . far and away you are, Shel. those kind faces in your absence had given me much .
noise floor.. the sound that you hear when there are no other noises. which is the sound of indeed , silence. i haven't heard that for sometime now . well to be exact , since i left canada.
i tell you , it's like this, at some point it was so loud with the sound of silence that i can hear myself breathing and i am left only with my thoughts and moments. freakiest . freak azz beaut.
and those time , in love and my moments spent most with thoughts that count, speak less, speechless and finding myself unbelieving of my good fortune, agitated i would get , if questioned . seems like i was just wasting my breath to just even speak.
i can't read your mind, this beautiful soul said to me, when we had our argument for the umpteeth time.
read this eyes , i thought. giving much hatred that i could mustered in the look. and man... , he read it like water to a dying man of thirst.
noise floor . see, that silence is not that necessary , now that i know , with you , such silence is us. love possesed that silence , no matter what the world is louding around and about. silent and unmoving , in the mind = peace.
somebody told me , my happy smile indicate my shallowness. 
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