I don't hear music as I used to. For some time now, I stopped having "soundtracks of the day". I still get a tune stuck in my head, occasionally, but it doesn't linger for more than a couple of minutes to a half of hour. I'm calm, peaceful, and maybe this is the reason for this change. Maybe... I started listening to music on Jango, when I'm at home. Which is for about 3 to 4 hours each day. Apart from that, music doesn't have that much of an importance, lately. I'm busy with other stuff.
After listening to some tunes on YouTube and on the radio, I decided I like the folowing piece best.
I like this chick's voice, and the sound of this band. It's so early 90's, but I like it anyway.
Welcome, La Roux, to my playlist. And may you enjoy a long stay!
Have you noticed that when someone is being cleverly, witty and funny, in 90% of the times, people around start acting very weird? I've made some pie charts to illustrate this: The thing is, 90% of the time they will say really stupid stuff that make you go "huh?..." or even "you've ruined it, douche...". Out of the remaining 10%, only about 2% of the times, someone else will say something even better than the original amusing statement. The rest is reserved for boring commentaries, vaguely smile-inducing stuff, or (in really rare - almost impossible - situations) an equally funny remark. This is so rare, because people usually laugh really hard after a good one (this sounds funny, doesn't it?) and a person trying to top the joke would either have to wait until everyone else settles down, or try throwing his (her) comment during the laughter cascade, risking being ignored. This is illustrated below: My guess is that everybody's ego is a little bit overdeveloped. And we care too much about other people's opinion. There's also the case of people without personalities. They are the worst, because they act like parasites, or leaches. They attach to people, and imitate them, and make a fool of themselves, and everyone else in their entourage. I'm sure you know one or two of them... Am I right? (boy, do I hate leaches...) There are some people with mad dancing skills, others with incredible memory, others with ravishing good looks, others with tons of humour. We don't have to be perfect in every way. Just different. I have my flaws and my strong points. I wear them on my sleeve, because THIS IS WHO I AM! And I don't need to top that joke, or run faster than that guy, or sing better than that singer, because I'm the best one on the planet at something else. Being myself.
I shall have to research this phenomenon further, though. Perhaps even come up with ways to thwart attempts of imbecile jokes... I would appreciate you sharing your thoughts on the matter.
Oh, and another thing. I read somewhere that people believe you in 85% of the cases, when presented with statistics.
Well, everything fell into place, eventually. I'm ok, now. Besides, today I've been especially funny, or so everyone thought. That really brightened my day, let me tell you. That, and these articles I've been reading on the internet these past two days. If you want to laugh too, you can find them here.
The Kübler-Ross model, first introduced by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross in her 1969 book "On Death and Dying", describes, in five discrete stages, a process by which people allegedly deal with grief and tragedy, especially when diagnosed with a terminal illness or catastrophic loss. In addition to this, her book brought mainstream awareness to the sensitivity required for better treatment of individuals who are dealing with a fatal disease.
Apparently, this model applies well to dealing with any unfortunate event. The stages are DENIAL, ANGER, BARGAINING, DEPRESSION, ACCEPTANCE.
In my case, even though my situation is far from tragic (I don't feel it is, anymore), I haven't passed through these stages, and in this order. First, there was depression, followed by acceptance. Then, indifference for a little while. Bargaining didn't appear, except in a really mild way, and for a short period of time (about three hours or so). Then came denial, yesterday. And now - after feeling a bit blue, earlier today - I'm angry, mostly on myself because I kind of let this whole thing happen to me. I just let myself go. I didn't restrain my thoughts and feelings. Which turned out to be really stupid of me. And now I feel I made a fool of myself. Damn... situation!
Anyway, I guess these stages don't apply to everyone the same way.
I wanted something, and then I got it, and then I blew it. And all because I'm an idiot.
I'm taking a break from posting stuff. A vacation, if you like. Not that I used to post on a daily basis, but it will be a while until I'll be in the mood to write something, again. Unless something changes...
I'm closing with a song. I've seen Twilight (the vampire movie), today. And this song reminds me of how I've watched it.
I came to a conclusion today. I live through music. I spoke in an older post about weird coincidences. Well, some stuff's happening right now for me, and I heard another song that fits perfectly with the situation. And it got me thinking, how many times has this happened to me... Every major event in my life has had a soundtrack. And I even have soundtracks of the day... So, I can draw the conclusion that music is a rather big part of my existence, isn't it? Besides this, every time something bad has happened to me, every time I've been between a rock and a hard place, I played these cheesy, silly, inappropriate songs in my head. For example, I once found out that I had to finish a project earlier than expected, and I didn't think that I could do that in the time I had left. Plus, it interfered with some exams I had to study for, and personal matters, also. The song I started playing in my head was "We've Only Just Begun" by The Carpenters. And I was scared out of my head... Another example is a serious scolding I got when I was little. My parents were really angry with me and shouting at me, whyle I was singing (in my head) "Yellow Submarine" by The Beatles. I think that in these cases, the cheesy, silly, inappropriate music acts as some kind of a defense mechanism. Anyway, I like music very much. Every time my computer was busted and I couldn't use it, I never missed the games, or the movies, or anything else but listening to music. And when my mp3 player ran out of power, I felt... sad. I like singing, and I would love to know how to play an instrument (and I like to think that I'll learn before I kick the bucket). Music is a big part of my life.