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发个MM写的散文:无法复杂,纯色也情色

题记:这是MM参加某征文时写的,很用心的写了我们相识相恋到一起生活的故事,已开始不给我看,当我看到的时候半天没说出话来……

   想起情色,就想起张曼玉窈窕的腰身和百变的旗袍,梁朝伟复杂的而深沉眼色,章子怡的冷若冰霜和如火的热情。情色,是华服美衣,是灯火绚烂下俊男靓女们的波光流转,暗香浮动,婉转情长。情色,似乎从来就和我这样一个其貌不扬默默无闻的小女生没有任何关系。 直到有一天有发现一句话说:心情,是有颜色的,你今天的心情是什么颜色的呢,写信告诉我?

  

   心突突的跳起来,阳光的颜色是什么?水的颜色是什么?清新的空气的颜色是什么?我的心情的颜色什么?世界是个万花筒,我在这个万花筒中,每天都有新的发现,我是个小万花筒,别人可以看到我的外在的时候其实很普通,可是谁又能掩饰心中繁花绽放的季节和万木萧条的内心季节呢?有情的人,一定有五彩斑斓的内心世界,每个人都有最真的情最美的色,深沉也罢纯净也罢。

    小时候喜欢想像自己是灰姑娘或人鱼公主,总会遇见小王子;心情是彩虹的颜色。

    长大一点,喜欢年轻瘦削的语文老师,心情是春天的草地的颜色;

    初中,和男生不说话,但是喜欢观察学习第一总穿西服的男生,不知是好感还是好胜,反正关注的目的就是在成绩上超过他,赢得所有人的关注,心情是拔节的庄稼的颜色;

    高中,青春期的乖乖女是很难过的,有条条框框的束缚又有更多的不解,于是彷徨,心情是雨季开花的谷穗的颜色;
   大学,早已练就了来去如风的性格,喜欢做大女生,喜欢自主自己的一切,心情如八月的骄阳希望尽快把自己烤熟。

   大学里,总该有些偶遇,让你怦然心动,艺术系的小男生,帅的一塌糊涂,大家公认的长得像陆毅,而我觉得比陆毅还漂亮。遇见了不知道是不是对的,于是先避开静思,那个初秋的午后,独坐在二楼的自习室,心潮仍然是澎湃的,到底自己想要遇见的人是什么样子的呢?忽然楼下嘈杂起来,哦,原来是老乡班长带着他班同学来清理楼下的小树林,嗯,看老乡指挥同学分配工作,然后拿起一把扫帚有模有样的干了起来,有条有理,踏踏实实。恍然让我见到了父亲母亲在田中默契的耕耘的影子。突然心中就像一个封存多年的温泉开始翻滚,原来的心猿意马不见了,这股暖流发自心中,流遍全身,仿佛有一个声音在说:这就是我想要的感觉。

    在对的时候遇见对的人是一种幸福,而我在不对的时候遇见了对的人,他有青梅竹马的女友在异地守望。没成熟的杏子,很苦很涩,无语,祝福,然后走开。

    毕业了,半熟的玉米决定远航,因为其实还是了无牵挂,来去如风。也想如风般流浪,也想如水退去般不给这片土地留下自己的痕迹......

    手机是这个世界上最奇妙的东西,手指最能泄漏心中的秘密,能把很多不可能变成可能。本来只是同窗,可以变成好友,只是好友,可以变成夫妻。他遥望了两年的美满姻缘,却不料望穿秋水盼来的相聚早已变了滋味。我有闲云野鹤的心思却总掩不住人在异乡的思绪。本来只是简单的问候,但是每次都要连续发到每天必发的短信变的越来越多,每天必打的电话时间越来越长,温暖的南方四季鲜花灿烂,没有秋的痕迹,没有冬的凛冽.


    我的初恋在悄无声息中不期而至。当每个月短信量达到了几千条,电话费快要占到工资的一半的时候,他来了,把我带回到北方温暖的冬天里,南燕北归,因为有未了的心愿,只知道如果受伤了自己会死心,如果没尝试自己会后悔。每个女人都是赌徒,感觉是最大的筹码,相信的那一刻做好了所有的准备。 当再次站在北京的寒风中时,我确切的知道,我回来了,有些许的茫然。

    

    初时的生活是艰难的,因为我还要找工作,他的工资也很低,每个月要算计每一分钱怎么花,每个月都打算着可以从哪里借到些钱,哪些钱该还了。

    初时的摩擦是痛苦的,我总觉得自己像被束缚了的风筝,飞不起来,又挣不断这根线。两个人的未来比一个人的要难想像的多,我总在问怎么办怎么办?他亦无法回答,只说会好起来会好起来,要坚持!

    白天,我游走于人才市场和挑剔的面试主考官之间,夜晚,他会尽量早的跑回家,然后一起做饭,一天中,只有这一顿饭是幸福时刻。

    遇到问题时我总习惯于想的很严重,然后两个人抱头痛哭,有点好事情时,我们总是想的无比美好,然后延伸到很远很远去勾画美好的未来,想的两个人都陶醉时会有一个人晃着另一个人说:醒醒醒醒,别老做白日梦,然后两个人都吃吃的笑起来。

    我是从来不会做饭的,在他的鼓舞下开始尝试,其实每道菜总是做的很烂,但是他会一边说好吃一边吃的精光,然后还一边抹嘴一边说样子不太好看但是真的很好吃啊,于是我就信以为真而且信心倍增!

    开始时,我生气,他会讲很多很多笑话哄我笑,我很生气时,他就躲在一边写信给我,然后悄悄塞给我,我非常生气时他会自己哭的比我还大声,然后我就会去哄他。事后我问他为什么那么大声的哭,他说:因为我发现我哭了你就会不生气过来哄我。现在呢,好像我俩好久没生气了,我也只会假装生气了。

    他总会在我长途旅行前为我装好背包,装上我所有需要的东西然后一样一样的告诉我,顺便偷偷塞几个有甜言蜜语的小纸条。

    我从来不分东南西北,和他一起后更严重了,因为我只要负责往前走,他负责把我领回家。我原来空间感不强,现在完全没有了,因为他会用各种方式给展示想像中的东西。我自己的东西容易放的乱乱的,每次自己都找不到在哪,他总能一下子就找到。

    那时兜里的钱总是很少,有时等不到公交车,又没钱打车时我总是很绝望。我有一次赌气自己走了十几站回家,他后来给我叠了一个小纸盒放在包包里,里面装了50元钱,说这是我的锦囊,平时不许打开,只有等不到公交车时才可以用来打车回家。

    他坚信我们的日子会好起来,我每次都被他的坚定和耐性说服,抓住他温暖的手走了1000多个日夜。

 

    毕业三年,在一起三年,我们虽然还不是富有,但是已经开始筑巢了。 我的初恋,我的第一个男朋友,三年后的月圆之后的那天变成的我的合法丈夫。

    无法有复杂的恋爱经历,无法知道别的男生如何对女生,反正,我就这么一个,就这么一次,将初恋进行到底,这辈子会不会有点单调呢?有时自己偷偷偷偷的这样想,呵呵。

    “我无法做红玫瑰或白玫瑰了,只能做你的白开水,不浓烈不醉人不上火,希望在你口干舌燥时我在你身边” 领证那天我特意穿了粉红粉红的公主裙和带红花的黑漆小皮鞋,让别人以为他拐骗幼女!谁叫你拼命宠着来?只有在你面前我是公主,是哭鼻子耍赖的小女生。 

 

    装修时,我选特纯粹的颜色,卧室是满屋子的白底带小红花和小黄花,客厅壁纸是青青的翠竹,橱柜是金黄金黄的颜色,浴室柜是火的红色。虽然有时也有些底气不足,好像一点艺术细胞都没有的搭配,但是我相信我不会有很多机会选择这么纯粹的颜色了,也许,只是也许,下次装房子我已经变成成熟的女人了呢?

告别未婚男人群体

公元2007年9月26日,农历8月16日,本人携恋爱三年的女友在北京市东城区婚姻登记处领取了结婚证。我也正式进入了已婚男人行列。在此纪念一下,放几个礼炮……:heart: :heart:

Shanghai, my nightmare

I came to Shanghai on Monday. Then the nightmare began...

I came to Shanghai on Monday. Then the nightmare began...

I was almost unable to go back the terrible times. I can take the busy work in my hand freely, but I can't bear stomach-ache and the pain of enteritis.

I did not know what I eat was bad. But I felt worse and worse. Eary in the Tuesday morning, I got up and rush to washing room. I tried to throw up everything in my stomach, but I failed. Because of diarrhea, I had to rush into washing room time and time again. I did not eat anything at breakfast.
When I went to the office with Andy and Xu, I found Andy had the same status with me.

In the discussion meeting, Andy and I rushed out to the toilet in turns. The meeting had to be interrupted time and time again.

After the meeting, Andy felt so bad that he had to go back to the hotel to have a rest. I worked until luch time.
Marcus called me to lunch, but I did not want to eat anything. I drunk a lot of water, however, I did not feel good. I called Andy to ask if he felt better than morning or not.
He said he had a temprature. I felt cold too. Then I went back to hotel and tried to sleep a moment.

One hour later, I got up. It was a bad hour. I turned from one side to another side on bed. I could not find a comfortable posture. I felt cold, then I felt hot, and then cold came back.
I went out the hotel and tried to find a pharmacy store. It was wet and hot on the street. I felt worse ans worse, but I could not find a pharmacy store. I went into KFC and ask for tow glasses of hot water.
Thanks the kind waitress, she gave me the warter. I took the water to hotel. Then I called Xu and ask him to find some medicin from the office first-aid kit. I went to Andy's room and wait Xu comming back.

Andy was a little batter at that time. But I felt very very cold.

When Xu came back. I could not bear the bad feeling. We planed to go to hospital. I got up and walked to the lift difficultly.

Besides the hospital gate, I struggled to walk by myself, but I failed.

After I sat down in doctor's room. I tried to throw up, but I did not. It was an oppressive pain in my stomach. I hand the chair with all my power, and the sweat broke my skin and soaked into my T-Shirt.
I asked the doctor to treat me as soon as possible... Please, please...
I saw MM in my eyes, she said something, but I could not hear of them. Then I did not remember how could I lie on the bed in doctor's room.
...
...

It was absolute a bad memory. Shanghai, it is easy to say that I hate you!

Thank you Xu! Thank you Andy! I do not know what would I be without you. Thanks!
Thank you baby, you are with me together anytime and eanywhere. You are in my eyes, my hart, every parts of my body.




My love

My love
You are the moon in the sky
I am a lonely child
It is your eyes
Give me warm from my toes to my head

My love
You are the beautiful rose
I am the wide soil
With my smooth inarm
Give you a happy life

Oh my love

我的宝宝 --

宝宝是我的女朋友,有时候我叫她MM,有时候叫她姐姐。
今天是她的生日。
我和宝宝认识七年了,正式在一起也已经三年。
三年时间不长,但对我而言就更为短暂。和宝宝一起是快乐的,可能时间就被缩短了。

宝宝很高,173cm,比我还高那么一点点,也就是这一点点,穿上高跟鞋的她在和我并肩走的时候就可以搂住我的肩膀啦,每每笑着对我说,“看,这样有感觉吧!”即便走在大街上,我并未感到难为情,我对宝宝说,别人一看就知道,我是一个大款,而你是被我包养的小妹妹……

宝宝很耍赖,在回家的路上总是喊着“困死我了,回家就洗澡睡觉”,然后回了家就打开电视,一直看。后来困了,就开始耍赖不去洗澡,但总是被我硬从床上拖起来去洗澡。洗完澡回来竟然还能接着看……

宝宝很好养的,宝宝有一个大优点就是对吃没有特别要求,什么大鱼大肉啦,统统的不惧。呵呵,在一起吃饭多省事儿啊。

宝宝会做饭,她做的相当不错,而且也总能弄出新花样的东西(虽然有时候属于大胆尝试)。但谁让我的厨艺更好呢,于是大多时候厨房就交给我了。偶尔我们会因为一道菜的做法而起点争论,呵呵,这时候我向来慷慨,就让给她做啦。

宝宝热爱学习,她在北外读网大,想再读一个商务英语的学位。经常是趴在床上,登录beiwaionline的网站学习,然后眼睛盯着电视。即使这样,每学期的期末考试还都考的不错。

宝宝是个冒失鬼,经常不小心撞到各类东西上,门啊,自行车啊,桌子角啊,撞了也就撞了,但是宝宝可是细皮嫩肉的啊,一幢就制造了一块青紫色的皮肤,好久都褪不下去,于是宝宝的腿上往往一个刚下去,又撞一个新的。每次都把我心疼的不行,然后她就摸这我的头,说“一个屁孩子,你知道啥”。

宝宝的牙不太好,某一次她在北大口腔里面左右两面同时治疗,医生吓坏了,说“你厉害,左右开攻啊……”,于是宝宝喝了两个星期的小米粥。喝水要用吸管,喝粥也要用超级小的小勺子。还好那一段我恰好失业在家,宝宝被我伺候的很好。但是左右开攻的治疗方法已经载入史册,成为MM的光辉历史。

宝宝做事很认真,工作中的她很是认真,事情总能做的很好,但是宝宝是一个不爱表现自己的人。她经常看见别人如何表现自己,老板很开心,甚至还中伤她,于是就很生气,但她自己做不来这种事。我知道宝宝是很难改变的,所以我每次都用安慰的方式把她的气平息掉,第二天宝宝就又继续努力工作啦。有时候真的很心疼宝宝。

宝宝和我在一起的生活变得越来越好了。刚毕业的时候我们几乎每月负债,还要还我在大学的学费。现在依然不是有钱人,但至少不再为生活发愁了。我们的负债比以前多几十倍,因为买了一个小房子,准备着要装修。我不想让宝宝插手,因为装修是一个充满甲醛的世界,有危险的事情都让男人来吧。

宝宝很疼我,在我生病的时候,她总是细心照顾,她为我做各种好吃的。我躺在床上,从她的眼神中总能看到温柔的关切。

宝宝也很会开导我,每当我有不顺心的时候,她都会对我说,“姐姐永远支持你,大不了我养着你!”,于是我在工作上勇往直前无所畏惧。人都说,每一个成功男人的背后都有一个伟大的女人。我还不成功,但已经拥有一个伟大的女人了,后面的事,你说呢?

宝宝是我的女朋友,我准备把女朋友升级为老婆,演绎一辈子夫妻剧场。

宝宝,哥哥祝你生日快乐!



I will go to Shanghai for a business trip next week

I will be staying in Shanghai for two weekes.

When did I become a script programmer?

I am a lazy man. I can't bear bed tools. They often waste me several hours a day. The terrible usage, functions, and disordered results... all of these drive me mad.

When I met this kind of tools in this company. I rather spent a day to modify tools to make it a little more better, or write a new one directly. Some of these tools were designed by Bash, some others were designed by Perl or othere script language. I wrote some tools to make my work a little more easier than before.

When did I become a script programmer? I do not know. Maybe I should mark all my scripts as "Script for easy life". :smile:

Complain

I do not know when did I begin to complain. To complain the weakly world, the unfair society; To complain it is hard to earn money, but there are more and more unreasonable fee; To complain the terrible hot, complain the Hair's bad service... everything.

Why? Why do I complain about all of these? Shit!!!

At the end, LSI sells Cunsumer product group(CPG) to Magnum

Is it a good news or a bed one? Who knows? Whatever, I know it is none of my business after I left LSI Logic. I have paid attention to semiconductor news for many years. I often go though LSI news even I have left this company. The CPG's performance is not very good. At the end of 2006, after LSI acquired Agere, the CPG took 20 percents of LSI's total income. And 80 percents of this 20 percents income is from Agere Mobile device business line. What a shame!

I heard the news that Magnum will acquire LSI CPG product line from a original workmate. I can not find a word to discribe it. Maybe it is a good news for the DOMINO platform.Magnum must cultivate this part carefully. But over 900 guys have to leave. It is a bed news for all the engineers.
I saw a news about it on a forigen news web. Let me mark it here.

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MILPITAS, Calif. — Chip maker LSI Corp. said Wednesday it reached an agreement to sell its consumer products business to Magnum Semiconductor Inc. for an undisclosed sum.

LSI said the sale will help it focus on its storage and networking business.

The deal is being funded by a private equity investment.

Under the terms of the agreement, Magnum will offer employment to a "significant number" of LSI employees associated with the business.

LSI said the sale was made as part of the company's ongoing strategic review of its business portfolio, following its $4 billion acquisition of Agere Systems, which closed in April.

Separately, LSI slashed its second-quarter guidance and announced a plan to cut 900 jobs, or 13 percent of its non-production work force.

http://www.chron.com/disp/story.mpl/ap/fn/4926133.html
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http://dmnnewswire.digitalmedianet.com/articles/viewarticle.jsp?id=156935
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Wish CPG good luck!

Got cold

I have OT worked for several days. One night I was caught in the rain, then I felt cold in any room with air conditioner. God I got cold. Even though, I have to work over time continually.Maybe it will be better after Aug.

Come on cold, come on! I do not fear you, absolutely not!

:knight: