For those of you who are still young, you might realize that time flies by especially slow, while you wait for your 18th birthday to come. For us who has been through that longing to become an adult, including me, have realized that as soon as one passes the 18 year-old mark, the rate at which time flies by just suddenly speeds up.
I realize that I am running out of time, even only at 21. Suddenly, I feel that I have so much more to accomplish in life and might not even have that kind of time. Constantly, I want to keep myself within a fast-paced lifestyle, trying to fit in as many things as possible into my schedule. I just could not bear the thought of having to sit and wait for something to come or happen. That is a terrible waste of time...precious precious time. If only the hourglass of my life can be turned upside down, so everything starts from scratch.
As I flew back home from Los Angeles, for the second time within 3 months, but this time alone, I had plenty of time to rethink many things. It was a 15-hr flight, with a refueling stop in Honolulu. It was the kind of solitude I had longed for. It was such a perfect time to sit down, let your mind go blank with current events, and just drift back to memories, and even focus on my original goals.
It was a great opportunity, indeed. As the humming sound of the plane engine continues, my mind enters into a dreamy state...a lot of flashbacks, images, and things I wanted to do. Sounded like a mess? Yeah, it sort of looked like it to me too...
Anyway, as precious time is slowly slipping by my very own fingers, and like sand, no matter how hard I try to hold on to it, small particles slip out and eventually my palm will be empty again. So while it is not yet completely out, I want to try to make the best out of everything. Perhaps some of you will never experience this kind of crisis in life, which may be due to difference in personality, lifestyle, and background, but I tell you, time is also slipping by without you even knowing. By the time you finally wake up to reality, it's too late
I don't ever want to live with that kind of regret in life,that's why I want to do as much as I can right now. Someday when I grow old, I will have lots to share with the younger generation. I will have lots of memories to cherish and live by. This sense of urgency that I am currently experiencing mainly stems from the fact that I have wasted so much time when I was younger. Now I have so many regrets. Why haven't I done this? Why have I stopped doing that? Why can't I be better at that? These questions haunt me all the time. They always find their way back into my life and question me, whenever I am ready to take a step forward. I wanted to badly to make up for the loss time...
If you are still young and confused as to what to do in life, follow your guts, and do it well. Don't look back, you can only go forward. It's too late for me to do that now, but I'm trying to pave a smoother way for myself from now on. My list of to-do things will become longer and longer. While you still have the luxury to avoid this "suffering" or remorse, do so. Aim that target and shoot the bullseye