No specific topic so why limit myself?

I haven't written a blog in some time. Not for lack of time because I have an abundance. If not an excess. Anyway, I'm bored and I'm watching videos on youtube. I've never been much into auto racing but I have a new found respect for Formula 1 as of late. I can only speak for myself, but it seems like the only auto racing Americans are exposed to is NASCAR which I find unbelievably boring. The only time I find it remotely interesting is when they are racing on a road course. Only because they turn in a direction other than left. But Formula 1 is amazing. The technology put into each car. The amount of money, time, and effort put into each engine. And most important to me, the transmissions! When I hear a F1 car downshift before a corner, I am just simply awed. As opposed to NASCAR which uses technology from the 1950s. Iron blocks, carburetors, 4-speed manual transmissions, and pushrods. I really don't follow F1, mainly due to lack of coverage in the United States (though I'm guessing the races may be shown on Speed channel, I don't watch Speed either so that's why I say may be shown) though I do enjoy reading about it and watching videos of it on youtube. I also have a new found respect for Honda. I knew they were in F1 but I did not know that they first entered F1 in the 60s! I'm sorry about the incoherantness of this entry...

I'm a new found fan of "Lovers". Her singing is just so intense, the lyrics are deep and the music is simple and haunting at the same time. My favorite songs are "Winter takes a Lover" and "My Heart Never sleeps" (which I've listened to over 60 times according to last.fm). I could listen to both for hours on end. I need to get her latest CD...

I'm also in the writing mood. I started a story 2 months ago and I wrote A LOT over 2 days but I just gave up because I didn't see the point. I wasn't entirely passionate about it and I found out that I just liked to make up dialogue about how I would act in a given situation and write it down, rather than try and advance the story...I had high hopes for it though. I already named it which for me is the hardest part, "Churchill". The dialogue is so painful when I read it. I draw everything out rather than do anything interesting. I do think this excerpt is pretty good though.

"You looked at him the same way I looked at you. Just knowing that made me want to leave. Desperately scrape my memory of your face. Attempt to forget your face. Wince at everything that reminded me of you. Hate myself for not being something that you wanted, as if it were my fault. I know I shouldn't take it personally but I do and nothing is going to ever change that" He looked at her tears and continued. "I used to think that if I was nice to every one, smiled, brushed my teeth twice a day, then people would like me...I've found that not to be true. This experience, more than any other, has taught me to quit blaming myself for how other people are. And by other people, I mean you." James turned around, tried to ignore the intense sinking feeling of despair in his stomach and the palpable breaking of his own heart, and walked away from Corrine, knowing that this was the only outcome where either of them will be happy, by both being miserable.

And to have a happier ending to this post, the following is what I've been thinking for a long time but putting it out in daily conversation has yet to happen.

"Funny that you should mention that because I've been thinking about it for a while but I think it's just a question of economics. While I do enjoy boobs occasionally, asses are always there, not really hidden I guess." He picked up his latte, taking a quick sip, and then added, "as creepy as that sounds, but then again, I have my own theory and it relates somewhat to this”, adjusting himself in the chair, “boobs are sort of weird to begin with, what are guy’s fascination with them? I really believe that boob guys have an Oedipus complex going on or something. Furthermore, I believe that if there wasn’t such a social stigma attached to them being hidden away all the time, I don’t think that any one would even care about them but since they are hidden, as if they are special or something, and that is definitely not the case.”