Turning on the Light

Let's get this shithead a stress-ball!!

I think that's the approach I'll take from now on....

The past two days I have been staying away from home, at my Nana's, were there is no internet access, so I am combining two days into one. Cool, right?

Med update first today!

I have been having a bad stomach and eating less. We are continuing to monitor this.

Now for the meat and bones part:

How do you distinguish between boredom and depression?

I have not done much lately, for a while, now, because I just do not feel like it. I try and sleep a lot, but sleepless nights plague me. I wake up every few hours once I finally manage to get to sleep, and am exhausted during most've the day. It sucks.

My boyfriend thinks I a just bored; my mom thinks it could be slight depression. The two of them are really the only ones who know everything about me. (Well, my best friend knows a bit, too. ) I was telling my boyfriend, a few minutes ago, that what scares me is not wanting to do anything, and that not particularly bothering me. I just want to sleep, and I can't. And I don't feel like people need me or really want me, either.

My exact words were that "even I would not want to be stuck with me". I'm such a fucking needy person, and I don't want to let anyone in to see the true depth of it, because I feel like it will scare them and make them like me even less.

Wow. I'm one big bag of crazy.

Well, I've filled the med update requirement, and I have written some other stuff....Which I really would really rather not rehash right now, and do not have an answer to. So I will say goodnight.