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Welcome to 2012

I can't believe that it's been 9+ months since my last blog post. It's not like nothing has happened. I've just been on Facebook and Google+ a whole heck of a lot. It's been great getting in touch with so many old friends and making a few new ones.

Chapter 1: Buying a House
Yes, I'm a homeowner. It only took forty years to come around to buying that first house.

The process started a couple of years ago. That first visit to a mortgage broker was followed, the same day, by an announcement that my old employer was going to lay me off. It amounted to a twelve month setback: two months to find a job, ten months to replenish savings towards the down payment.

After that, it was time to think about buying again. And after that, interest rates started dropping, dropping, dropping. Finally, this past fall rates got low enough that they couldn't get much lower. House prices kept getting lower, but it's impossible to know when those things might ever stabilize.

Summer of 2011, it was time to bite bullet and restart the mortgage application process. It was easier filling out all those forms a second time, but it still takes time for the folks in charge to approve everything.

Once the powers that be gave the final nod, a search began for the perfect abode. It's a big undertaking if the perfect house doesn't usually just leap out at you. The perfect house literally leapt out at the perfect time. It was the right size, the right layout, the right location, and the right price.



The timing was absolutely right, too. It turns out that the real estate market is just about dead at summer's end, and we looked at this house the last weekend in August. Nobody else stopped by during the open house event. As luck would have it, the sellers were highly motivated to close the deal. Our offer said, "You're getting this much and no more." The sellers accepted right away, but the various mortgage entities needed another six weeks to get our deal finalized.

Granted, the place wasn't perfect. It needed plenty of rewiring. It needed a new stove. It needed a couple of leaks plugged in the roof. It didn't need any major work. It just needed a bunch of little fixes, which have added up. Don't get me wrong; it's all been worthwhile. The electrical system is much more stable. The stove is great (induction heat!), and roof doesn't leak now. Next up are insulation in the attic and, believe it or not, getting the hot tub in working order. After that, it's just gravy.

Chapter 2: Changing Neighborhoods
The old neighborhood, Greenwood, was home for about six years. It was an odd transition having had absolutely no personal context and non-ideal first impressions. Many of the houses were older, modular homes. Some were just plain run-down.

Then the good things in the neighborhood began to stand out. It has plenty of great restaurants, great bars, and tons of great people. One of Seattle's absolute best coffee shops, Natalie's Coffee, was just two blocks away and next door to Ashley's original doggy daycare. Even its parks have a special character to them. Good ol' Pocket Park is one of the coolest hangouts, and it's across the street from a very talented artist's house.

It wasn't easy leaving, but it was time to move on. Ergo, the move to West Seattle had to happen, reluctantly and resolutely. In spite of the homesickness, it's been a good move. It doesn't have Natalie's, but it has Dubsea. The Dish Café isn't right down the hill, but Easy Street is only five minutes away.

It's give-and-take. Mostly, it's worthwhile to give so I'll take it.

Chapter 3: The (Proverbially) Departed
It's a bummer moving away from old neighbors. A trip the old Greenwood neighborhood, though, happens with a very reasonable effort. Jenny, Jim, Anette, Mike, Betsy, and a ton of other friends are still in Greenwood or nearby. Some friends, however, aren't as close as all that now.

The biggest downer in the past year has been saying goodbye to a whole family. Friends Pat & Kate had to leave Seattle more than a year ago. Not that they traded down. Pat has a great job with a very cool company in Hood River, Oregon. Their daughter Tera, however, decided to stay here in West Seattle, where she'd bought a house not too long ago.

Tera is a very cool gal, who was until recently a close neighbor. As long as she was here, her folks would be up here now and again, too. And carpools down to Hood River with Tera sounded much more enjoyable than solo trips. Of course, it would figure that an irresistible job offer would come her way. And it did just as soon as we got our house squared away.

It's all for the best. Tera didn't much like her old lab job. She, therefore, tried an IT job. It turns out that Tera didn't like IT work so much and liked the entry-level paychecks even less. Fortunately, somebody called her about an interesting job, one that suited her tech savvy and her people skills.

In sum, Tera got offered a better salary... doing something more interesting... in San Diego, California. Seriously, how is she supposed to turn that down and not get committed to the sanitarium?

That's great for her, but it's a bummer from up here. Oh, well, that's just a reason to visit SoCal.

Epilogue
It's been fun moving in spite of the adjustments. Everybody that visits really likes the new house. Granted, others' opinions don't guarantee happiness, but the validation is nice.

Plus, it helps to visit out-of-town friends when Seattle's just not quite working anymore. In fact, New Year's was spent in Hood River, playing games, enjoying beer, and just having fun with Pat, Kate, Tera, Tera's fiancé Jeff, and their friend Krista. They're great folks, especially since they like my Swedish pancakes. chef

Yes, 2011 has been pretty good, but its departure was marked with some reluctance on my own part. It's just hard to let a good thing go. I even awoke reluctantly from my dream the morning of December 31st, 2011. In an unusual twist, I became aware of the fact that I was dreaming, took advantage of that realization, and started playing superhero. So, in my sleep-enabled imagination, I started flying all over the place and breathing underwater, impervious to the elements.

Seriously, y'all, I was a total badass and my Subaru was a submarine with a warp drive. That's ten kinds of cool!

In light of everything else that's been going on, how cool is it to end the year with a lucid dream?

The first day of Spring 2011

I tried. I really tried. It just didn't work out as I'd planned.

Okay, there was a race yesterday in Sequim, Washington (pronounced /ˈskwɪm/).

Getting there is not complicated, but it can become difficult in a hurry. It requires driving your car onto a ferry bound for Kingston, Washington, on the western side of Puget Sound. From Kingston, it's an easy drive to Sequim. Getting onto the ferry is usually easy, but yesterday saw an unusually large number of vehicular patrons. One of the other ferries was out of commission, and the Kingston terminal was its designated detour.

What would otherwise have been enough time to get onto the noon ferry did not suffice. After leaving in plenty of time to make it, I literally missed the boat.

It was actually fine, though. I went back home and managed to get Steph out the door for her first ride since last October. That was worth a race to me, and it was a fitting end to the last day of winter. As for today, the Vernal Equinox was a mixed bagged that turned out very well in the end.

This morning, on the way to my team ride, it was sunny and just as warm as it had been all day yesterday. It occurred to me, though, that one of the cleats on my cycling shoes needed replacing. It's not easy to ride when your foot keeps coming unclipped from the pedal. After leaving in plenty of time to make it, I proverbially missed the boat.

Fortunately, though, one bike shop in Seattle is open early on Sunday. The guys at Veloce Velo hooked me up when nobody else would have. Speaking of which, they have a great shop over there on Mercer Island. That little uptick was a welcome addition to the morning's sunshine, which is supposed to come with the new season. Its timing was a little out of sync with the weather, though.

For whatever reason, the climate's caprice was suddenly prone towards the dismal. Soon after starting my ride, things just went gray overhead. An hour into this morning's two-and-a-half hour ride, it looked like it sorta, kinda, maybe coulda rained. My resolve was to ride hard, and the weather was certainly helping that. Some of that resolve might have come from my not having brought a rain jacket...

How can you not love this view?In the end, it was a great ride along the May Valley loop. Actually, that loop is good on a bad day. There isn't much traffic, and there are horse farms with views of the Cascade Mountains.

May Valley Road is a great country road just outside the city.

The ride ended without rain. It was followed with a trip to Noah's Bagels, which is the best darned place for a post-ride repast. The food isn't bad either.

After that, our humble household had a decent day of TV watching (NCAA basketball tournament games, LA Marathon highlights, and Harry Potter movies) followed by dinner with friends Tori and Courtney. I can't critique anybody else's meal, but my beet salad and pizza were amazing. The day's dénouement was was dessert: after forty hilly miles this morning, I seriously earned that panna cotta with blackberry sauce. Thank you, spring, and welcome back!

A video triptych

This is the story, in three parts, of a lost roll of film and how it started an incredible adventure for some happenstance friends.

Part I

Part II

Part III

How I started 2011

This is a post that I authored a couple of months ago.

And I subsequently forgot to publish it. Hence, you are now seeing my "new" blog post... sixty days after the fact.

I started the year 2011 by getting hijacked from winning a game of Settlers of Catan, specifically Seafarers with Cities and Knights variation.

Shortly after midnight, my gaming companions Steph, Pat, and Kate declared a collective leave of absence from our late night nerd-fest. This would not have been a big deal except for a trio of bothersome things:

a) Steph had won the first game
2) I was well on my way to winning the second game
d) Steph packed up the board before we could resume the second game.

It actually induced nightmarish thoughts in me. I dreamt about retaking high school English and failing a test that we'd already taken. I was snoring away in Nappy Land, suddenly unable to recognize anything from a list of stories I'd (supposedly) just read. On top of that, we had all taken the test the day before and aced it.

For a nerd, the worst possible scenario is failing a total gimme test.

Pat and I made up for it, though. We went for a nice bike ride in full view of Oregon's world famous Hood River. He and his wife Kate aren't fully enthused at moving out of Seattle after umpteen years, but they've traded up in a few ways. For one, they're in a beautiful part of the world. It's also much slower-paced than city life. And the recreation is easier to get to. Plus, Pat seems to like his job most days.

He and Kate might feel a bit better were they closer geographically to their daughter Tera, who still lives four hours away in Seattle. Although, their "little girl" is okay with them not being just around the corner all the time. Her folks are great people, it's just the typical adult onset of that "mommy, daddy, gimme some space"-syndrome that everybody gets.

Mostly, we had a really great time hanging with some great friends. Pat and Kate, we're not supremely excited that you're so far away, but we're more than happy to see y'all doing so well.

And we send many thanks for a great start to the new year!

Lordy, lordy! Look who's forty!

Yup, it finally happened Sunday, December 5, 2010. I made to the end of my fourth decade of life, which means that the fifth has begun. Yikes!

The weekend was non-stop for Steph and me both. We'd planned on doing something for my fortieth birthday, but it was kind of up in the air just what that something would be. Given her hectic, end-of-the-academic-term schedule, I wouldn't dare to think of letting her put on a surprise party. She offered, though! The idea is kinda cool, but the reality was just too much. I had to help out. Without her at the helm, though, things just would not have been the same. Thanks, baby!

The birthday weekend really started on Thursday night. A FedEx package showed up on our front porch. It was from an old college friend, Alicia, a very talented artist. She has quite the knack with a swatch of cloth and spool of thread. Many months ago, I had asked her for the privilege of commissioning a quilt. Alicia promised that was going to have fun combining bicycles and Boston terriers, two of my favorite things, into a quilt.

She didn't let me commission it after all. It just showed up right before my birthday. Maybe that was her plan, maybe not. It doesn't matter because that's how it felt: like an amazingly, lovingly crafted birthday present. Merci beaucoup, Alicia!

Saturday's party had an '80s theme, lots of barbecue, cupcakes, and friends aplenty at our humble abode. The '80s themed attire was optional, but quite a few people did dress up. Steph broke out the leggings, an oversized sweater, and a sideways ponytail. I opted for the short-sleeved T-shirt (Einstein T-shirt, which dates to my high school days!) over the mismatched long-sleeved T-shirt with pinch-rolled jeans. Some others dressed similarly in trench coats, oversized tops, and sartorial memorabilia from more than two decades ago. The king and queen of the party, though, were Dave and Diana: they dressed up as Blake Carrington and Alexis Colby from Dynasty. They were simply as fabulous as possible.

The funny thing was that some people glossed over the '80s theme in the announcement. When they first laid eyes on Steph and me, we had to assure them, "No, we haven't been in a fashion coma for 25 years. We really meant to dress like this!"

There was no question that it was a great party. The food was a hit. The '80s music was a hit. The cupcakes were a hit. We even got to see our beloved Huskies win the Apple Cup!

The best part, though, was hearing from family and friends. Those that couldn't come to Seattle called, emailed, texted, and/or posted to Facebook. Just knowing that somebody is thinking of you means so much!

Thanks to everybody for coming over and reaching out, it was an awesome night because of you!

Friday night in Seattle

It's another exciting Friday night in Seattle!

That's the rumor at my house, but nobody is trying to validate it. Steph and I have been chillaxin' with Ashley and the DVR's plethora of recorded shows. It just seemed like a good night to stay in. Part of it is due to the sudden drop in temperatures, and part of it is due to the time change. The end of daylight savings time means that it gets dark here before 5:00 PM. Yeah, it's a trade-off for the 17 hours of daylight in summer but still...

So... what's been going on with me? Well, I'm about to print and then drop off my dissertation at the Graduate School. It's not a perfect document, but it's good enough according to my reading committee. It seems like dissertations are generally that way. Not all of them are, of course. I just mean, like, 99% of them. One professor told me that he found his dissertation in the library, put a $20 bill in it, then retrieved that same bill a few years later.

There really is no way a single document can do my doctorate any justice anyway. So many things happened along the way. PhD Comics paints a somewhat jaded view of graduate students' lives and outlooks. It's exaggerated but not wholly out of line with the reality of working on a doctorate. For instance, you find the wherewithal to puzzle over questions like this one.

We actually had these kinds of conversations.


I'm very glad to have spent time in that environment. We worked hard. We played hard. We got a pass on things we shouldn't have.

For example, there was a fire in one of the labs at 10 o'clock on a Friday night. What were we doing to set the lab on fire? Nothing. It was freak accident, but we were downing many beers in the grad student lounge when it happened. Police and fire came in short order, promptly escorting everybody out of the building.

This caught us unawares, but we had the presence of mind to load the beer coolers onto some roll-away carts. Carts that we rolled out in front of the building. And we drank many more beers on the front lawn while the authorities cleared the scene. Normally, that would have been a point of contention for the university police. Drinking alcohol in a common area near an emergency response crew is a no-no. We got a pass because we were much more responsible than our undergrad counterparts.

Yeah, right.

School is behind me now with this new career, and some old habits are beneath me. For instance, no longer do I childishly drink beer from bottles in the grad student lounge. Rather, we professionals quaff fine microbrews dispensed from the kegerators in the company office. Database work rules!

When I'm not working, I'm going to get on the bike and do some winter training this year. The past few winters have been write-offs either due to injury, illness, or circumstance. Racing is fun as long as you're in shape enough to do it, which has not been the case for me. No worries, just riding is plenty of fun, too.

I suppose that a little more focus on writing won't hurt either. This blog is five (5) years old (already!), and ideas still keep coming.

Two other hobbies in need of my attention are rock climbing and playing my guitar. The climbing part is going to take a little getting used to. It's still a little nerve-wracking after that fall last winter, but being paralyzed with fear doesn't enable anything positive. Playing music has been fun again already, but I'd like to learn some new songs this winter.

We'll see how it all goes.

Purty, ain't she?

Things really do change

I just got off the phone a while ago with an old friend. He had some unbelievable news: Tom is married.


Tom O (not his real last name, just his last initial) was one of my best friends in college. Tom and I complemented each other a little too well in many regards. He was always willing to push the envelope, and I was always willing to help him with his endeavors. Success comes from pushing yourself anyway, right? whistle

The two of us got into all kinds of mischief, the usual college stuff. We could have gotten into way more trouble had it not been for our so-called "people skills": we talked our way out of a few jams here and there.

Probably the worst thing about us hanging out was the way we complemented each other. Tom always had ideas and ambitions. I found a way to make it happen. For example, Tom had it in his head that we should summit Halliburton Tower. It's a secured structure with several locked doors and an alarm system.

I got us to the top of Halliburton. 'Nuff said.

We both knew how not to get caught. Although sometimes, like when you're drinking beers on a rooftop, it pays to be friends with the campus police. Well, what do ya know? Those guys were all friends of mine.

None of this, though, factors in the fairer sex. In college, every girl with a pulse knew who Tom was. I was his wingman, a highly coveted position. He could meet women anywhere, which meant that I could meet women anywhere that I went with Tom. Then again, I did introduce him to quite a few girls, too.

Yeah, it sounds bad. In truth, I can't have any regrets. None of the mistakes haunt me or anybody else. The folks that were along for the ride had fun, too. When time comes to reminisce, everybody laughs. And you can't feel bad about putting a smile on somebody's face.

The inevitable came to pass when we had to go our separate ways. Tom moved out of Memphis, but I stayed put. In some ways, our separate paths have been parallel. We both went back to school. We both gave serial monogamy a serious try. We both wound up in cities completely different from anywhere we'd ever lived before.

We also both got married. More than a few old friends heard of my nuptials and said the same thing, "Seriously, dude? YOU got married?!" Tom broke the news to me, and I said, "Seriously, dude? YOU?!"

Now he's in Minneapolis, and I'm in Seattle. We're still in touch thanks to technology. Were we to live in the same city, though, we'd likely not be engaged in the extensive shenanigans of yesteryear. Seeing as my in-laws live in Minnesota, though, my college buddy and I will have to test that hypothesis. devil

Okay, we'll probably just wind up playing cards, talking about sports and the good ol' days while our wives banter. It's all good, though. We can't go back to those college days. Although, the older we get, the cooler we were.

I'm finally done

Back in the spring of 2000, I was looking for a job here in Seattle and started calling professors at the University of Washington to get a gauge of the local market for somebody with an undergraduate degree in chemistry, i.e., for me. Professor Charlie Campbell encouraged me to apply to the PhD program at the University of Washington's chemistry department, but I had some very valid misgivings about my own ability to live up to their expectations.

I'm pretty smart, but the entire undergraduate experience was sort of lost on me academically. That happened because I was completely unaware of my own ADHD. I was studying and learning but not performing up to my potential, which makes sense in light of an undiagnosed learning disability. You don't pound nails with a screwdriver and expect it to go well.

I opted to defer one year and started classes in the autumn of 2001. It was a good decision to wait, too. Some different study habits and a few other changes made a big difference, but little about grad school came to me easily. It was a very difficult time just because of the kinds of demands that graduate level research presents. I definitely would have done some things differently given the opportunity to do it all again, but none of that matters now.

I had three projects as a grad student: one didn't work at all, another one sort of worked, and one worked well, and mine is not an atypical track record. I've seen people graduate after nearly nothing worked in their entire body research projects. Partway through my doctoral program, something of tremendous personal importance came to light: I hate being in the lab unless things are going really well. And in research, things don't go well most of the time.

That iota of lucidity made me rethink everything. It also opened up a whole new set of questions, all of which resonated with the self-same sentiment: besides science, what else am I gonna do? It turns out that the answer had been staring back at me the entire time in the form of a computer screen. The Java programming class, which I'd taken for no apparent reason, was a lot of fun: I wanted to develop software.

I managed secure a job writing code and working on databases right after getting permission to write my dissertation in the spring of 2007. Writing full time is a great privilege, but I had a job offer that might never come up a second time. It wasn't the best timing. It helps when epiphanies exercise some punctuality. Mine came late in the grad school game, which was good and bad. This new career could have begun sooner, but my transcript would have read ABD for the rest of my life. That's an acceptable outcome assuming that you don't care, which I always have.

Despite my not being a fan of advice, I'll say this: it's a bad idea to write a dissertation while working full time. You might finish, but it will take a long time (three years for me), and the final product won't be what it could be. Some parts of my writing are sub-par. My committee, however, said it was good enough for me to pass.

My friend Mary Ann said, "[P]assed is passed." I say the past is in the past, but some dissertation edits are imminent. It's fine if it's not perfect, but I don't want it to be bad. Admittedly, I care about it that much right now. We'll see how I feel in a few more weeks. No matter what, though, that PhD never goes away. The uncertainty about not finishing will never return. From here on out, I'm planning to stay the current course and work on being a better programmer... or maybe a teacher again... or an astronaut... just not a chemist anymore. One more time, I want to thank anybody and everybody that helped me along the way. This includes all of the people that entered UW's physical chemistry PhD track with me back in 2001: the study sessions and peer-tutoring made all of the difference. My first advisor, Phil Reid, fully deserves his reputation as a luminary researcher and a great teacher (Seriously, dude, you rock!). Antao Chen gave me the opportunity to keep going when others would not have. He also gave me a lot of opportunities to take the reins and lead the lab. That's an invaluable opportunity. Alvin Kwiram mentored me at some key points in my academic career. Other fellow students, Phil Sullivan in particular, were crucial to my continuation in grad school. The guys in the nuclear medicine lab - Ken Krohn, John Garner, Steve Shoner, Jeff Posakony, and Aaron Charlop - pointed me in the right direction when it came time to make a very big decision. Last and not least but most of all, thanks to my wife Steph who made the biggest difference. I wasn't sure about graduating in the end, but she said, "I think you want to finish." She was right. The final outcome didn't mesh with my initial ambitions, but it's better than I'd anticipated in many ways.

Remember the Star Wars kid?

You might not have seen this video once or twice... or a few dozen times before. Seriously, it only came out online eight years ago! In case you've been living under a rock since then, please watch the video below.



Just in case you're feeling sorry for the boy, he's doing all right now. Ghyslain Raza began his tour of involuntary celebrity via some school bullies, who got sued but good.

As for Ghyslain, he's moved on with his life. In fact, he's in law school at McGill University and is working to preserve the French culture of his home region in Québec. In sum, the article explains Raza's vision for Patrimoine Trois-Rivières, an organization that just elected him its president.

After all that strife and ridicule, he's managed to reinvent himself quite handily.

Bonne chance, M. Raza!

Oh, please!

A so-called publication was recently brought to my attention: 21st Century Science & Technology. A quick read suggests that they might not know what they're talking about. For example, here's their mission statement:
21st Century Science & Technology magazine challenges the assumptions of modern scientific dogma, including quantum mechanics, relativity theory, biological reductionism, and the formalization and separation of mathematics from physics. We demand a science based on constructible (intelligible) representation of concepts, but shun the simple empiricist or sense-certainty methods associated with the Newton-Galileo paradigm.

Oh, please! Where do they get the idea that modern science is based in dogma? Dogmatic ideas are based on fundamental beliefs that are deemed above reproach and beyond question. Quantum mechanics and relativity have withstood decades of scrutiny. They are still in use because nobody can disprove them, and because no other explanations have worked nearly as well. That's not dogmatic.

Biological reductionism is more philosophy than science, but one of its central tenets is that human behavior cannot stem from biological factors. Apparently, people suffer from Alzheimer's and schizophrenia by choice.

The next item on my soapbox agenda is their desire to separate math from physics. I would be very interested to know how anybody could think that this is possible. Physics is a mathematical science. It can begin with generalizations like Newton's law of gravitation: masses are attracted to each other. The motions of the planets, though, can only be explained with math. Most of physics' biggest discoveries have happened because they were predicted mathematically: the existence of antimatter, gravitational lensing, the laser, etc.

The last sentence in the mission statement gets my goat. They honestly want to accomplish their goals without using the scientific method. If they don't perform controlled experiments, how can they draw reliable conclusions?

In a way, this agenda is fine by me; it's fatally flawed. These folks are shooting themselves in the foot before they get out of the gate. What bothers me, though, is that people believe this drivel because scientific illiteracy is so high. It's partly my fault for not staying in education, although my time as a teacher was well spent. Some of my former students have gone on to medical school and grad school.

In fact, I ran into one of them the other night. John was a student of mine a few years ago, unsure of his decision to study geology. He's going to start his Ph.D. in geology this fall at the University of Alaska-Fairbanks, where his specialty will be extraterrestrial volcanology. John's advisor wants him to model volcanic activity on Venus.

Maybe if I go back to teaching, a few less people will buy into this kind of mindset. Hmmm... maybe it's a good thing I'm teaching a class this fall. I'll let you know how it goes.