Bipolar/manic in elkhart

Today i went and seen anew doctor..He prescipted me "latuda"along with the trazodone, haldol..Im now on 2 antipchsycotic meds which leads me to believe im borderline schhzoprenic...They havent changed my diagnosis but im begining to wonder if i should as them when i go back

Febuary 27, 2012.I started my "dual addiction" class today.Im not sure why they say the lords prayer and the erenity prayer when its not a church,its a public building..Anyways after one class i dont see the match between addictions and mental disorder..Ill give it a few more meeting then ill decide if this class for me..Ive also spoke up about taking the anger managment class and called my case worker on this matter..Dont see why i have to wait to get into this class,especially if it was recommended by thhe doctor i seen at "cedars center".

So after a week off the pristiq and having an allergic reaction im starting to have alot of manic episodes..Im feverishly and spontaniously doing things and feeling the go.Go.Go mode.Itll only be followed by a downslide but when i dont know yet..Im in bed by 10 and 11 and up at the crack ass of dawn ready to do something..The haldol works good but it doesnt keep me at a level ground. its either a high or a low mentally..Anything in between is a rareity anymore.When i take it i pass out for an a hour and half then feel like shit for about an hour..I have to say on a postive note no more real delusions as long as i dont stare into the sky to much.at times i have to take 3mg instead of 2 mg just to slow my self down..Whether or not its good for me i dont know..All i know is a crash is going to happen i just dont know when.i also fond out this past week that im a 3rd generation bipolar/ manic peson.my grandma(r.i.p),my mom and now me have or had this mental disorder.grandma drank and ran away from her kids and became a jesus freak later in life,my mom ignores it and puts me down for doing something about it.

Had a bad day on saturday night.It started around 730pm when aafter having a killer lasagna dinner my 11yr old help Make.I wanted to lay down on the couch to let it settle and i fell asleep.Maybe a half hour of sleeping i woke uup with my 2 yr old jumping on my back and my 4 yr old screaming at the top of her lungs"give it back".I went from calm and relaxed to a raging bull with his nuts in a sling.I sent put the baby on the floor and immediatly focused on my 4yr old.I sent her to her room and outta no where my wife showed up and told her to go sit down.This has been an issue that been going on for a while now and doesnt seem to be making the situation any better by my wife going against my demands and letting my 4 yr old do what she wants and when she wants.I got up went to my room and called it a night.