traveler

Searching aloneness
I know this word for a long time, a word which has the most powerful meaning, aloneness is a state of mind where you find joy within yourself and enjoying your presence on earth. I was searching a better meaning for life, I was searching for a better explanation for God, to be sincere I am not satisfied with the sense I learned about God.
I begin by aloneness and now my hands stretching on the idea of God, I see the sense for this stretching as the aloneness only can be enjoyed by the presence of God. The soul was burning of unawareness and misery of life,a child hood of insecurity and misery, wasn’t able to fight for happiness in that house.

The child grown up seeing suicides,crime,fight,police,drugs and drunken people ,Moments of happiness were bubbles in water it just lasted for seconds ,There wasn’t any fight for happiness until the age of sixteen just lived like a bad omen as they used to call,…I can’t write more may be one day I will today I am unable to go on…my thoughts dried and words refuse to come out as they know it will only bring tears…I will write the story one day I thought it today ,may be it’s the beginning…yeah..one day I will
It’s just space for me to shed my tears as I search aloneness
I search for aloneness …
To find better awareness for life…

Digging my dreams
Let me dig my dreams again, where
My wild things buried
Let me take that flower away where
My tomb stands
Let me born again where
I can smile again
Make a flower from the blood
Poured from my heart
Place it in your heart and say
He born again to smile
But as you know I wished to fly
And let’ say the bird flew away far away from us…

Yes, I got the beginning

I was wondering what I have to write or why I have to write.As always it should happen because My feelings became Just a word with no meaning.Or No right to have feelings!

Its Just aloneness...

I am standing in the valley of butterflies where I can only see the beauty of them I don't dare to touch them they are so fragile like my smile.

The valley is full of butterfly,they all have blue wings ,so fragile but they are awesome...
The wind was very caring,
My eyes were closed and I had a smile,if I open I will be out of the valley that was the rule.I didn't open my eyes because I didn't wanted to get out from there
The wind agreed it will take me back to the mountains but it was murmuring something to my ears,I paid attention to hear what he was saying

'The Valley is for your mind,The mountain is for your smile'

Yes Now I am smiling

'The wind said back to mountains'

I opened my eyes

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I was flying through the clouds on my way back,I searched you among the clouds...you told me heaven is here in these clouds where the souls joins for eternity...I couldn't see you...why? or are you still playing with me...?

Once you told me You are here to save me from dangers...and Once you saved me when I was drowning into the water, But where you went now with out saying anything to me...See I am still afraid to go to river
I am your little brother...don't you care?

My brother,When I came back Nothing changed here,The music still flowing here,people walks fast through the street as they always do, and it seems like they are always late for something...I thought, with out you the world is no more worthy to live...But can you see that Old man playing his flute...I felt he is a lonely warrior,he don't care about others,he just wanted to play his flute and I feel he knows what I am thinking while I am listening to his flute...I think Like me, people remember things and feels them,I wonder he knows the thoughts of me...because he plays like he knows my pain and it touch my soul and takes me to your smile...

Oh brother See the Red bus still have people in it and they all have music on their soul they are travelers and they don't know about you...Can you see them smiling ?

If I go on I know You will be with me ,I know you care But why you forget to care about you?

Nothing Changed here brother...Only you changed...You decided to go far...far..far away from smiles and tears...

I am smiling again...I smile for our dear ones...I hope we born again In the same womb but this time things will change...I will be your brother because you always goes dangers and I will save you ...Next Janam Its My Karma to be your Brother ...I know you are waiting...